Chapter 25 - Fusspot

~30 Years Ago~

1994, William Darcy was just 18 years old when he got accepted at Oxford University even tho he's not that good in high school because he is always slacking and driven by addiction of car racing. He chose to study Business Specializing Marketing and he has no idea what that means. He may be a playboy, but he never had a girlfriend that lasted long, he intentionally broke up with them after he gets what he wanted. His dorm room at school is just front of Lucius's room who is already at his 2nd year that time and 1 year older than him. At first, they don't care about each other's existence, not until Lucius saw William crying in his room because he got failing grade in one of his subject.

"You okay fusspot?" asked Lucius while knocking the door even if it's already open.

"What do you think? Do I look like okay to you?" replied William while sobbing.

"Well I don't know. I just wanna ask, and see if I can help you."

"What would you do? Punch my professor? I would glad to if you'll do that for me."

Lucius chuckled and smiled.

"What's funny huh?"

"No..I just can't believe that big body of yours but you just cried because of grades."

"So now the body is the basis of emotions?"

"Maybe..I thought your tough...I guess I'm wrong."

"If you'll let me punch you you'll see."

"I beg your pardon? You'll punch me?"

"You said you're wrong about me, I'm going to take it back."

"By hurting me? That's not how you measure toughness my friend. It's here and here." said Lucius while coming towards William and tapped his chest at head.

"Why you act like a priest? And please stop touching me." said William while avoiding Lucius's hand.

"We've been neighbor for 6 months, but I still didn't know your name. I'm Lucius Bennett by the way, it's Lucius Selvig now." Lucius introduced himself by reaching his hand to handshake with William.

Lucius Bennett is the original birth name of Lucius since his father is a Bennet, but after he abandoned them, his mother was furious that she even removed and changed their last names and revoked it into Selvig.

"I'm William.." replied William and shaked hands with Lucius.

"Your name stops at William?"

"It's William Darcy..Now happy?"

"Darcy...Hmm no wonder."

"No wonder what?"

"Huh, nothing.."

William and Lucius started to get along and more comfortable to each other. Lucius helped William with his minor subjects.

As William is getting closer on Lucius, he started to question his sexuality hence he noticed that when Lucius came into his life, he never had a girlfriend again and starting to lose his interest on women. Then he started to ask Lucius about his past relationship.

"Lucius, I have a question if you don't mind." said William while laying on Lucius's bed and drinking soft drinks.

"What is it?" replied Lucius while making his lesson plan at his study table.

"You ever had a girlfriend before?"

"Once, when I was at Jr. High School..Why?"

"How'd you break up with her?"

"I'm the one who broke up with her.. It's just...I can't tell you the real reason for now."

"There's something I want to clarify on myself and to you." said William while standing up and went behind Lucius then he holds Lucius's both shoulders.

Lucius froze then stopped writing and there was a minute of silence in the room

"Lucius....." said William while continued to rub Lucius's shoulder.

Lucius slowly looked up and William kissed him surprisingly and intimately, he stand up while William embracing and kissing him, then he brought him to his own bed and continued to shag him.

"This is wrong William." said Lucius while reaching his underwear under the sheet.

"As long as no one knows."

"I'm a Christian."

"And so am I, mine's worst, Darcy's don't allow homosexuals, my father once told me if one between my brother or me is a poof, he'll banish it.

"Then why'd you still do it?"

"I can't help it...I love you, I don't know, I've been thinking a lot about this since the day you came into my room. I looked everywhere, I even read books, I tried to stop it, but it always turns out that I love you.." said William while sobbing and faced Lucius.

"William don't.."

"Did you love me too?"

Lucius stumbled and hesitated to answer.

"Well then.." said William while getting off to bed, wears his shorts and about to go out from Lucius's room.

"Wait." Lucius stopped him. "Promise me one thing..No one should know about this."

"Of course.." Then William went back to Lucius's and lay again beside Lucius. "Does this mean you accept me?"

"What?"

"I mean did you just accept my feelings towards you?" said William while getting closer to Lucius's cheeks.

"You didn't even court me." said Lucius while chuckling.

"Didn't I? Okay."

William held Lucius's face with his two hands and faced it on him.

"Lucius, will you be my boyfriend?"

"..Hm... Boyfriend sounds too gay.." Lucius laughed.

"Okay, Lucius..Will you be my lover?"

Then Lucius kissed him on the lips.

"..Yes." replied Lucius after the kiss.

Then William kissed him back and he shagged Lucius again but this time, Lucius isn't nervous anymore. They're just 19 years old that time and afraid of the society. They dated each other of their entire college life.

