I dispersed like mud

It was three o'clock in the morning and Hea was standing in front of great casements in her room. There was clear darkness around and she was standing there with blank eyes. She tried to react normally in front of everyone, because she didn't want them to worry about her, but deep down, she was always struggling. She was constantly reflecting upon Jungkun's voice.

She raised her hand to open the window a little bit and get some air. The wind kissed her soft hair and she took a deep breath to calm her heart. Her eyes wandered round the black sky and she shut her eyes. She mewled, 'I cannot forget you. Why do I have to feel you this way when I know you're not what I thought?

A teardrop flowed from her right eye and the cold wind shook her spine, but she stood there like a statue. She felt like her heart was going to explode at any moment like a lot of memories were going through her mind. She had no way of getting out of her memories.