Chapter Twenty Six

•Previously•

"Please, teach me how to fight."

"If that's what you want."

"I'll do anything you want if you let me go, pretty please?"

"I won't let you."

"You won't?"

"Fine, you can go but I'm gonna be your partner."

"I want to do it."

"We don't have to, you know, have sex."

"I hope you're ready for a long sleepless night baby."

"You bet I am."

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•Now•

°Madelaine's POV°

"Ah, Nik..." I moaned as Nik kept licking that one sensitive spot on my neck. I pulled on his hair to keep his head there.

"Baby, are you sure?" He asked in a whisper.

"Yes, I'm sure." I replied breathlessly.

Nik looked me in the eye then grinned. He took off my bra slowly and then proceed to take off my underwear as well.

He kept his eyes on me and kissed me hungrily. He cupped my breasts with his hands and groaned.

"Undress me." He ordered, looking down at my naked body.

"As you wish master." I laughed internally.

"Master?"

"You were giving me orders, shouldn't I call you master then?"

"Whatever you want baby." I pulled his towel that hung low around his waist and threw it to the floor.

"Hi there." I whispered.

"Are you talking to my dick?"

"No..." I giggled.

"Baby? Are you drunk?" He pinched my eyes open.

"What? No, I- I'm not." I pulled him in for a kiss but he pulled back.

"Laine, we can't do this while you're drunk." He shoved his wet hair back.

"But I want this, I told you I'm sure I want this. You never once asked me if I wanted to do it but you kept eye-fucking me whenever we're together, and now when I have the courage to make the first move, you don't want to do it with me. Was I too p- pushy?" I looked up at him.

"No, baby, I can't do it when there's a chance you won't remember any of this or will regret it, and I don't want to take advantage of you."

"You're not, I want this, you want this, so how is it that you're taking advantage of me when we both want the same thing?" I frowned.

"Laine, we'll do this when you're sober okay?" He took a strand of my hair and tucked it behind my ear.

"I- I'm sorry. Because maybe I'm the one who's taking advantage of you. I'm in pain and I don't know what I'm doing and I just wanted to forget I guess, like getting drunk every night before sleeping and talking to myself." I chuckled out. "Y- You know what? It's fine. I'll just go back to my room, goodnight Nik."

I slipped out from under him and stumbled my way across the room to get to my clothes. I put on my clothes and turned to him when he asked.

"Why didn't you tell me?" He asked as he too put on sweatpants and white tank tops.

"Because I don't want to be a burden to anyone. To be honest, I'm not sure what has happened to me, but ever since... she died, I was different. You know it too, Nik, you feel it too. I don't know how to fix myself, I hate what I had become, I don't like the new me. This sucks!" The tears that I had been bottling up inside slowly glided down my cheek. "I tried not to feel this way, but it didn't work, I think of things that I shouldn't even think about. It's really noisy up here in my head. I can't differentiate between what I want and what I need. Everything's fucked up and I tried talking to Rin, but it didn't work. I tried meditating, but no, what a fail." I fiddled with my fingers, choking on my own words. "I pray and pray to God that maybe one day I'll die of natural causes, slip, knock my head on the floor, boom, the next thing you know, I'm gone. God! I sound so pathetic right now." I wiped my tears with the back of my hands.

"I thought after two months, I'll be just fine, that it won't hurt anymore. But how wrong was I? I feel like I'm going crazy Nik, maybe I need more medicine to fix me." I ran to the bathroom and opened the cabinet, took out one of the bottles, and popped it open. Nik ran to the bathroom and snatched the bottle from me. "I need it Nik, it'll fix me! Maybe this time when I close my eyes, I won't wake up anymore. This is how it's gonna end for me. This is fate."

"No Laine, don't do this, please. I need you baby." I fell down on my knees and cried my heart out. Nik held me in his arms and hugged me tightly as if he was afraid to let go.

"You still have your family Nik, spend time with them b- before they're gone. Don't cry, it'll be fine. I'll be happy again and everybody will too. One less burden to carry, am I right?" I giggled sadly.

"Laine, look at me, look at me! Don't you dare, ever, say those words! You're not a burden. You're far from it, you're a miracle to me, baby. You're an angel. You helped me get through a hard time without realizing it, so let me help you with this. Hmm? I love you, sweetheart." He kissed my cheek and hugged me. After a while, I felt his tears on my shoulder, I was the reason for those tears, I failed the people around me just like I always did.

A little kid ran through the bedroom door towards us.

"Hi!" Silas said and joined our hug.

"Hi, Silas." I greeted him trying to hide the sadness in my voice and wiped my tears away.

"Why are you crying, my pretty queen?" He tilted his head to the side cutely, which made me smile.

"Nothing sweetie, I'm fine." I smiled at him and caressed his cheek. "How are you?"

"I'm great! I told mamma that I wanted to visit Mr. Russo and she let me." He squealed.

"Mr. Russo?" I turned my gaze to Nik and he shrugged.

"Yes, him." Silas pointed at Nik. "He did not like it when I call him brother. He said we should be profrenal in this house." Silas scratched his head.

"It's professional Silas." Nik corrected him and Silas snapped his fingers.

"Yes, that!" He giggled and sat down on the bed gently. "Can we play?" He swung his feet around since they didn't reach the floor.

"Of course." I walked to him and sat beside him on the bed.

"I'll be in my office if you need me," Nik said kissing my temple, and went to his office.

*2 Hours Later*

*Knock Knock*

"What do you want?!" Nik roared from his office.

"I can come back later if you're busy." I slowly closed the door.

"Wait!" I reopen the door and waited for him to say something. "I'm sorry sweetheart, I didn't know it was you. Come here." He put his pen down waiting for me to get to him. He patted his lap. "Sit baby."

I sat down and he spun us around. "Nik, I'm gonna fall." I giggled while holding him tightly.

"I'm holding you, you won't fall." He stated with confidence. "Is he gone?"

"Yeah, his mother picked him up 5 minutes ago." I looked at the clock.

He nodded. "Do you need something?"

"Yeah, I was wondering, since school is over soon can I get a job?" Nik looked at me with wide eyes.

"No." He said.

"But why not?" I played with his hair and he continued writing on papers.

"Because it's not safe out there." He shook his head and kissed my cheek.

"But Veronica's dead though?" Yes, she died. That stupid girl went to one of Nik's clubs and got super drunk, so it's really easy to capture her, after that Nik killed her. And the reason she killed Tyra was that she found out what she was about to do.

"My enemy is not just her. There are hundreds of them out there waiting to attack. I don't want you to get hurt so no. Instead, you can help me and I'll pay you."

"How?"

"Sometimes I need stuff done, I'll call you, you help me, I pay you. How's that?"

"Ok? That's great I guess." I shrugged my shoulder and buried my face in his neck. Nik rubbed my back soothingly.

"I'm almost done, after this we're going to bed okay?" He spun his chair from left to right and right to left. That made me sleepy, so I just nodded instead of answering with words.

Soon, my eyes closed on their own and the next thing I know, I fell deep into my slumber.