I Am You

The Sanctuary

I woke up in a very cold and shivery place. It was too silent, even crickets sounds I have not even heard. It was too cold as the sky were too dark, the moon was visible yet it doesn't even light up the sky. The scenery was just plainly creepy and cold.

I stood up, and that's what hen I realised that I was at the middle of the tall grasses. The wind hymn, and it as so cold as fuck which brought shiver down to my spine. Am I hallucinating?

I looked around to get a hint of where I was, and there I saw nothing but pure grassland and treeses. My brows knitted in confusion. Was I abducted?! And then got abandoned? Fuck! What in the world is happening right no?!

I tried pinching my arm, and did even slapped my cheeks, just to be awaken if ever I fell asleep. B-But, damn it! I could feel the stungs of what I did!

"Stop hurting yourself." A baritone voice echoed at the wide and creepy grassland. The grasses was at my waist tall, and my paranoia rose up with those chilling breeze of air. The silence was so defeaning that I could literally hear my heartbeats going oud and loud as the creepy surrounding started to pertrify me.

"Where am I?" I uttered bravely and firmly despite my knees trembling.

"Try guessing." The voice replid with no humor at it.

"Who are you?" I spatted, slowly stepping backwards as I could hear footsteps coming towards my direction. The voice exxageratedly gasp, followed by a chuckle.

"Me?"

"Of course."

"Why? Are you interested in me?" Now, his voice turned into playful.

"What the fvking fvck do you need from me?!" I replied aggrsively, still stepping backwards. Even with the creeps I was bearing with that day, I choosed to stood for myself, indeed it's true, that no one could save you rather than yourself.

A mocking laughed then hovered. He was still hiding in shadows, enjoying playing me by making me look fool. I was still stepping backwards when, there's nothing my steps could take. It was the finite of that space. I could feel the root of a big tree at my bare foot. I swallowed the big lump at my throat as I was still trying to mask my fear with the little and almost vanishing bravery.

"Aren't you afraid of me?" The guy voice then asked with a mocking tone. I couldn't help it but to fist my knuckles out of mixed emotions. I didn't respond, instead I looked around.

"What do you need from me?" I uttered, almost whispering.

"What I need from you? Hmm... nothing much. It should be the other way around."

"Pardon?"

"It's you who needed me." The voice responded, as his footsteps suddenly vanished. Everything was silenced.

"Why the hell would I need you? I don't even know you."

"But, I know you dear." I stiffened when I felt his breath at my neck, I could even hear him sniffing my scent. My breathing began to get heavy as my body felt being paralyzed, unable to move even a single inch. A tear had dropped at my cheek.

"What do you need?" I replied with a breaking voice.

I can't felt his presence suddenly disappear behind me, that's when I realized that I was then holding my breath.

"Alice, do you know why you are here?" The voce the said, and it was now distant to where I was.

"Are you nuts? Would I be this dumbfounded if I am certain of where I am now? Are you fvcking kidding me?!" I aggresively responded as my voice was raising due to frustration and all the emotions lingering my system.

"Alice, you don't deserve the life that you are living."

"What the fvck are you talking about?!" I screamed while tears then streaming like faucet.

"Why don't you make your dreams come true? No. We shoul make your dreams come true. Why would you settle for those nasty and small house if you could be the queen in your own empire? Why would you do so much work if you could just sit and command your servants."

"Are you out of yur mind?! Are you crazy?!"

"Alice, the life that you're livin' is not the life that you have. It is not yours, and will never be yours even if how much you'll try to fits in it. It'll never be yours because, you are destined to have a very great life." The voice then uttered, being convincing.

"How can you tell?" I uttered.

"Have you ever wondered what's the different characteristics that you have? Have you ever wondered why is everyone afraid of you? Have you wondered what's wrong with you?" and that was when I was silenced. I wondered every single day, questioning who I really am, but never in my wildest dream that it will approach me like this. I felt my nails burrying at my palm as my knuckles now fisted tightly.

"What do you mean?" I uttered with a hoarse voice. That's when the voice laughed, mockingly.

"Dear, I brought you to life. I gave you another chance to live and claim what you needed to claim. They deserve to know your pain. They deserve to feel the every pangs you've been feeling since then. The stab that ended your life isn't the stab that would everything to silence. " the voice replied as the wind blew.

"W-what do you mean?"

"Why do you keep acting like you didn't know me, Shivana?"

"Are you crazy? My name's Alice, you fvcking creepy being!"

"Really? So, do you think, the Shivana with the most vengeful soul is only lying at the book with the letters?"

"W-what?"

"Was your mind influenced by the woman who's your soul in, Shivana? Have all the memories you have got lost? Do you really believe that you belong in this side? How foolish of you to think at yourself as a human?" that's when my throat got dry.

"No. No. I can't hear you. You're just a product of my mind. I can't hear you and even if I would, I'd never let you affect me in any ways you could find. I'm done doubting myself, and you--- you are just the product of my overthinking and doubt." I uttered desperately, thinking it as just a voice my head created, yet its laughed evilly as the wind blew in circular motion around the area I could sight.

"Do you think I am just a voice your mind created? Hahaha! No! I am the voice that created you." he replied with a serious tone.

"Shivana, dear Shivana. It must've been hard for you to deal with everyone. It must've very dreedful. Do you still remember how they awfully treat you. No, dear. Do you still remember how did your 'king' made you fool. And, how he trade your life for another woman." he uttered.

That's when my head started to ache, severely. I held my head, thinking that it would at least ease the gushing pain yet it doesn't serve any good. The pangs made me shut my eyes tightly as I was pulling my hair out. Shit!

That's he's evil laughed thundered around. It was so loud that made my head almost breaking into half. I felt the burning sensation at my skin and the pangs at my head intensified.

"A-ahh" I uttered.

"Its time to take over, Shivana. Its time to wake up from your long sleep. Everyone who wronged you are now here. Wake up, dear." the voice kept on repeating this words. I shut my eyes tightly as panggs in my head hits severely that I felt it breaking.

"I-I am not, Shivana! I am not her. Please, please, stop." I uttered weakly.

"Shivana, wake up." and with his another chant, I felt myself drowsing off. But before the darkness could fully consume me, I clearly heard what the voice said.

His evil laugh hovered that was hovering around the area.

"Welcome to the new world, Shivana. The almighty Queen."

***

"Alice? Alice?" A familiar voice woke me up. I tried moving but I felt like my body was tied up.

"Hey, Alice!" it was Zarviel's voice calling my name. It was her! I opened my eyes and saw her infront of me, almost meter away as she was calling my name.

My brows knitted in confusion as I felt my body moving. It felt like my body was took over by someone and I was caged by it. It felt like I was caged at my own body, and all I could do is to look at what was happening.

"Alice, you weren't at the dorm last night. Where did you go?" she asked. I tried responding at her, yet I can't even hear my voice.

Zarviel's brows also knitted as she probably sense the strange in me. Without uttering even a single word, I felt my body moving away from her... leaving her confused.

'What's going on? Why can't I move or even talk?' I uttered to myself as my body continued walking towards the classroom.

"Well, you are awake now little girl." w-wait, i-it's not me!

"Of course. You are me! I apologize for your incnvenience in there, little girl. I am now the owner of your body." She then' whispered wickedly as she was walking at the corridor towards our claasroom. She gave a long wicked chuckle. "Now, sleep again dear. Wake up when everything's done." she added, and once again, I was consumed by darkness.

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