Family

My first year in college wasn't easy. Being a law student makes you think you're stressed all the time. Given by so many books you need to read, many cases needs to be digested but I can see the sense now why I am taking this course. That this is what I want. This is my passion. This is my dream and this is what I wanted to be in the future. It may take a lot of time but for me, I know it'll be worth it in the end. Maybe today, I'm just wondering how I will survive. And for the first year of being a law student was I filled a lot of realization and expectations not only to my family but also to myself.

Today, I spent my time with my family. I'm only one child but not very much spoiled. Some people say that when you are a child, you are definitely spoiled. But looked at me, I can be the evidence and proof of being an only child but not very much spoiled kid. My parents raised me well, teach me well and I'm very proud of it. I know my flaws and imperfections and I'm willing to tell about those.

All my life I've never been feel pressure towards my studies because they know if I want that things, I will do my best to reached to it and if not, I learned not all things you wanted was destined for you. Maybe you like it but not really meant for you. That's why, if I have things I wanted, there's inside me regretting of seeing that things that will truly breaks me in the end because it wasn't for me.

Things I'm trying to avoid and the reason why I'm feel so blank.

Maybe right now my thoughts is very sad but my feelings today was very much happy seeing my parents laughed in front of me. Cheering me up because I did it in the first step of my journey. I feel so proud even though I'm supposed to be the Heiress of our company yet they let me chose what I want. I chose my dreams over our company. That hit me right now. I feel so guilty about that. I wish I had thought it was like this. Because in the future I am the one who will manage the company. But feel happy because my parents really loves me and understand me. I'm blessed to have them.

"I'm sorry, Mom, Dad," I said out of nowhere.

Mommy stopped sucking while Daddy was almost blown away. He wiped his lip before frowning at what I said. Mommy put down her cutlery before settling down.

"Don't say sorry, Darling." Mommy said while looking at me. I smiled to her.

I really love my Mom. Because to matter what happens, no matter how down you are, no matter how useless you are, the mother always knows best. She saw how I break down to her, she saw me how I cried so bad. Specifically, she knows the other side of me. The fragile one.

"Did you fail, Son?" Daddy asked me.

I looked at him before shaking. My Dad is my hero. He saved me, she makes me strong. Be independent. The man I wanted to have in my life. I love him.

"Then, why say sorry?" Mommy again.

I sighed. "It's just that, I feel sorry for not being the Heiress of our company. I feel sorry for not doing my responsibility as your daughter. I'm so sorry, Mom. I'm so sorry, Dad." I said in a low voice.

Instead of our table being happy today it seems that it has suddenly been replaced by a sad time. It's our vacation and I supposed to be chill and enjoy my vacation still, my parents has to do with work. They didn't really have to leave it just because they were in charge then. Maybe we can spend every morning like this. I'll just request them even if it's only a three -day vacation with them. So that they can feel the summer. They are super workaholic.

Mommy came over to me and hugged me tightly. "Shh, it's not your responsibility to take the responsibility for our company, Darling. We're already happy seeing you working out your best. I'm very thankful to have you as my Daughter, don't blame yourself, okay?" Mom trying to save me from tears. Only now do I understand why but I also do not regret my decision. I just don't want to see them struggling instead that I could have helped them.

Daddy also came over so the three of us hugged. I hope everything's fine.

"Don't feel sorry, Kane. That's your dream and our dream for you is to be happy with your dreams." Daddy said while hugging us. It make sense now, I'm very lucky to have them.

"Thanks, Dad." I said with teary eyes.

"Don't cry okay? You're an adult, now. Be strong and brave. You should stand still in the ground even your losing." Mommy said to me. I nodded.

Some time later we heard someone sobbing in the kitchen. Mommy and I immediately went there and we saw Yaya Jessa wiping away tears. He was surprised because we were looking at him.

"Oh, hello Ma'am, are you done eating?" He immediately asked and quickly wiped away his tears.

"Why are you crying, Yaya?" I asked.

He immediately bowed. She toyed with her wearing a white apron. He continues to look young. I laughed.

"Yaya, are you okay? Take your leave if you want to stay with your family. It's vacation too." Si Mom.

"Eh, because ma'am, I cried with you three before. I can't help it-" she cried again. This time mommy and I came to visit her.

"I'm just really lucky, Ma'am with you and Ser. I'm really grateful because you understand so much." At once he wiped his shot.

"I was also lucky with your son because he was there when I missed my children." I nodded while nuzzling his back.

"Everyone deserves to be treated equally. That's more important. We're family here." My mom said.

And it's just that, I know I am blessed.