Chapter 1

At first glance, he is not that good-looking guy. He's not the type of a boy who can turn your head when you pass by. His skinny arms and legs are like dancing bamboos. His eyes are big too that he can maybe see little things that I don't. Adding with his messy hair. Ugh! My eyes are rolling every time I saw him.

And lastly, I don't have any feelings for him, at all.

Nothing at all.

I don't like someone who's not been caught my small eyes. Of course. Who has been crushing on someone who's not handsome, fresh, or neat?. I'm not saying that he's that stinky overall but I swear. He's not my damn type. He's the real opposite of my crush. Zane has the same eyes as mine. Older than me. Tall. Handsome, fair skin, and smart. All the girls at my age are like have a crush on him. Above all. He has all the standards of my dream man someday. But because of this specific one. Everything has changed. He changes me on how I think or look at a guy. He changed everything. First, about my ultimate crush. He turned my mind upside down and it just landed on him. He suddenly caught my eyes in just one blink with my whole attention to him not knowing that I'm not like this before. I never thought that day will come. The day that changes my whole life.

Flashback. The day was when it all started.

It's recess time. Everyone is busy with their own thing. Some boys and girls are loudly chitchatting with their group. Laughing, exchanging random stories while eating. While here I am. Still standing beside our classroom door, waiting for my best friends to appear. Joyce told me before they left. I'll just wait here for a little moment but where she is now? She's with Winly. They told me that they will buy quickly but where they are?. They are just buying our snacks at the canteen. What took them so long? I didn't join them cos I'm not fond of many people around me. But where you at now Bamby?. Damn! I'm now starving. My stomach is searching for its food.

That serves you, Bamby! Fine. Okay. This serves me. So what? Oh, girl! I exhaled. When you be out of the canteen Joyce?. I asked myself. I'm getting bored here and irritated. Who's at fault then?. No one. Just blame your hard-headed self, young lady.

Fine. I'll admit it. My fault. What should I do then? Run fast towards the full-packed canteen? No way!. I can still handle my hunger. I know my friends, they are on their way here.

I stood up here in nearly ten minutes. Still waiting and hoping for their arrival. Watching every student who is stepping out of the canteen.

But after a while. Someone else's coming. And It's not who I wished to see.

Here he comes. Escorted by his friend Ryan. They're chuckling with each other like something's going to be fun while getting closer to where I am. At first. I didn't give them any glance coz I asked myself. Who they are to stare at?. I'm not rude you know. It's just that. I'm too shy or not so friendly to any lads. Even to my classmates. I had enough boys in my life. That's why I'm not into boys. Just only, of course to my ultimate crush. I just drew a picture of them that comes into my mind before looking away. I pretended to look far out from where they are walking to. I'm a bit shocked when they finally stopped in front of me. At first, I didn't get what's behind their chuckles or murmuring thingy. I just stared at them. But when they are smiling at me like an idiot. That's the time I swallowed hard even though my throat became dry. And that pains me.

What are they doing?. Are they tripping me? My forehead creased.

"Bamby, we have something to say," Jaden speaks first. He keeps on smiling but I can sense how nervous he is. I raised my right brow while staring at him intently.

What do you guys want to tell?. He's still smiling like a fool huh?. What's that for?. Hmm?.

"And why is that?.." I ask. I'm too curious about what's they're up to. Even if my knees are shaking because of thirst, I still tried to calm myself down. I have to squeeze my lower back just to be able to listen to them.

So weird of this two huh!!

"Ryan told me that he likes you.." Jaden confessed this like a flash. In just one snap. I didn't comprehend what he is trying to say. My sanity got blocked. All of my senses suddenly disappeared. I have to do pinch my wrist just so my senses arise back again. My eyes scanned his face when I have the confidence to do it but all I can see is his blurred smile. I blink once again only to see if they're simply tripping or not but then when they both giggled while turning their back from me is the answer. They are just tripping. A heavy sigh came out of me. I suddenly shivered and grew cold.

Crazy bastards!! Come back here and I'll kick your asses! I almost shouted this at them. Thanks to my inner self. I am restraint.

I almost forgot that day like it didn't happen at all. Until this one day came. Every time he roams around, I can suddenly sense when he's by my side, behind me, or just standing out there, it keeps on bothering me even if I'm just doing nothing. Every bit of his actions is so disturbing to me. I don't know. This is so unexpected and I don't even know why I'm acting like this. It's so strange of me. I'm not like this towards him before but from that day, it began this all.

And just like that. Without knowing it. I realize that my day is not complete without secretly glancing at him. I guess this is not just a simple affection. I believe that it's so deep that no words can't express how much I have a crush on him. From that day on. I want to look at him every second of time for as long as I can. I want to know more about him. What are his hobbies or what type of girl he likes? Damn!

Girl, why you so obsessed with him?.

Boy, I wish you wanna know.