Brutal Truths

Jason sat on the couch in her office, although he just stood still and looked at her — she was very distracted and couldn't concentrate on her work. This frustrates her, she has already explained everything to her two very protective male best friends about what they wanted to know about her relationship with Castiel

"Didn't your parents tell you it's rude to keep staring at someone?" she said irritatedly as she signed several reports on her desk "Go away, you're bothering me"

“You are so rude darling, I think Castiel is a bad influence on you”

Castiel

Castiel

And Castiel.

She was sick of hearing that name spoken by Adrian and Jason — please just give her a break.

“Stop your bullshit and do your job properly before I call your father right now” she threatened coldly “you are bothering me so much! Can't you see I have a pile of paperwork to check and Adrian's schedule to work on?”

"No" he replied with a mischievous smile "and I don't care"

Jason was so annoying, it made her want to throw him out of the building from her room

"Get out!" she shouted because she couldn't stand it

"No!"

"Get out"

"No!"

“Don't you understand English?” she asked in annoyance and almost shouted at him

“No”

"Alright, I'll get out" she stated as she stood up carrying her handbag "You and Adrian are so annoying"

“Stop” Jason said as he got up from his seat and stood with his hands in his pockets “I mean it, you should know who Castiel Berkshire is and his group of rich-psycho men who always surround him”

She froze and looked at Jason seriously, she really didn't know much about Castiel and his friends he had always been with since middle school — actually she didn't care about all of his friends, because she only needed detailed information about Castiel.

However, shouldn't she have asked him directly instead of hearing it from Jason or someone else who didn't even know him that well?

"I will know because I will ask him later" she replied Jason seriously "I will know him directly from himself — not from you, Adrian and not from anyone else"

“You are so stubborn'”

"Yes and you know me very well — thank you, I take it as a compliment to me"

Hearing that Jason ruffled his hair in frustration "You have to listen and believe me —I really mean it this time" he said quietly "I don't want you to get hurt by him"

The name Berkshire itself sounded terrifying and was enough to make her tremble in fear because their reputation as an invincible ruler coupled with the name Castiel — it would be even more terrifying.

Her family wouldn't like her closeness to Castiel and now coupled with Jason and Adrian not liking them, it might be more complicated than she thought. Aurielle doesn't know what she should do after this

"Okay, I'll listen to you" she said finally as she walked over to the sofa and sat down across from Jason "Here you go, talk"

His jaw clenched and he let out a ragged sigh — though he quickly sat up and crossed his legs “Castiel Berkshire, you know how he is in high school, don't you?”

She chose not to answer and let Jason continue what he really wanted to say to her, she didn't care that he might give her a long lecture after this — because she wanted this day to pass quickly and she would go home to take a rest

“Castiel plus Berkshire is a nightmare at its worst — they kill, use every means to get rid of all those who are not pro with them, they are the mafia” he shouted “where do you think their immense wealth comes from?”

“Me and Adrian are just afraid you'll get hurt because Castiel isn't a good person for someone like you” he said frustratedly “You can be ruined if you're with him — please understand, we’re doing this for your own good”

“You know, I think you misjudged him because he was nothing like you said to me — he was so nice to me” Auriel tried to calm down and tossed her long hair back “He may be mean and dirty, besides that he's not good for me either — but you also have to remember, my reputation isn't any better compared to Castiel’s reputation either”

"You—“

"Stop it, you know very well that I did try to kill my sister when I was under the influence of a drug that was supposed to be a sedative — considering that I always thought I deserved all of this, which sister would have the heart to kill her little sister?" her head lowered deeply, making her long hair cover her tear-stained face

"El" Jason called who stood up but was quickly restrained by her to not come close

“Stop, I don't want you to come near me or hug me — whatever you want to do, you better not do” she said hoarsely “I don't need it”

She struggled to forget the incident, she struggled to forget and ignore every sentence that always swirled in her head — who always blamed her, who always tried to kill her every day.

The psychiatrist and the drugs they gave her had no effect on her at all, it didn't help her to get rid of the bad talk about herself — it hurt and almost killed her every night. Sleepless nights and eating disorders that she always experiences on certain days — when she doesn't have a lot of work to do. That's why she always tries to keep herself busy to get rid of suicidal thoughts and if she can't, then she's forced herself to take sleeping pills to help her.

