Chapter 23

Alitha's POV

Maybe it's also because I drank a lot of alcohol but I'm not drunk. Or maybe because of curiosity and the feeling that urging me to kiss him back and feel the wondrous feeling again. Wondrous, just like what he said.

His lips still moving. Kissing back and forth from my upper and lower lip. I closed my eyes and kissed him back. I could feel him stunned and tensed. His lips suddenly stopped moving. This is what he wants right? Then why did he reacted that way? So I improved kissing him. I imitate what he was doing. I followed the way his lips moved.

He moaned. No, he groaned. And in one swift move, he cupped my face and kissed me hard. He penetrated his tongue in my mouth that made me produce that fucking sound. I jut moaned. But I don't care at all. His tongue explored every corner of my mouth. I met his tongue and he seemed even more aggressive.

We both moaned by the contact of our tongues. The feeling's intoxicating that made me crave for more. I raised my hands and wrapped them around his neck. One of his hands was on my neck without me being aware of it. One hugged my waist tightly.

We kissed for I don't know how long. As far as I know, we just stopped when we were both out of breath. He's panting and gasping for air. He keeps on doing that but still didn't move much away from me. He still hugged me and didn't want to let me go. I also gasped for air and realized how close we are. I pushed him slightly. "Don't push me, baby." His voice was husky and sweet. That's what stopped me from pushing him away.

Thinking about the feelings he introduced to me again, I felt even weaker and I remembered how I reciprocated the kiss to him. I felt embarrassed all of a sudden. But he didn't let me because he used his finger to lift my face through my chin. "T-that was.. I can't find the right words. Your luscious lips made me want you more and more." His raspy voice echoed in my ears. He never fails to awaken my inner being. I close my eyes.

"I need to go." I said. I'm not sure what else will happen to the two of us here. "I'll drive you home." He finally walked away from me but before that, he touched me first and planted a strong kiss on my lips. He seemed to ache for more by the way he nipped my lips. "No, don't bother. There's a driver to pick me up." I walked away a few steps from him. My knees softened at the few steps I took. Fortunately, he didn't notice me. "See you tomorrow." He said following me. Why are we meeting tomorrow? "Why?" I never turned to him.

"Because I want to see you." I secretly halted by his words. My heart hasn't even recovered from our kiss yet, but here he is again. I could no longer calm my troubled heart with him around. "I have some important matter to attend to tomorrow." "Where?" Why is he so naughty? "That's not your business anymore." We stopped walking when we reached the parking lot. "I'm your boyfriend so I have the right to know your every move." I frowned at him and stared at him questioningly.

"Excuse me? So I don't want to get into a relationship because I don't want a mess. I don't want someone to dictate me and even more I don't want someone to interfere with every decision I make!" I told him emphatically that made him shocked. He was stunned and just stared at me.

A long silence prevailed over us. I just called the driver without him speaking again. I thought he won't talk anymore but I was wrong. "If I do everything you want, will you agree to be my girlfriend?"

I turned to him but I could not speak. I stared at him and asked in my mind what drove this one to act like this? If he just wanted me, that's probably a superficial reason. I don't want to get involved with someone like him. My life will be in turmoil.

Uncle Dan's limousine arrived exactly. I stepped closer to the car. "Ali?" He calls me. "Answer me." His voice sounded pitiful. I turned to him. The man oozing with danger, bravery and fiery Nikolai Johnson is now begging in front of me. He begs me to answer him and let me be his girlfriend. What is going on?

"I'll think about it." I turned my back at him and get in the car. We left immediately as soon as I boarded. I no longer bothered to look back at Niko. He gives me a new thought. When I saw him sitting next to me earlier, I felt happy. But that was replaced by annoyance. Everything he said was right. I like him and I miss him. So, was it right for me to enter into a relationship with him as my boyfriend?

Do I like someone else other than him? None. I don't care about anyone else. He was the first opposite sex I liked. But when I realized that I like him, I never dreamed that he would be my boyfriend. Liking him alone gives me contentment and nothing more. I will ask help from someone I can rely onto this kind of issues in life.

I didn't sleep much at the thought of what I could possibly do. Now, I feel like I'm floating sitting on Alec's couch. We have a session today and I'm lazy. I'm fainting and I'm tired because I couldn't sleep last night.

"What the hell?" I didn't open my eyes when I heard Alec swear. He was probably upstairs and getting dressed. "Why do you look like that?" I could sense he's worried. "Are you pregnant?"

"What? Fuck! No!" I opened my eyes because of what he said. "Why did you say that?" He sat on the sofa in front of me. "As far as I observed, you have a big problem. At your age, the common problem is because they got pregnant. So tell me, are you?"

