chapter 13

(TRIGGER WARNING: MENTION OF DEATH) A/N: NEXT CHAPTER ALSO HAS TRIGGER WARNING OF ATTEMPTED SUICIDE,SELF HARM,ADDICTION,AND BLOOD

As I start to open my eyes a massive headache appears and is killing me. I look to my night stand and see a white pill,glass of water, and a sticky note. I take what I assume to be tylenol and grab the sticky note to read it "tylenol for the headache - billie" aww so cute.i check the time i feel the bed shift on the other side of me and arms wrap around my waist. I turn around to see the one and only billie eilish. I can't help but to think how beautiful she looks when she sleeps and how peaceful she looks. She starts to move again but now she pulls me closer and rests her head on my chest while hugging my lower waist. I wrap my arms around her head neck area and rest my check on her head. I sat there like that for about an hour,hour and a half just playing with her hair waiting for her to wake up. She didnt start to wake up until about 15 minutes later. As she moves and stretches she looks up at me smiling and squinting her eyes to adjust to the light.

V- good morning beautiful

B- goodmorning

*my thoughts : ahhh her sleepy voice is so hot wtf*

V- how'd you sleep?

B- I slept well?

V- i slept good besides for the massive headache appearing when i opened my eyes

Thank you for the water and tylenol the note was cute

B- your welcome i figured you would need it cuz sorry to say this but you were drunk off your ass last night

V- yes that i am aware i drank a little to much

Billie just looks at me with a confused face expression.

V- okay i drank a lot

B- yes yes you did

V- what you wanna do right now

B- right now i wanna lay here with you like this

V- okay i'm fine with that

We lay there for about an hour and I'm pretty sure she fell back asleep.her body relaxed her breathing became calmer and or more steady and she hasn't moved for a good 15 - 20 minutes. I grab my phone and start taking a video cuz imma use the camera to see if she's asleep. I put the phone in front of me just enough to see her face. Once I can see her face she looks at me through the camera and starts laughing and I quickly end the video.

B- *says laughing* What are you doing?

V- what? I was tryna see if you were sleeping

B- what made you think i was sleeping?

V- I dunno, your body relaxed, you haven't moved in the last like 20 minutes and your breathing is more calm. I figured you were still tired and wanted to sleep more.

B- you bozo i feel more relaxed cuz i am and how do you even know any of that?

V- well there's been a couple of times you've fell asleep in my arms like this and sometimes i'll lay here and just play with your hair or rub your back while you sleep

B- aww, why don't you sleep tho?

V- sometimes i can fall asleep

B- oh well all you gotta do is call my name to know if i'm awake or not

V- yes but if your about to fall asleep and i call you i don't want to disturb you

B- how often do you do that to see if im sleeping

V- well mostly if i think your asleep which a lot of the time you are but other times you were doing something else and didn't see the camera there's been a couple of times i took a picture of you on your phone or watching tv

B- seriously?

V- yes sir

B- your a dork

V- you love me

*time skip two weeks*

The last two weeks have been nice. I have felt really happy, which is a nice new feeling,one I haven't felt in a very long time. My and claudia were watching a movie in the living room when the doorbell rang

V- ill get it

*future viv : oh what a mistake that was*

Once i opened the door my heart dropped when i saw their faces

V- what are you doing here?

Dad- we need to talk

V- at 10 o'clock at night and don't you think we should of 'talked' a little over a year ago

Mom- viv its important

V- yea right-

Dad- it's about jayden

With those words my heart sank to my ass

V- whats wrong, what do you mean?

Dad- can we come in and talk you might wanna sit down for this

V- tell me what is wrong with my brother?

C- viv we should let them come in, lets go sit at the kitchen table mkay

V- yea sure

*at the table*

Dad- how long has it been since you and him talked?

V- like two days what does this have to do with what you need to tell me?

Jayden, Jayden is my twin brother. He and I did everything together. He is my best friend of all time. id give everything up for him he was their whad i needed someone when i had my drug addictin when i was cuting and my attemts for suicide.

Dad- viv there's no easy way to say this but um jayden got shot.

There it goes my heart. I knew this was bad when my dad's voice cracked at the end of the shot and I looked at my mom with tears in my eyes as she was sobbing.

V- well is he okay what hospital is he at who shot him...

Dad- viv jayden died this morning

Never in a million years did I think I would ever hear these words come out of my dad's mouth. It was like my whole world stopped spinning. Every sound was slowly starting to fade away. The worlds a little blury i knew it was from the teas in my eyes.i had to get out of their. But not without knowing who did it.and everything all started to reappear again sound,sight, my balance

V- who did it?

dad - um he- he was at robbie's house the-

V- the one with the bad neighborhood yea i get it but who did it?

Dad- he was in his car waiting for robbie and so a person came up to his car tryna rob him and hijack his car but jayden refused and the robber shot him in the head it- uh- it killed him instantly.

I heard what all i needed to and with that i grabbed my phone,keys,and wallet and drove, drove anywhere i didn't know where i was going all i no was i needed to leave and if i stayed there i would start to freak out and start having a panic attack and i didn't need that right now i didn't have a destination in mind hell i could barely even see where i was going until in pulled up in front of my parents house.

(A/N: get ready cuz next chapter is one hell of a ride)