falling for him or not?

I was not sure about my feelings so I told him to give me some time to decide and ran home . I called Sia at my home and told her about Aarav's proposal but she was the fan him so started arguing with me . she had almost a list of qualities of Aarav . it's not that I don't like him but I don't know if I really did – I said . Sia slept at my home that night and we watched a new drama till midnight .

Next day on my way to the company I  saw that there were security camera on the whole way , street lights were increased and even company's security was increased . I was surprised maybe that was due to the case . I asked Kartik to thanks the officer in charge for the arrangements . but he told me that that was Aarav who did it . after that I kept asking myself that did had he done that for me ? I went to get me a cup of coffee to free my end up of Aarav's thoughts . when I came back there were flowers on my desk . this rude guy can be romantic too . it has a note that he can wait for me forever but please be a little kind and don't make me wait for long . such a contradictory note . I drank my coffee and finished the script . I know I need a chocolates to swallow Aarav's harsh comments on my script but I was out of them . office canteen do not have chocolates and there was a break so I went to a nearby shop . I ate a chocolate and went to Aarav's office. He was having coffee so I said that I would come later but he said that's okay so I sat and showed him the script . he said he would read it and inform me he asked me why I went to buy a chocolate all the way to market . well that's my way to control my anger . chocolates are the sweetest they cam make you happy and improves your mood . so whenever I am nervous or wanted to control my anger I eat chocolates . no one can speak harsh when filled with sweetness  I wonder how he gets information about my every little thing. I took his leave . I was told by the producer that I have to prepare a presentation for investors about the storyline of drama so I started working on it . a man with 4-5 people came and went to Aarav's office I feel like I have seen him somewhere . in a moment there was quite loud noise from his office . I was a little worried for him so I asked a Raghav about it . he told me that he is Aarav's business rival  - MR Anand Mathur. he was also after this company but couldn't get it so maybe he was unable to digest his defeat . he uses young actors and actress in a bad way for his own benefits.

I was working on my desk and my file slipped down. I got up to pick up the file and MR. Mathur came." So you are the one that Aarav is chasing" he said . and you are the one that Aarav defeated recently- I said." You have a sharp tongue . know who are you speaking to" – he said . I know I am speaking to one who use people for his benefits. Excuse me now I have a lot of work to do I said and left for restroom.

After they went I was called by Kartik that Aarav wanted to see me . as soon as I went to his office he hugged me . maybe he was in stress so I didn't stop him  . I consoled him a little and get him a cup of water . he looked relaxed so I told him that I should go now . but he stopped me and hold my hands . he said that he wanted to be with me as he feels relaxed when I am with him . this makes my heart beat faster so my watch started beeping . I got nervous and told him that it is an alarm . he asked me to come for evening snack with him . I said I am busy but he said he had to discuss about script so I can't deny . he have a lot of tricks .

In evening he took me to a restaurant nearby . there were love songs playing on there. I was never a music person before I met him. But suddenly now it feels like music has it meaning. I could feel the lyrics. I tapped my forehead so that I could me out of my own thoughts. he ordered some snacks and hot coffee  . the waiter bought it but he slipped accidentally and hot coffee was about to pour on me and Aarav covered me with his hand but it slipped on his hands . I was not hurt but I was having a feeling of burns on my heart  . I wasn't able to understand what the hell was happening to me nowadays . Aarav saved me once again it wasn't that serious but I was worried so I got some ointment from nearby medical and applied to his hands . I yelled at him badly that he should care about himself rather than others . instead of being he was smiling and asked me if I care about him . I didn't reply out of frustration. as we were leaving the restaurant my feet slipped but he held me his hands was on my waist and pulled with closer . our eyes met . his eyes felt like a deep ocean . my heart starting beating again . maybe I am having a heart disease or my algophobia worsened . I  gave excuse of alarm . I could not stop this because it was due to my disease that I have to keep wearing this watch to check my vitals regularly.