I saw an old magazine under the table. I get it and throw it straight to his face. "Fuck off!" He burst out laughing. "I was just kidding! You look like a mess." He said while laughing. "I do have a problem but it doesn't mean that I am pregnant!" "Okay! Okay! You're so serious." He said seriously. I gritted my teeth looking at him. We just kissed. Why should I get pregnant?

"Oh, why are you blushing?" I touched my cheeks. "I am not!" He shook his head as if he's not convinced of what I had said. "Are you sick?" "No. Why did you say that?" "Why are you acting like that? What's your problem?" I fell silent and leaned back on the couch. I had to tell him so he could help me. He's six years older than me so he definitely has a lot of experience.

"Ahm, remember Glaiza? My best friend?" I looked at him. "Yes. What about her?" "She has this kind of problem and she kept on asking and bothering me." He was serious as he looked at me. Waiting for what I will say next. Forgive me, Lord because I have to lie. "She likes a man. The man also likes her. That man flirted with her but they became friends at first." I had to look at him so he wouldn't suspect I was lying. "Then?" He asked as if bored. "She likes the guy but she doesn't like his behavior. His behavior is bad, he hurts others. He is feared at our school."

"Why do you look stressed when Glaiza has a problem?" "She called me last night because she can't sleep. She asks me questions that I don't know how to answer." Damn! Sorry, Lord for I have sinned. Promise, I am a great liar and I am doing this once. Jesus! "So, she doesn't like him because of his bad attitude, isn't it?"

"Yes." "Then why did she likes him in the first place?" I fell silent. Why do I really like him? "Nobody's perfect. Maybe Glaiza saw something in that man that she didn't see in others. That man maybe has bad characteristics but maybe he has good characteristics too."

Alec is right. Niko has good habits that I like. Maybe that's also why I liked him. "Is that the only thing stopping her from answering that guy? Maybe it's because that guy is going through something that's why he's acting like that in your school." That's also what I thought at first. Maybe he has a problem at home so he does that but I won't know that until he tells me.

"Tell Glaiza, if she really wants that man, why doesn't she give him a chance? Ask her how it feels if she can't see that man and if she can't be with him? Is she hurt? Does she miss him when he can't see him?" I fell silent and just looked at Alec. Everything he said fits my feelings. "If her answer is yes, she should answer that man. Because if she doesn't, she will regret it when the time comes."

"Regret? Why will she regret it?" I can't understand. "Can she bears looking at that guy with another woman? Won't she be hurt? What if that man will get tired of liking her and choose to like another woman? Can she handle the pain?" Why while he was saying that was I already hurting? I'm just thinking that he's with other girl, I feel like my heart is crushed into tiny pieces. What if I see Niko face to face with a woman? Just like Tracey. What if he gets tired of following me and be with Tracey instead?

That thought made me realize that I can't bear the pain. I like him but I can't bear the pain seeing him with other girl. What did he do to me that I can already feel this way? This is new to me and I don't know how to control the pain anymore. "Let her decide. For the meantime, let's start. I have some important thing to do later."

"Okay." Later I will think what I should think. I think I lost my craving for sleep when I heard what Alec said. I was not mistaken when I approached him. Maybe I also saw how he was hurt when Eden ignored him. How are they doing anyway?

I think this is not yet the right time to ask him that. I will trigger his pain if they're not yet okay and then I ask him. I won't let that happen. He taught me more and more. He showed the agility of defensive moves that he had never taught me before. He's professional as we face each other here in his practice room.

We only practiced for a few hours and he said goodbye and left. I asked permission to sleep first in his guest room which he gladly welcomed. I slept for a long time because it was night when I woke up. The clothes I used earlier have dried up. Fortunately, I brought extra today. I forgot to bring last week.

I scanned his place when I got out of the guestroom. He's not yet here but there's a food on the table. Maybe he sent someone here and bring me food. He's thought. It's a pity they are not getting along well with Eden. I shook my head and sat. I enjoyed the food but I saved for him. He might come home later and starve. After I ate, I washed the utensils that I used. It would be embarrassing for Alec if I just left these here.

I was full but I still couldn't get Niko out of my mind. I was still thinking of him until I came out of the house. "Is he the reason why you can't answer me?" I was halted when suddenly someone spoke behind me. I was in the car when that happened.

"Niko." My lips parted a bit because of shock. I didn't expect him to be here. I was shocked but there's a pinch of happiness and gladness seeing him here. "What are you doing here?" Is he following me? "I was trying to buy this apartment next to this." He said pointing to Alec's apartment.

"Oh, is that so?" He stepped closer to me. "You did not answer my question." His face was still stoic and serious. "Ah, Alec is my friend." His gaze turns cold while staring at me. "Alec?" "Yes, His name is Alec." He nods and keeps on nodding but shook it suddenly. He acts as if he heard something bad news.