"You know, it's not your fault" Jason tried to calm down "Especially at that time the sleeping pills you took were not sleeping pills — they were drugs and you know that too"

“Stop”

“Not until you stop blaming yourself!”

It was the worst nightmare she'd ever had and she didn't want to go through something like that — or it would kill her slowly and that’s why she could never stop to blaming herself. She could never stops until the day she’d died. It had been enough to messing with her head and drive her insane — it had taken half her sanity away.

"You are useless even you have a pretty face and you know why? Because you're insane — you're just a pretty doll that's been ruined”

"Stop" she whispered softly and repeatedly as if she was chanting a spell "I'm not a ruined doll"

There was silence between them as Jason stared at her who is holding her head tightly with her long har that barely covering her face — she was in a pitiful state now but begged him not to come close. His position will go awry now

After a few minutes later Auriel raised his head and rubbed her eyes roughly "Alright, now you can say everything you want to say to me and after this I don't want to talk about it — if you talk about it again, I won't listen to you"

Jason nodded curtly and sat on the sofa again "Okay, but you have to listen to every word that comes out of my mouth carefully, don't cut me off and I hope you are prepared because I have good reasons why I forbid you to be close to him"

Hearing that her heart was pounding wildly and she felt her body go cold because she was a little scared of what Jason was going to say — she wasn't ready but she had to find out now.

"Alright, I’ll do as you says" she replied and sit obediently

"Castiel has liked you since middle school" Jason said seriously "and his crush on you has become a terrible obsession"

Auriel covered her mouth to suppress the laughter she wanted to escape from her mouth

Castiel had liked her since they were that young?

Are you fucking kidding me?

"I'm serious — I'm pretty sure you wouldn't laugh if you ever saw the way he looked at you when you were talking to a guy" he explained with fear in his voice "why do you think so many boys in our school get battered every Saturday?"

"Why?" she asked innocently but seemed defiant

"Because of Castiel and his group — they beat up anyone who dares to approach you" he said hysterically "you turned into an introvert in high school and you always wonder why no one cares about you — that's Castiel's doing, he doesn't want you around anyone but him. But you always tremble with fear when he’s around."

She remembered it very well — the memory stuck very clearly in her head. Castiel was indeed the only one who approached her in high school, it was also the first time he had spoken to her and it was before she was kicked out of her own house because of her sister. It was common knowledge that her sister liked Castiel very much. But unfortunately that day she saw the man she liked was approaching her sister at school.

She remembers everything.

And after the day Castiel approached and greeted her at school, it wasn't long before she was kicked out by her own family — so it was all because of such a trivial matter that they had the heart to do this to her.

"He stayed away from you because you were afraid of him - even so, he kept it a secret for you too" he explained seriously "he tried to forget you but couldn't, he didn't succeed - until he heard you were kicked out of the house, his obsession became even more terrifying"

But wouldn't it be too much to use the word obsession?

They didn't know each other and were not close, nor had she ever done anything to make Castiel obsess over her — it just didn't make sense to her.

“Besides, it was Castiel who beat Adrian that night, but he didn’t know — lucky you came home late and stopped his madness back then. Because if not, maybe Adrian's body will hang in the office building” his eyes stared at her with a look that was hard to decipher “It's all because of Adrian's stupidity who has the urge to tell you something and has the intention of forcibly possessing you if you don't want to in the hotel restaurant — unfortunately, Castiel was there and overheard it. That's also the reason I beat up Adrian that day — because by doing that, he would put you in danger and I knew Castiel would take you away.”

Castiel would take you away

the words echoed in her head - making her froze and shudder with fear.

But then she looked at Jason in confusion and her mouth opened slightly when she realized something "You know, that's really scary — but how do you know all this when we're not in the same school?"

Jason looked nervous and swallowed his saliva "I—I was part of the group, Castiel friends — I was ordered to watch you closely. But as I get to know you longer and better, I don't want you to go through a scary thing because of Castiel"

His confession made her eyes widen and tremble in fear

"I know you are very scared,disappointed in me, and even loathe me but please believe me there are more important things to do now — you have to go far and hidden from here quickly"