Nervous

The day I've been waiting for arrives, the day when I and Lianti will walk together. It's Sunday morning and it's only a matter of hours when the first time I will go out with a woman, namely Lianti, my anxiety begins to appear where the negative thoughts in my mind start to come out and I feel like I want to cancel my promise to Lianti, I feel like I can't to fulfill my promise to him that on this Sunday night I will walk with him. Many times I thought whether I should give a message to Lianti that I can't walk with her tonight but I guess it's too late to tell her that I can't right now because I'm very nervous and restless. I think it's a boring excuse but that's what I'm feeling right now. I also don't know what my mother's reaction will be when I say I'm going out with a woman tonight because my mother never knew I was with a woman or had been in a relationship so I was afraid that my mother wouldn't allow me to go out with her. I'm confused about what kind of permission I know when my brother allowed me to date a woman, my mother agreed. I need permission with him so that my date goes well.

Ryan: "I'm sorry"

Mom: "Why Ryan?"

Ryan: "Mah I want to ask you for a moment"

Mom: "What do you want to ask Ryan?"

Ryan: "Mommy, I used to go out with my dad, how was it when you first went on a date?"

Mom: "Mom, when I was with dad for the first time, I was really nervous because it was the first time, Mom, I just kept quiet, at first, Mom was invited to watch it with Dad, then after watching, we ate, right, but right after watching it. Then we can chat relaxed because we discussed the movie we just watched and then we talked for a long time on other things, really why do you ask like that?"

Ryan: "Yeah, it's okay, I'm just asking, I'm curious"

Ryan: "Is it really fun when you go on a date with papa for the first time?"

Mamah: "Yes, when you say it's fun, it's fun, but it's really difficult to get rid of the nervousness, Mamah"

Ryan: "Mah, I want your permission, I want to go out tonight, can I?"

Mom: "Where are you going out tonight?"

Ryan: "Hmmm actually Ryan is going out tonight with a girl"

Mamah: "Haaa? You already have a girl? Why don't you talk to Mama?"

Ryan: "No, no, this isn't Ryan's girl, but is it okay for Ryan to just go out with him tonight?"

Mamah: "Where do you want to take people, kid?"

Ryan: "I want to take him to watch it at least eat and then walk, can I do it?"

Mamah: "Fine, but don't come home at night, remember it's someone's child, don't ask for permission from the parents if you want to take them out"

Ryan: "yes maaah, thank you ma"

it turned out that I was allowed to go out with Lianti tonight by my mother, my mother looked very surprised when I told her that tonight I was going out with a woman. Mother thought it was my boyfriend even though we haven't known each other for a long time and haven't officially dated Lianti. permission with my mother is finished, I just choose the clothes that I will wear tonight for a walk with Lianti, I am confused about what kind of clothes to wear to look cool in front of her of course. when I was choosing clothes I remembered why I didn't ask my brother what clothes were good when I wanted to date a woman.

Ryan: "Baby I want to ask you, bro"

Bayu: "Napa yan, what do you want to ask?"

Ryan: "Baby, what's a good dress for going out with a girl?"

Bayu: "Anjaaaay want to go, this is the story between you and a girl, where do you have a boyfriend?"

Ryan: "Dihhh, I'm seriously asking you, what's a good dress?"

Bayu: "Wait a minute, let me see"

Bayu: "Hmmm, it's better if you wear a plain shirt, if it's not white, wear my Levis jacket which is the item, then wear item pants and then wear my shoes which are there"

Ryan: "Are you serious? Is it good or not, it won't be good anymore"

Bayu:" it's good, just calm down, believe me if it's good"

Ryan: "Well then just watch out, I'm not good at hitting you"

Bayu: "Actually, who do you want to go out with, sis, it's so important that you have to ask what kind of clothes are you?"

Ryan: "I'm just asking a girl out for a walk and since this is my first time walking, I have to look cool in front of her haha ​​haha ​​haha"

Bayu: "You're very pretentious, aren't you?"

Ryan: "okay btw thank you, bro, you're the only brother hahah haha ​​haha"

Finally the clothes have been chosen, even though it was my brother who chose it, but I quite believe in him about what style is suitable for tonight's walk with Lianti. I have separated the clothes that I will use tonight with other clothes so that when I walk with them my clothes are ready and I just have to wear them so it doesn't take a long time. I've been thinking about what it will be like when I go out with Lianti like when I watch a movie with her or eat with her it's always in my brain and that's what makes me impatient. suddenly my mother came up to me and asked about the woman I was going to walk with later.

Mamah: "Ryaaan here naaak"

Ryan: "why sorry?"

Mamah: "So later tonight you want to go out with a girl? Who is that girl?"

Ryan: "I don't know if it's going to happen or not and the girl's name is Lianti, right?"

Mamah: "Is he from your school or from a different school?"

Ryan: "It's a different school, so I was introduced to a friend of mine who was at that school, huh?"

Mamah: "Well, be careful, take someone's child, don't let it happen, why do you have to be really taken care of, don't take it home at night, you have to ask your parents for permission first, where do you want to eat, don't make your parents worry, okay?"

Ryan: "yes maaah ready I will follow mamah's words"

Mamah always warns me to always take care of the woman I'm about to date, namely Lianti. and suddenly Lianti during the day messaged me via chat wa and she said....

Lianti: "yeah"

Lianti: "Yeah, I'm really sorry tonight I can't walk with you suddenly I have a family event that requires me to go with them too..."