Chapter 142

"I love you too."

"You gave up doing porn for him?" My therapist asks "I did and I didn't regret it"

"He kept doing it though?"

"He did and it took a big toll on our relationship, as much as I thought it wouldn't change us it did. We became different people who wanted different things, so I left."

I never found anyone else to love me like Gage did, my past was no secret to him and it made him love me even more, and the way I felt about him I knew that even though I left he'd always be in my heart. His laugh, the way he knew how to hold me when my world was falling apart. I never slept after we broke up, I didn't have my rock to hold me down and I became someone I hated.

"Alright Matt good work today" she puts the pad down "every step is closer to where you want to get and today was a huge step for you"

"Thank you" I stand up and we shake hands "Great so same time next week?"

"Yeah" I agree and we walk to the door "see you then"

"Bye bye" we wave and I leave.