Frustration is a terrible aid. It saps our strength and sours our mood.
But what is worse is that it makes way to terrible thoughts and ideas. It can kill motivation and leave us feeling overwhelmed by despair.
And that is precisely where I was—frustrated with myself, with Selene, with the world, with my fate. More than once, I considered simply giving up, just letting the fall kill me.
Thankfully, I didn’t. Invariably, some other idea would occupy my mind right when I was considering giving up like that.
After a while, I gave up trying to give up and continued on my way upward. Although it felt slow, it was better than trying to come down and then having to go up and run again.
“Come on, Shixian. Get a hold of yourself.”
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By the time I finally came to the top, I was up to celebrate the fact that I had any strength left at all.