Fall Apart

Demetra POV

I cry in his arm and I also hug him tight. I want to compose myself so I can say all what I wanted to tell him before we fly abroad. Once I am calm I told him what I wanted to say to him.

Do you know that falling apart with you is not part of my decision. Yes...I want to move forward with this big challenge with us away from each other but I didn't think of breaking up with you. I just want to have a break for a moment but still I want to keep you but it looks like you don't want to keep me and I respect that.

Love...it doesn't mean that I don't want to keep you. Your my life, my breath, my sunshine but your right. I am hurting you so much already and it is also what I think the best. To fall apart it doesn't mean that we should cut all ties between us. Yes for the start we should so we could stop this hurt that we feel and so we could save each other from that hurt feeling. If we will not break up with this time we might break up hating each other and I don't want that to happen. At least their still love between us and I am not breaking up with you today. We will broke up the day you will left our country. Let us cherish first our last day with each other before we totally fall apart with each other.

I nod at him with agreement and I don't know why I agreed to him even I know I will be more hurt when we continue this especially that I know in the end we will fall apart with each other and he have a souvenir left with me. I know hiding it with him also is not good but it is the best for the mean time. I know when he will learn it today he will not let me go abroad even were hurting each other. Falling apart doesn't mean I should forget him totally but we should learn and move forward to all the hurt we felt this day. I hope when I meet him again we can still be friends and we can still build our family even I lied to him.