1997. Lucius graduated first and William is still at his 4th year, he was proud and anxious at the same time because he's afraid that things will never be the same again. Lucius became a College Professor in London, but it doesn't stop them to support each other until William graduates and employed at Mustachee Development Corporation in Cambridge.

Lucius bought a house of his own at Windsor Gardens and William lived at Hampstead with his parents, everyday, William travels from London to Cambridge just for his work, but he mostly sleeps at Lucius's house. There, they lived like married couples, in their free times, William went back on competing at Car Racing Tournaments and Lucius is always there to support him. William taught Lucius how to drive a car so that he won't commute anymore when William is not around to fetch him, but no matter how he tried, he's scared in controlling cars or any vehicles, he even crashed them at the the tree. So he swear to not drive a car again because William and him was hospitalized because of it.

June 01 2002, Lucius been dating William for 8 years already. He and William is at his bed talking about their future if they continue being like this.

"You know my father keep asking me why I'm mostly not at home. He asked if I'm seeing a woman already." said William while rubbing Lucius's hair.

"Yeah, I thought the same way. Let's not wait that they will start suspecting you." said Lucius while using William's armpit as his pillow.

"What's the plan?"

"Let's date a girl."

"I beg your pardon?" William was surprised.

"There was a girl who worked at the restaurant near the school where I teach."

"And?"

"I think she likes me. She keeps on following me, she's taller than me, but she said that I was cute."

"What's her name?;And you're planning to date her?"

"Her name is Susan, Susan Hurst, she's Australian actually and yes, I think I should date her and you should find a girl too.. "

"That's madness Lucius."

"We talked about this before that we can date a woman for good."

"But what if we'll love them truly?"

"Then that's a good sign, we must act like the man we are born to be in front of this society."

"But..What will happen to us?"

"It doesn't mean that we will end everything, we love each other right? But we are already old, I'm turning 27 and you're turning 26 in the next few months, your parents are already questioning you, don't let them dig deeper."

"I'll try.. but don't let this change us, promise me Lucius."

Lucius kissed William on the lips.

"I promise."

"Hm. Fusspot" said William while chuckling.

"Shut up you ultra fusspot." said Lucius while pinching William's nose.

In the first week of July, Lucius dated Susan Hurst who is just looking for a wealthy man that can satisfy her wants in life. There once a time that Lucius brought her at his house at Windsor Gardens then William helped him arranged the set and designs the house just to impress Susan. William felt jealous at first but he soon get over it, he hasn't work out yet how to find a woman for him. One thing, Susan never saw William in her entire lifetime with Lucius, she just knew him when she married Hugh, but William already recognized her.

Emily on the other hand was already a Journalist at BBC, she worked along with Willie who's her classmate at University of Cambridge. Emily sensed that Willie have feelings on her, but her heart is looking for something. There once a night when she bumped on Lucius, her longtime crush and a friend whom she never saw for over 8 years, and finally, her heart was opened again, she now know what she's been looking for, Emily knows that Lucius is not interested in women but she still hopes for a little chance that Lucius might like her and she's willing to accept whatever he is. She never dared to ask Lucius if he's single or not, she just showed him affection from her, but Lucius is ignoring it since he's already in a relationship with Susan and William. Instead, Lucius came up on an idea of introducing her to William, so he set up on a date for William and Emily at the restaurant, there, Emily was shocked and amazed of how good looking William is.

"Hel, hello... I'm William, William Darcy." greeted William while reaching his hand onto Emily to shake hands before sitting. "You must be.. Emily Gardiner that Lucius talked about."

William maybe a playboy and not serious when it comes to women in his youth, but this time, he has a feeling that Emily is the right girl for her, he thinks that he is regaining his heterosexuality when she's with Emily.

"You're a friend of Lucius?" Emily asked shyly.

"Um yes. I think we both know..that he set us up on this dinner."

During that night, Emily get to know William and even surprisingly found out that he is Willie's older brother but William told her not to tell his brother about them. She can't avoid to think that William is a homosexual like his friend, or even more. But as far as we know, Emily doesn't care about man's sexuality, as long as that man loves her, she will also love it more that he gives. Her heart are still rooting for Lucius, but as time pass by, she and William are getting closer to each other and she finally developed a feelings on him. After many times of asking William to date her, she finally said yes.

A month later, back on Windsor Gardens, Lucius and William is having their dinner date celebrating their 9th Year Anniversary together. They're supposed to be eating in fancy restaurants and strolling whole London, since they have girlfriends now, they have to limit their moments together.

