Chapter 3:

When I got home I was sulking. He is also not as handsome as Enrique Gil, Gerald Anderson, and other handsome male actors.

Andrew and I were just walking to the mall for our purchases.

After a month...

We are still back to normal. He came home after my birthday which is on June 20, 2018.

He can only talk through chat and it's okay, we'll only meet once because he's in Manila. I told him not to waste the fare if he still came here but he insisted so he wasn't stopped.

I smile widely when I remember something because I remember how I answered him. In a day he will be here in Bicol and we will be together. He is taking advantage of the time because he is coming back to Manila, he also can't stay long in the province because he is still studying in Manila.

Until One day he did something I didn't expect as I would be surprised.

He just surprised me after the school event because he sent me to the park according to his surprise.

I was surprised then and that day I also answered that it was a happy memory.

It's just sad that he's no longer beside me.

Yay, it's been 4 months and our monthsary is tomorrow. I was wondering what I would do for our 5th monthsarry.

"Maybe I'll just call him, I also can't go with him Manila to province, there's no fare, there's nothing left hahaha ..." I said to myself.

So I decided that I would just call him and tell him the gift I sent and he would just take it. I stocked that cup from my pockets and I hope he likes it because it's simple.

I have thoughts in my mind, the speed of events but oh well, it's up to me as long as I'm happy.

"Wish I could be the one

The one who could give you love

The kind of a love you really need"

Today is our 5th monthsary I call him all day but he doesn't answer so I just thought of opening a Facebook account because I was bored and then he also doesn't answer my call, I'll just let him know his Facebook.

" Wish I could say to you

That I'll always stay with you

But baby, that's not me"

While I was looking at the messages I stopped at a message I saw. What the fucksake ?! Is it serious? He did even the distance ... I just knelt and cried at what I saw and asked myself.

You need someone

Willing to give their heart and soul to you

Promise you forever

Baby, that's something I can't do

Oh, I could say that I'll be all you need

But that would be a lie

I know I'd only hurt you, I know I'd only make you cry

I'm not the one you're needing

I love you, goodbye

"Why? Why did he do this to me? I can't believe he can do this to me. This is so fuck up. The person I trust so much will only destroy the trust I gave him, how can he surprise me with his actions I was also surprised by what he was doing. Did I fail? What did I do to make him feel that way about me? "

I picked up my other cellphone to call him and ask what it was I was seeing. Is he fooling around? Because if yes, I can't. This is my first relationship that just led to this. I called him but he didn't answer. I also texted him but there was no reply.

I didn't stop calling him until he answered my call.

"Hello Andrew, why did you do that? All this time are you fooling me first? All this time are you also making fun of us?" I said while crying

I hope someday you can

Find some way to understand

I'm only doing this for you

I don't really wanna go

But deep in my heart, I know

This is the kindest thing to do

You need someone

Who'll be the one that I could never be

Who'll give you something better

Than the love you'll find with me

"What? Am I not enough for you yet? So you looked for someone else? What now? You can't speak because everything I said is true? Andrew, I trust you I trust you so much but what did you do? You broke the trust I gave you? You're keeping us together. Why is it our monthsary now? It's our 5th monthsary now, isn't it? Is that why you don't answer my call to you because you're busy there with a woman of yours. It's better that we just separate. You're not worth my tears and you're not worth fighting for Andrew. I hope you can find the lesson here is what I did to make you aware of that forever. " I would have hung up when he spoke.

"Ma-mahal Sorry. I thought because I thought ---"

Oh, I could say that I'll be all you need

But that would be a crime

I know I'd only hurt you, I know I'd only make you cry

I'm not the one you're needing

I love you goodbye

"What do you think? Do you think I can't take you seriously? Is that so? No-Andrew, we can't just split up. I can't be with someone who's cheating on me behind my back. The thickness of your face makes you look like me "Like what I've said earlier you're not worth it in all the efforts I make."

When I dropped the call. I cried and cried. Just as I was surprised by his actions, I was also surprised by what he did that would break my heart.

Until one day while I was helping Mama. Suddenly I cried I raised my head to stop crying then I success I did. But when that night came when my friends were already there while I was talking about my cries just now, I cried for my Untie and my friend.

I also blame myself and why did I rush through all this...

Andrew was flirting with me but I didn't let him because I didn't want to. I don't want to experience with him again what hurts my heart.

Is he keeping us together? I don't think I can love again no I mean I don't know if I can still trust. Because that's how it is, when your trust is broken, it's hard to restore it, no matter what man comes to you, as long as you have a trust issue, it's gone, someone's trust can't be restored.

Leaving someone when you love someone is the hardest thing to do

When you love someone as much as I love you

Oh, I don't wanna leave you

Baby, it tears me up inside

But I'll never be the one you're needing

I love you goodbye

"Loving him is an inspiration but that inspiration can make your heartbreak into pieces that you are scared to love again. It's scary to love when you give it you're all. So I realize that he's not worth it. It takes a long time to move on but I can handle it as long as I'm helping myself. "

And now months past I could finally say that I'm happy right now, thanks to my friends and thanks t god that right at this moment I'm okay.

I can finally say I love you, goodbye.

" Baby, it's never gonna work out

I love you goodbye"

I LOVE YOU GOODBYE (song)

By Nina Girado