Tea?

What do I feel about Emma? How do I view Emma as? I am pretty sure if it was the old me, I would have replied “I feel the same.” Even though I would be lying about my feelings, as long as the other person is happy and it works, I would have just gone with it. Still, to this day, there’s this voice deep inside of me; constantly telling me to just go with it, telling me to do everything to make them smile. And I would do anything to achieve that too, but…would that smile really matter…if it didn’t make me smile too?

“I think it’s better if we just stay how we used to be. Good friends who vibe a lot, anything deeper would just hurt us both again. I am not saying I hate you, this way it would be just better for both of us.” She went offline. The voice deep inside of me speaks again, it’s telling me to ask her if she’s okay. I had to distract myself as I went outside of my room to get some tea.