"We're just hurting ourselves Lucius." said William while pouring wine on Lucius's glass.

"I brought Susan here last night."

"Are we sure about what we are doing?"

"...I think she's pregnant." Lucius said while holding his tears.

William was shocked and starts to sobs.

"Lucius, are you serious right now?"

"Yes, and you love Emily too right?"

"I told you this is not a good idea, this will bring no good to us."

"She asked me to marry her this November before her pregnancy become obvious...And I agreed. I have no choice, she's pregnant"

"What? Why are you rushing to marry a woman? If you don't love me anymore just tell me, don't make me suffer." said William while crying and holding Lucius's hands.

"Yes, I love Susan and the child on her womb...but my love for you is beyond everything in this world. I maybe tied to Susan but you owned my heart, someday you'll understand."

"Are you leaving me?"

"What? Never, but we need to move onto next chapter of our lives."

William and Lucius cried holding their hands.

"Why can't we just be with together?" asked William while crying.

Lucius still continued to marry Susan through lawyers on November 2002. William didn't dared to witness his lover's wedding and Emily isn't aware about it.

William went to the bar and intentionally want to get drunk. Emily followed him there, she can clearly hear William yelling Lucius's name at the bar so she took him out because the customers starting to laugh behind his back, then called Willie to get his brother. There Willie was just surprised that William and Emily know each other and he was heartbroken when he found out that they've been dating for 4 months already.

Emily suspects that William and Lucius had a relationship and broke up which isn't right. She maybe correct about William and Lucius's relationship, but they actually didn't broke up, they just kept distance to each other and William is hurt about it.

A months later, Emily found out that she's already pregnant, she was so happy and nervous at the same time, she's nervous if William will have the same feeling as hers if she told him. But William was also happy about it that he decided to rent a provincial house at Haverhill so that Emily can spend her maternity leave with no stress from environment. They decided to live there and started a new life with their upcoming children who is Junior.

But deep inside, William was actually scared and anxious since he's still in relationship with Lucius, they've been contacting each other every night and update everything, they still sneaked and meet each other once a week. He told Lucius about Emily being pregnant and was so happy for him, Susan was expected to give birth Lucas by the end of March. Lucius asked William if he's planning to marry Emily before she gives birth. In fact yes, but he thinks that Emily isn't looking forward to it.

The fact that Emily is doubting if she wanted to marry William because she's still scared that William might having a relationship with other men, so she waits until William himself will propose to her. In short both of them are still doubting to each other, not until she already gave birth to Junior, she saw in her two eyes that William dropped a tears on their son in happiness.

"He looked...exactly..like me." said William while tearing up in delivery room.

"What should we name him?" asked one of the nurse.

"William, William Darcy Jr." replied William with a very big smile and dropped tears.

Emily's pain in giving birth just faded away when she saw how William reacted seeing their son. Then that's it, she finally made her decision, she'll automatically say yes if William will ask to marry her.

The night at the hospital, William is still carrying Junior and Emily is tired asleep. Lucius arrived with his son Lucas who is already 6 months old. They haven't seen each other for almost a year, they surely missed each other. If you're going to ask them, did they still love each other? Yes, they never said that they'll break up, but William was now changed when he saw his Junior, said that his world changed when his son came into his life.

"You finally have it." said Lucius while holding his tears.

"You were right about everything. At first, I thought I'll live a miserable life with Emily, but now.. I think I can be the happiest person in the world."

"I'm so happy for you..Can I, hold him for a bit?" asked Lucius.

"Sure.." William handed Junior to Lucius and Lucius handed Lucas to William.

"He looked exactly like you William." said Lucius while carrying and looking at Junior.

"I know.. That's why..I named him after my name.. He's my Junior." said William while wearing a priceless smile.

"He should be."

"What's this little Lucius name?" asked William to Lucius while carrying Lucas.

"Lucas, he only has my eyes, the rest are from Susan."

"I see...His eyes are just like yours."

They sat down on the chair embracing their children, Lucius still carries Junior and William still holding Lucas.

"It feels good isn't it? Having a child." said Lucas.

"It's the happiest day of my life, I never thought I could still experience happiness again..And you're here with me." replied William holding Lucius hands.

Lucius just smiled at William then they hold their smiling faces to each other. They saw a photographer walking away from the room, Lucius called it and told him to take pictures of them.

