THE PAIN

Before she became a mother she was a daughter who always prioritise her parents she's not perfect but she tries her best so hard so that they don't complain but her best would never be enough to satisfy her parents, so she blames herself for being not perfect, she only has one big dream in her life she wants to have good future she wants to be a soldier but her parents can't afford her study so she stops! it looks easy for her parents because the moment they say-she doesn't complain that she wants to finish her study so her parents think that she has no dreams at all, but because she stops her older sister can continue to study! Alexa sacrifice her dreams for her sister! she is a mother but she is also a daughter! she became a mother of Aliah and Alice! when she married Ryan she was so scared cause Ryan is an ex-convict she just marries Ryan for her parents but Ryan was very abusive he always tortures Alexa but also because of always being tortured by her own husband" she became fearless for her children!

{Alexa may always think that she is not worth it but the truth is she more than worth it or you are more than worth it being a mother is not easy and also being a wife!}

"when her husband slaps her" tears flow down to her eyes saying she can't bear it anymore, she knows she doesn't deserve being tortured just because her husband is always drunk, the three of them tortured her every day she has an ungrateful daughter's! her husband is rich but it doesn't mean he can do whatever he wants! he wanted to slap Alexa so he would just slap Alexa for no reason he was stress but its, not a reason for torturing her wife every day!"A mother may complain but she never gives up! a mother gets tired of it because no one appreciated her! a mother sometimes unreasonable, it's Alexa that is tired but always wanted to do her best for her parents, for her husband and children! "there is no way that Alexa wouldn't give up on Ryan!"Her mother said she was so young after all! Alexa would never become a wife when she is not a daughter first, Alexa or mother is a fighter that I would never give up easily because if a mother gives up it's like giving up her whole life!" she feels the pain she heard herself saying to escape you don't deserve this life"yes a mother doesn't deserve to be punished by her own family!is being a mother deserve to be punished or live a life full of pain? does a mother deserve to be hit by her husband just because his daughter got sick, Alice was so sick that day and Ryan was so angry with Alexa he grabs the scissor and cut Alexa's hair he kicks Alexa so hard because he thinks Alexa doesn't take care of her daughter he even forgot that it's not just his daughter it's also Alexa's daughter! their daughter he forgets that hurts Alexa cause he doesn't think of her Alexa cry so loud as she feels all the pain in her body full of bruises she cries until she passes out but Ryan was so angry he kicks Alexa in the head, Alexa once think if she does a mistake! sometimes Alexa believes no one cares about her but no one indeed cares about a mother because there are the one who always cares! even if no one cares about them being a mother is hard but she managed it that does show a mother is brave! it's hard to be perfect when you only think for others for your parents, for your husband, for your children or your family. she-beard it all even its, not something to be bear, but how long Alexa can bear it until she dies? she knows that she is tired of being hit by her husband but she always stays by Ryan's side, maybe we really can't understand Alexa for being so martyr! but if you think truly, you may be able to know what kind of a mother Alexa is, a mother can't be perfect! it's because there is no such thing, a mother is perfect the way they are! being a wife to a husband who never appreciates a wife existence is hard but Alexa endure all the pain that her husband makes her feel! Alice and Aliah should be thankful to Alexa because first of all Alexa was their mother! after fifteen years of being hit by her husband Ryan, Ryan have a brain tumour she pushed all the people around him he doesn't accept help from others even Alexa, her wife Alexa feel so useless she doesn't know how to help her husband!

"Wh-why are you always like that I try my best so hard to help you! we have a daughter's who also need me but you! how can I help you, you can never hit me again cause your sick Ryan! you're sick! were very poor now Ryan stop being so arrogant[Ryan slapped Alexa on her face]listen I'm trying to help you your, not a stranger to me you're my husband! I know you never love! but please just let me take care of you!"

"Get out of my house! you bitch-out!"

Alexa tries so hard to help Ryan, but Ryan always refused to take her help! Ryan was very ill and no one dares to help him except Alexa, she tried all the ways just to help Ryan