DERIN_DAWODU

Ireolamide is the lowliest and average person you would ever meet, but, like everyone else, she has expectations, wishes and dreams, only that her lower-class status is a huge barrier to it. She tries to forget about her limitations because her passion keeps her going despite her emotional imbalance.
          Stuck in a school with rich and posh kids, she has to bear their taunts because she’s the only low-class personality among them. With a smeared past that’s prevents her from having a comfortable life how will she bring herself out of the slums she grew up in into the classic life she wishes or herself and her mother?
All she is facing is attributed to her father and the horrible things he did to her when she was younger. Years after their separation he appears at a dance competition she participated in on sponsorship, he now pursues a relationship with her, a relationship they never had and so never lost, will she give in to his tactics or will she forgive him and move on with the new life he wishes to give to her? Past experiences cannot be easily forgotten, the scars and dents she has sustained have not been wiped off, as Ireolamide’s father tries to establish a bond will she reveal all the bad things she went through for him to know just how bad his actions affected her and will she allow him to undo the multiple wrongs he did to her that caused her a traumatic childhood?

Ireolamide

So will I forever be sad or will I actually make a difference in my life? How long will I continue to live in fear? How many times will I keep on having flashes from the past? 


I want to be free, free of the memories of my past and free to be happy.


   I walked out of the bathroom and went to put on my pajamas, then I cleared the floor where I slept and laid my bed but didn't lie in it, I went to my desk and brought out my journal. I ran my hands over it and warmed up inside me, something always flutters inside me when I pick it up, sometimes joy other times anger and most of the time it is sadness, the deepest and worst kind of sadness; melancholy I guess. I feel sadness more intensely than I do other emotions, I've always wondered why but have never been able to get answers or even understand myself, so I have just accepted it as a part of me, I'm a sad girl.


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