Being reassured by him

I was still having my face buried in the couch but I was no longer flapping my legs. Calming down finally and pouting, I looked up seeing Kazu-kun open the lid of all the vessels in which he was making the food and as soon as he opened it, an intoxicating smell started enveloping the entire kitchen and traveled all the way here. With my heightened senses, I could smell very well but I did not need them to tell just how good the food Kazu-kun made right now was.

Not being able to wait any longer, I jumped off the couch and rushed towards the dining table sitting down and looking at the food being placed on the table with sparkles in my eyes. Though I did not know what Kazu-kun was making, I now knew that he was making something really good as I saw the food being placed on the table. He decided to make Indian food and it looked and smelled so delectable.

There was curry, rice, Nan, a dish made of pulses which were dark brown which I had never tried but was really happy to do that. Just looking at the food, I could tell that a lot of effort was put into making these dishes. My stomach was something that could easily digest anything so I was really looking forward to it.

"Seriously, you made a lot of food, didn't you Kazu-kun?" I said looking at him and he had a gentle smile on his face.

"Well, you once did tell me you like Indian food so I thought I would make you this. Finding a good recipe for it was hard because this was something you could have easily messed but less talking and more eating," he said and placed the spoons down and we started digging in.

And what can I say?

It was delicious!!

I don't remember ever having food this good. It was a little spicy and really flavorful and there was no way I could have missed that amazing smell. I really had to say that I had one of the best meals of my life and looks like I ate a little too much. Even after which, the food was left.

While I was leaning back on the chair, Kazu-kun picked up all the dishes and put them in the sink to wash and the food made its way to the fridge. I was now kind of craving for something sweet but right now I did not feel like moving. I was so lazy right now.

"You can go and take a bath first Ai," Kazu-kun said while washing the dishes. "It will take some time to wash them so it is better if you take a bath first."

"But I want to bathe with Kazu-kun," I whined like a kid.

"I know you do but it will take me some time so it is better if you bathe first. We will have plenty of times for it later or do you want them to not happen?"

"Roger!"

Saluting like a soldier, I stood up and ran towards the bathroom. I went in and filled the bath up and set the temperature of the water. After that, I went and took out my clothes and remembered to bring everything that I will need later.

Taking my clothes off, I sat down to wash my body in the shower and get in the bathtub submerging myself under the water for a few seconds before coming out. After a long time, I had recollected the past which was something I really hated doing, and still, I had that feeling, that feeling of regret.

Of being born.

Of existing.

I had been so occupied with Kazu-kun that I don't even remember when I last felt like this but I knew I did feel that. No, I still feel that way. I mean, I am a half-vampire who is a danger to both vampires and humans. Even if I am here saying that I will protect Kazu-kun, I am still scared to hurt him. I don't want him to have the same fate as mom and dad. I want him to be with me, forever.

I know that right now Kazu-kun is in a worse situation than I am and I don't want him to worry. I want to tell him to rely on me and let me do everything. Even if he hates it, he is not strong enough to defeat a vampire on his own. He needs me and I need him too. I needed Kazu-kun because he was the only one left about whom I care so much. Whom I love so much. The only last thread stopping me from taking my own life was Kazu-kun.

I don't care if what I do is a crime. Stalking, breaking into one's house, taking someone's photo without them knowing but I don't care. Yes, I am selfish and I know that. I want and need Kazu-kun all to myself and I will do anything to make that happen.

I will kill anyone who will get in the way.

It does not matter how many times I have to dirty my hands.

As long as Kazu-kun is safe and mine.

I don't care.

After some time, I got out of the bath and dried myself before wearing everything and getting out of the bathroom while drying my hair. I saw Kazu-kun sitting down on the couch watching an anime on the television with great interest. I think I know this one. It was the one in which the bad guy was the main character's friend's brother who actually died in a way to make everyone cry and love him.

"Kazu-kun, the bath is free," I said and changed my voice to a seductive one. "I will be waiting in the bed for you~"

"Then I will not delay it anymore," he said and stood up and walked past me and then stopped on his tracks. "Why are you not wearing your night pajama?"

He was right, I was not wearing them but it was important. A smile formed on my face as I twirled around showing the outfit properly.

"So that Kazu-kun can easily cuddle me in this one~," I said teasingly.

"You are not going outside today," he said in a firm voice making my smile go away. "Did you think I will not notice that? I know Ai that you are doing it all for me but I don't want you to go outside today. Please, listen to me."

His eyes were pleading me to stay and my face had a guilty look on face. I did not want to lie to him. But…

"Okay, if you say so. But I like this outfit so I am sleeping in this," I said tilting my head cutely and winking at him.

"Whatever."

