Allow me a moment

Chapter 10

For a while, he just stared at the sky, silently. Omar was a very complex human being, you'll never know what he's doing or thinking. I then snuck over when I heard him whisper something…he was talking to his mother…it wasn't my place to hear what he had to say when suddenly he was behind me.

"What are you doing here?" he asked folding his arms

"It's a free country I can go wherever I want to," I said looking away

"If you say so, I'll just go somewhere else then."

"You don't have to leave I'm already on my way," I said running off…

I can't believe that I allowed myself to be bullied by that imbecile. I respect the dead though and hoped that everything went well for him…he definitely had been carrying a lot of pain. Later that night I checked my phone and to my surprise, I already had the sensei added to my contact list. Blocked through…how the hell…

He really knew how to work on my last nerve.

I did however feel bad for not comforting him...he especially has this habit of pushing people away whenever he looks vulnerable.

Now my thinking place has been filled with his bad energy!

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'Omar'

"Happy Birthday mother…today your 51.

I hope you and grandmother are laughing together as you watch over us.

Father is still the same and just like I haven't been able to move on from your passing. I just hope that all the suffering you've been through is finally over and that now you are only face with happiness.

Ya Allah, I thank you for the health, wealth and guidance."

I left the area before sunset. It isn't good to be out during that time. I went home to speak to my father as we went over to visit my mothers grave, flowers grew all around it. She was always Allah fearing.

"How have you been lately?" he asked

"Fine," I said in a faint voice…" all is well…father."

"If you ever need anything don't be afraid to come home."

"Jee…can I say over tonight I'm very exhausted?"

"You're always welcome home son," he said going to his room.

To me, life isn't about the enjoyment of materialism… it's about finding the correct people to spend this life with, someone who helped you become the best version of yourself. I could hardly sleep that night. Memory after memory came flooding in, I even watched the sunrise the next day. Skipping school and class for that day. At night I remembered that I was supposed to meet her for a meal but she probably was still mad at me, I still dragged myself out of bed and rushed over.

"You actually came?" I asked going to the table

"Of course," she said taking a seat, "I'm not as petty as you make me look besides I'll get my revenge in due time. Now tell me why did you block him…"

"I don't know what you're talking about…" I said covering my face with the menu.

"Fine, don't be upset when I do it to you in future!"

Why did the wrong words always come out when I was around her?

"Have your food it's getting cold, do you enjoy class with the new sensei."

"I do, but where were you today. Am I not the one who's angry at you."

"Well maybe I'm angry at you to, is it so hard to communicate with me the way you do with him."

"Yes very, I feel like your always picking at my flaws… let's not talk about it."

" Okay," I said passing her some of my food, "peace offering?"

"Till our next fight of course," she said eating it

Her naïveness makes her forgive easily. Starting to think of it she's never held anything against me and I hope she always stayed this way.

"Have you thought about my offer the other day?"

"With your temper do you think I'll actually make it to the end of your driving lesson?"

I swallowed my anger turning towards her, "I guess you even know how annoying you can be."

"See what I mean?"

"Your sarcasm is not appreciated at all," I replied, " let me take you somewhere…"

"Where, the perfect place to plan my murder…"

"Well, depends if you keep on pushing my buttons."

I drove her to a mountain top where I use to train with my father during summer nights before camping…

"Would you be interested in a camping trip?"

"With you alone, no thank you…" she said pushing me aside before she began exploring the place

"Obviously with everyone here. including Zamin, I heard he'll be back soon."

"If Zamin agrees then I'll certainly come…"

"Fine…" I replied a little jealous

I had never felt jealousy before.

"Let's head back it's getting cold…and we have class tomorrow."

"Here," I said handing my jacket to her, "I'll start the car."

She hesitantly accepted it before we left. Very interesting indeed how she found me being nice to her very scary or surprising. Which I've noticed, I didn't like how it made her feel.

"Do you have feelings for Zamin?" I asked watching her play with the little droplets of the rain

"I'm not good enough for him, even if I did like him it doesn't matter…"

"Why?"

"My best friend likes him and she's way more suited…besides I bet he likes her too, so it's either I choose both and lose none…or choose 1 and lose the other. It's too complicated."

"That is complicated. The right one will come and you won't have to choose, I promise."

"It's not like I've ever been in love before…maybe just maybe if I do fall in love…will it not hurt anymore."

"Your first love is the most unforgettable trust me," I replied handing her a snack

"Why do you have doughnuts in your car at this hour?"

"I wanted to eat them with you..."

"We're more alike than I thought, thank you for everything."

It looks like when it comes to love she isn't as brave as she always was. She hides away how she feels and puts others before herself…just so she can see them happy. If she's so busy taking care of everyone happiness, who's taking care of hers?

I hope she doesn't have to deal with this for long…