"I'm born ill"

I'm Thea since I was born I've been sick and until I'm 17 I'm living in the hospital but now I'm already 22 and this is my story. 15 years ago when I'm 7 years old I have a boy best friend his named is Jay he is the son of 1 of my doctors and he is 10 years old . We became close, and every weekend he's going to the hospital with he's father and I can only play with him every weekend cuz he have a class every Monday to Friday and I don't have any friends to play. One-day When we're playing he said that " this coming 25 day of November I'm going abroad with my brother I'm going to study in America - are you really going? - oumm I need to study that's my last request of my mother before she died - I want you to be here but - don't worry i will going back if I finish this study - I will wait you!

7 years past and I'm already 15 years old I'm at my room staring at the window and I hear my doctor said - does Jay is okay!! With a shocked voice so I go out to my room and ask he's father- doc Lim there's something happen to Jay ? - ammm Thea - huh.... What is something happen to him does he's okay ? - amm he got an car accident and he lost his memory..... I'm speechless when I hear that line, after I heard that I go back to my room while crying and said to myself - does he still remember me? does he never forget me?

After that my mother back to the hospital she saw me crying - oh what happened why are you crying!? I answered - I'm not crying - don't lie at me I saw you crying , that there's something going on?- nothing, amm mom what did you bring? - ah this, it's a fruit I buy this for you - Omo ohhh this is my favorite - omm I know² that's why I buy that cuz I know you like it - thank you mom( with a smiley face).

-I found a small circle in your head, and it's possible this is cancer But I'm not sure this time amm maybe let's try next time ( my doctor said) - do everything doc to my daughter - yes I will do my best to my patients.. I'm at the outside waiting for my mother there's a car stop in front of the hospital and I see Jay on the car so I run to him and I shout his name - Jay!!! He look at me and said - who are you? How do you know my name? I look at him and said - you ~~... You really did not recognize me ? He answered - did I know you? Sorry but I didn't recognize you " and then he continue walking - it's me Thea I'm your friend 7 years ago - sorry I really didn't know you," my tears start falling..Then my tears start falling - Thea!! What are you doing? - ohh mom - why are you here? Your crying again? - I'm not , I'm waiting for you - ohh let's go inside - oum ( with a smile face).

- it's cancer ( my doctor said) then my mother start crying and said - what if we do the surgery? - amm yes but it have only 10% chance to her to survive and 90% she will die... - It's okay mom. - Thea~~

- Jay - you again? What are you doing? - mind your own business and plss stop bothering me... Okay?, By the way how did you know my name? - I said you earlier that I'm your friend 7 years ago, and I know why you didn't recognize me , you lost your memory - oum I lost my memory so what ? Plss stop bothering me - I will never stop until you will recognize me! - (thinking) is she's crazy? Or what?..

One beautiful morning Im walking with my mother - mom - oum - is this fate - what are you talking about? - why me? There's many people in this world but why me? - Thea, the god have a plan for you, stay strong!.. hm? I'm always here for you no matter what happen, amm what do you want to do ? I do everything for you hm? - nothing, I just want to be like others have a normal life - you want to travel somewhere? - I want to see ocean - okay, that's all ? - oumm .

- woahh it's very beautiful, mom can we go here sometimes ? - oum yes if you want , if this make you happy - mom - oum? - Will I die? - what are you talking about? You will not ..

- Dad - oh Jay, what's bring you here? - I'm just want to visit you - does your class already done? Oum you want to eat lunch with me? - oumm okay..

A month ago he still did not recognize me and I heard that he going back to states but I can't do anything to him I don't know what I'm going to do so that he can recognize me, but it's time to say goodbye again to him.