Aarav dropped me to company and went to meet his uncle – MR . Sharma . I remembered his uncle . he was with Aarav more than his father . even in our school meetings and functions he was their instead of his family . Aarav loves him a lot . I started working on the presentation but I was nervous that will the investors approve the storyline of the drama or not . I have to give my best in it to prove myself . I knew that if I lose on my first drama I will never be able to do it again . the more I was thinking about this the more nervous it made me and I already had all the chocolates I bought so I had to go to buy them again . I wished that chocolates should be available in office canteen too . as  I went down I saw a boards of chocolate available for free with a note down – I will try my best to make you feel special .

I got goosebumps reading that . it feels really special when someone thinks that much for you . there was all types of chocolate and the one I always prefer that one too .  he notice every little thing about me .I felt like a princess . there were rumors in the office of me and Aarav dating . it feels awkward working like that . I think I should keep a distance with me . but my heart was saying something else . did I really fall for him ? I asked myself . I really didn't want it really hurts when someone cheats you I know that because I have experienced it . this is the reason I got algophobia and don't want to go through that trauma again . it was one of the hardest moment of life . the part which I really want to delete from my life . one could move on from hardships  but memories always stay . you can't erase them . that can only get overshadow by good memories . when love breaks you the pain it gives is unbearable. It breaks every single piece of your heart. You know what's the most difficult thing is defining love. Everyone has it's different definition on the basis of what they have experienced. love makes you a fool. I can give advises to my friends about relationships. I used to tell them whom to trust or not just by saying faces I have a intuition but I ended up being cheated myself. The reason i don't trust people anymore.

I get my work almost done but  it's late again . I gathered my courage . securities have also increased so I don't have to worry . as I got on the gate of the company Aarav was waiting for me . this time there wasn't any physical contact but still as soon as I saw him waiting down my heart beat start increasing . I got from his expressions that he is suspicious of the beeping sound every now and then so I decided to take out the watch he came near me and asked for watch . but I refused so he took it forcingly and understand that the beeping sound always he heard was of heart rate .

He smiled but this time his smile was beautiful . it was like flower blooming , birds chirping maybe  my words aren't enough to explain it. I should not try to explain it . he asked that why my heart beat keeps increasing nowadays but I started giving him excuses that – heart beat can be increased due to many reasons like nervousness stress . but he do not seemed to be convinced by my lame excuses . I saw him happy like never before not even when he cracked the deal of this company . he said he would drop me as I am his employee he opened the door of car and I sat . he always drive himself when with me so out of curiosity I asked that why he drives himself when he have a driver . he answered that he likes to do my every work himself .  while he was driving he asked me to play a game with him . I agreed . he explained that he would start with a word and the other one should answer whatever comes in mind in 10 sec . I knew what he was trying to do so I smartly agreed and made up my mind to think before saying . he started the game with beautiful I said smile to which he said yours and I blushed and rolled up my fist and tried to control my emotions . that's what I always do . he said happiness I said love he answered you . I got him caught in his own game . I told him to never play tricks with me and laughed . I made a cute face . I could even loose to see his smile and this cute face . now I knew the reason of my behaviour . I started liking him . but I could not trust any man . my heart says too trust but mind contradicts .

My home came so I get out of the car and thanked him . but he said to stop and came out of the car . my watch was in his hands so I understood that he came back to return it . he said he could have given the watch tomorrow or from the car itself . he didn'tt answered and started to came to me . his expressions were different . I wonder what is he up to now . he came close to me hold me through the waist and pulled me towards him . he was continuously looking into my eyes . he held my hand . I understood what he was trying to do . I could control my emotions but my heart couldn't . how could I stop this heart from beating . as soon as I got watch on my hand it started beeping again . I didn't knew how to explain this . he teasingly asked me that do my heart beat faster due to him ? I didn't knew what should I do . should I tell him about my feelings or hold it ?