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I saw him from the other side of the hall, his laugh being the only I heard over the loud chatter among the other students, he sat there with his arm around her as they laughed about who knows what, distancing myself from him was one of the most difficult things I'd ever have to do but I knew I'd have to do it soon. Even though I was a few feet away from him, my eyes couldn't help but admire him and those perfect features he possessed.

I remember how we met, I'd describe it like a fantasy, my carelessness leading me to spill coffee on his band tee, I apologized to him a thousand times but he reassured that the stain would go away. He later transferred to my school and I felt like I knew what real happiness was then. That's when it all started, the little notes he'd pass to me during Math or his doodles on the edges of my graph paper. We grew closer and closer everyday till those moments led me to be here today, admiring the perfect couple from feet apart during yet another Math class.

The teacher soon walked into the class as everyone grew silent, the teacher went rambling on about some math sums but I was still lost, daydreaming about a boy. I thought about him endlessly, he was fascinating fire, and I, well I was just the cold. The boring, simple cold people felt in the mornings and sometimes at night, a word used to describe cloudy winter evenings and post rain fall, I was the aftershock of all adjectives, the bland, bitter cold.

I didn't realize how deep in thought I was until the fascinating fire himself tapped on my shoulder, my body jolting at his sudden warmth spreading throughout me.

"Hey Dar, the class ended ten minutes ago, is everything fine? Not to mention you've not spoken to me all week." I looked at him and into his eyes as I stuttered trying to find a reasoning to my obvious ignorance toward him, "It's nothing, I've just uh been swamped with homework" I said standing up as I collected my things. "Alright, let'sss have lunch together" he asked as we made our way to the lockers "Sure but what about Crystal?" "She'll be joining us, I hope you don't mind"

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Lunch was long, she is perfect, just like he is. We spoke during the entire lunch time, her thoughts were just as fascinating as his were and I could tell by the way they looked at each other, this wasn't going to end in just a few months and as happy I should be for Luke, I was more devastated than you can begin to imagine, the weight in my heart that I held grew heavier with each step that I took on the way back home. Would this ever end? Or was I just stuck in this endless phase called my life?

I'm the end, I was his and only his, he was mine but not only mine.