I saw his figure enter the bathroom with his clothes in his hands. Seeing him go, I clenched my fist and went to the bed and lie down there staring at the ceiling.

"I am so sorry Kazu-kun."

He finally entered the bedroom and I saw him also not wearing his night pajama making me raise my eyebrow. Seeing me, he grinned and then showed his outfit. It was a black t-shirt and a white lower.

"Since Ai decided to dress up properly, I thought about putting a little effort in this," he said grinning. "Though it does not look like it. But I really like this one."

He slid under the bed and I could feel the cover move as his body entered. Soon after, I felt two familiar hands wrapping around my waist pulling me close. They were so warm and reassuring that I couldn't help but just give in and turn around burying my face in Kazu-kun's chest. I could smell him really well and it was intoxicating. I could never get bored of this smell.

"What's on your mind?" Kazu-kun whispered in my ear and I looked up to him. "Something is worrying you isn't it? You know you can tell me everything Ai."

I thought a little about whether to say this to him but as I looked up seeing his warm smile, I could not help but let my mouth start running.

"Kazu-kun, is everything my fault?" I asked him in a sad tone and I indicated to be hugged tighter. "Mom and dad died trying to save me when I was small. The one who killed them was there to kill me. I mean, if I had never been born, it should have been avoided, right? Maybe my birth was just a mistake, something which should not have happened in the first place. I mean, after all, I am a half-vampire and no matter how much I convince myself, I know I am a fre-umph."

Before I could continue, I felt two warm lips on my lips kissing me softly. I did not know why this was happening but I did not pull away. I forgot about everything and went with the flow. It was not a deep kiss but a bundle of small, gentle ones.

I looked at Kazu-kun who pulled away after some more and looked at me looking slightly annoyed.

"Don't you dare say anything stupid like that," he said in a scolding tone. "You think your parents saved you so that you can regret being born? Don't make me laugh Ai. Your parents gave birth to you because they loved you and I can say it was not a mistake nor are you a freak Ai. Those vampires may call you that because they would say that you are neither vampire nor human but don't you realize that you are both?"

"No, it not like this?!" I got annoyed. "How do you know I am not a mistake? You may not know but I hate my existence. The moment I was born, I was supposed to b- umph."

There he went again, smacking his lips against mine softly kissing me.

"No Kazu-kun, mph, I don't, umph, deserve it," I said trying to pull away but Kazu-kun suddenly became stronger. My strength was being sucked away with each kiss and I could no longer resist.

His hand was gently stroking my hair the entire time and when he pulled away, he did not have an annoyed expression on his face. It was a gentle one, the one which also looked a little sad at the same time.

"Don't say that Ai," he said in the warmest voice I have ever heard. "Most people don't get what they deserve and I am also a lot like you Ai. I don't think I deserve someone as amazing as you but I still have you. So if you hate yourself, I will love you. If you despise yourself then I will make sure that you are the most loved girl on the planet. Just don't say such things."

His voice was very soothing to hear and I think I saw his eyes were a little wet but I don't know. He hugged me tighter and kissed me on the forehead.

"And if you say such stupid things I will just shut you up with a kiss," he said in a slightly teasing voice.

"Won't I exploit it then?"

"I won't mind. More kisses for both of us."

I cuddled him even more burying my face in his chest. I could hear Kazu-kun's heart beating softly. It was calm and nice to hear to. Everything about him right now was so calm and nice and the expression on his face made him look even dreamier. His hands were strong yet gentle. His body was warm, he smelled nice and his face was like a prince. My prince.

"I love you so much Kazu-kun," I said cuddling him.

"I love you too Ai," he responded softly.

With that, I saw him closing his eyes and I did too. It was eleven in the night and Kazu-kun fell asleep pretty quickly. Looks like he was really exhausted from all the cooking that he did. I stayed like that with my eyes closed wrapping my arms around him keeping him all to myself.

I had that feeling again, whenever we sleep together, it felt like we were the only two in the entire world. It was like we were the only two that actually mattered in this world. That was my ideal world.

As the clock hit twelve and it was midnight, my eyes opened. Kazu-kun was still sound asleep and I knew that waking him up was not an easy task once he slept. It was the perfect time to act.

I slowly peeled his hands off around me and slid away from him making sure not to wake him up. Once done with that, I sat up and looked down at his peaceful sleeping face. He was sleeping like a baby and he looked more adorable than one. Smiling, I leaned down and kissed his warm lips before getting up and opening the closet.

Behind that was a little door that opened to a little storage area. I slid my hand in and got out the wooden stakes from there and closed the door and the closet. Keeping them in a safe place and getting the keys to go out and lock the door, I looked back at the house one more time with a sad smile on my face.

"I am so sorry Kazu-kun. But I need to do this to keep you safe."

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