They made two copies, 1 each and promised that if when their sons turns 21 they will be the one give it to them, but William will be the one to give that photo to Lucas and Lucius will be the one to give that photo to Junior in their 21st birthday...

A months has passed, William has awoken, he decided to break up his almost 10 years relationship with Lucius. Emily heard their conversation on the phone, she can clearly hear William crying, there, she concluded that William truly loves her that he gave up his longest lover for her and their son Junior. She had mix feelings that day, she's happy but sad thinking how William felt after ending a years of relationship. But they still seeing each other, at least twice a year, they're still sneaking and hooking up to each other.

Then a month passed, William and Emily talked about their marriage, they want a fancy wedding so they have to work first and save a lot of money, then also wait for Junior to turn 5.

But it didn't happen because 4 years later, Lucius is sensing that his wife Susan has been hiding something from him, so he checked their room and look for something, there, he found a divorce paper that Susan has been planning. He ignored it at first and pretended he didn't see it. But suddenly a week after that, Susan just rushed to him accusing him for being homosexual even tho he is not seeing William anymore, she forced Lucius to sign the divorce paper and abandoned him with Lucas who just turned 5 years old.

Emily and William on the other hand are already planning their wedding to be held on February 14 2009. They were so excited because the money they saved for almost 5 years is enough to buy a bigger house. But suddenly, William received a text message from Lucius that he's outside at their house, he was shocked that Emily sensed that there is something wrong.

"What's wrong?" asked Emily with worry.

"Nothing..I just realized..that.. I'm late for work." William stumbled and rushed to the garage where Lucius is.

So Emily immediately followed him in secret.

"What are you doing here? Emily's inside." asked William.

But instead, Lucius hugged him and cried.

"She broke up with me." said Lucius while crying

"What?"

"Yes, I think she found out about us."

"Okay, let's talk about this to your house, now is not a good time, Emily is inside, she might hear us. Wait for me at Cambridge, I'll follow then we continue to talk at your house okay?"

Lucius hugged him again and kissed him on the lips, William missed that kiss for a year, so he kissed him back. Emily didn't see that coming so she was frightened and bumped into a can. There, William and Lucius saw her in shock.

"Emily...." William's eyes widen in shocked and embarrassment.

William came near to Emily.

"Look... I'm sorry.....you have to see that..slap me if you want....That's my mistake..But please.. Don't tell my parents about this." said William while crying and quickly get inside his car then drove away leaving Lucius crying and Emily who's in shock.

Emily have no idea that it was already Lucius's wife who broke up with him, she just thought that it was his girlfriend, she also have no idea that Lucius already had a son.

She looked at Lucius, not moving, just nodding his head down while crying, feeling guilty about everything. Emily felt pity and mercy for Lucius, she came near to him and hugged him instead.

"Hey there old friend, it's gonna be alright." the only thing that Emily said to Lucius while hugging it.

Lucius didn't respond, he just cried and walked away.

Lucius decided to move to Paris, France a week later to run away from the biggest mistake he made. He applied as a historian there and always bring Lucas to his workplace. When Lucas already graduated at Sr. High School, he sent him back to England first to continue his studies there at Cambridge. Then after his term, Lucius followed Lucas to England after 2½ years and got his house back at Windsor Gardens.

William on the other hand married Princess Irina, the Prime Minister's daughter and had two sons already. Then Emily also married William's younger brother, and have two sons too.

On August 2023, Lucius lived in Paris for a total of 15 years. On the day of Junior's 20th birthday, William met Lucius again at Cambridge on his way to Junior's apartment.

"Lucius?" asked William while getting out from his car.

Lucius hesitated to face William because of his trauma facing him again. Not until William held his hand and make him face to William.

"Wiwilliam?"

William immediately hugged Lucius, he still can't believe that he will see him again for 15 years of being away to each other. Lucius can hardly talk to him and holding his tears. This time they are already 46 and 47 years old, white hairs starting to bloom in their heads. And once again, William starts seeing Lucius.

~Present Day~

Lucas, Junior, Emily and even William himself is crying imagining the situation that Lucius and William had been through. Junior came near to William and hugged his Dad again.

"I'm sorry Dad, I'm so sorry..." said Junior while hug crying his father then Emily followed to hug William too.

"I'm sorry William..." said Emily while crying.

Then Junior came to Lucas and hugged him tightly.

"Lucas.. I'm sorry about everything...I was wrong about your father..I hope you'll forgive me." Junior cried while hugging Lucas then Lucas hugged him back too.

"It's okay....No need to apologize, you have done nothing wrong.." replied Lucas while crying

~5 Years Later~

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