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"I couldn't save you, I wasn't there fore you, I can't do anything right. I'm a failure, Aneeka. I failed you."

I shook my head, wanting to tell him that he wasn't a failure, that he didn't fail me. I am not to be saved anyway, my time was already 6 years overdue. If he wasn't there back then, if he didn't choose to stop me, then I wouldn't find my reason. He showed me the world through a different perspective, and I felt pure happiness for the first time in my life.

But the demons caught up with me, and I wasn't able to escape them that time.

"I miss you..."

My breath hitched when he tilted his head upwards to glance at the stone better. I finally got a look of his face, and realized how I had longed to see him again.

"I-I miss you too..." I whispered, paying no mind to the tears streaming down my face.

I let myself to reach out to him, even if it was no use, even if he can't feel me anymore.

He grew up, looking like how I imagined him as an adult. Although, I also noticed how thin his face has come to be. His eyes were red around the corners, and his tear-stricken face crumpled.

And I completely crumpled with him.

"I miss how the world seems to become brighter when you smile, how everything suddenly becomes better when I hear that boisterous laugh of yours. I miss how you look at me like I hung the stars for you." He said with a pained smile, as if reminiscing of all the memories we had made.

"And trust me when I say that I would, just for you I would. If it means I could have you back here. Still living. Still breathing. Still with me."

"Mason..."

The realization pains me.

In memories, that's the only place we can visit each other now, the place where we can both exist. Just within the happy memories I will always cherish.

Suddenly, he moved to lie on his belly to the ground. His hand is still on the stone, with the other hugging the flowers to his chest. He closed his eyes, but that didn't stop the tears. I moved to lie next to him, facing him, and it was like we were teenagers once again.

"I miss you so so much, it hurts. It hurts so bad." He whispered, but I could feel the hurt in them.

It stabs me in the heart, and this time, I let it bleed because nothing could match my misery.

"But now, you aren't here to kiss the hurt away."