CHAPTER 2 How its started
I like actions , historical , mystery , horror and criminals movies . I dont like romance and comedy . I usually watch some turkish and korean dramas in which their is always atleast one and more than one live stories which ends happily . And they both are happy with their families . From that i think and create my fictional love stories and want to fly with that fictional character I assume .
The girl with dreams are not successful,than the girl with hard work and reality . I always think that money is everything for this world but im false cuz i realise that money can't buy happiness . Ther is many people who have money and luxurious life style but they are not happy. I dream that i have money a luxury car , a luxury lifestyle , a luxury home and a loyal partner . And im enjoying with all of them . whenever im thinking about it one negative thought come to me that is , what if i get these things ? what if i still don't happy with it ? what if i lose these things after getting ? what ?. These questions always irritates me . And then what i do is just stop thinking and dreaming about it . But after some time i again repeat this cycle . I dream that i am a successful bussiness woman . I dream that i am a successful architecture . And i dream that im a bold person but i never want to run from reality .
My mother , yeah maa'h mom always tell me that dreaming is easy but to get that dreams are hard it takes time and hard work , so be im reality . She said, "World is the worst bitter reality i ever seen." And i ask her, "Why ? Why you say that, Isn't world is beautiful? , isn't nature is beautiful? , isn't god made it the finest ?".And she answered me, " No baby god made it so finest and beautiful,but the people who live in this world are not good and finest , People's in the world is so mean they just love those who can help them, and they just beat the others." And i think about it , Then she told me,"Sweetie, do what you want , im proud of you , but please be aware from the people's , once you achieve what you want the world goes against to you and your freinds becomes your enemies and enemies becomes your freinds." And now just in 1 yrs i realise that everyone is not freind it take about many years to explore who is the real freind and now i dont believe anyone.