He felt like his body was on fire. It wasn’t something he wasn’t familiar with but every time it got more and more painful to bear. He held his stomach, curled in under his duvet and held his eyes shut tight.
He was crying and biting his pillow to hold in the painful sobs. He was called weak for whining about the pain so he didn’t bother to tell the sister.
They had been taking care of him for a very long time. He was a baby when he lost his parents and after that, they had taken care of him.
They had taken him to the doctor and concerned with every doctor they could to ask about his condition and the pain he faced every month but nobody knew what was going on with him. His health started declining just when he hit 18.
The doctors said he had maximum of 4 years to live which was a very vague estimation but he has already lived 2 years of his 4 years life.
He had accepted his fate. He knew he wouldn’t survive long enough to even complete these four years.
There was no medicine for his pain because his health sure was deteriorating but not knowing the cause of it made doctors confused as to what medicine to give him for his pain.
All he wanted was to know who he was and why was he different from others before sleeping under the layer of mud forever!
“Hey, you alright?” He heard a voice. He didn’t know who it was because he was under the duvet. But before he could open his mouth to answer or get the time to remove his duvet, he heard another voice.
“Yeah… I’m just going to use the loo.” The other boy answered the previous boy’s question which made him realize that the question wasn’t directed to him but to the boy who was out of his bed for the bathroom.
“Just wanna die soon.” He mumbled under his breath, answering the question even though it wasn’t directed to him.

The Creature Inside Me

It had already been 4 weeks and Irvin still hadn’t contacted Zadkiel. Mark was also ready to let Zadkiel live the rest of his life like he wanted to. He also tried to contact Irvin but his phone was always out of reach. There was no sign of him. He offered Zadkiel to contact his father to ask about Irvin but Zadkiel’s ego didn’t let him do this. He said that if Irvin doesn’t want to be found then he wouldn’t try because he wasn’t that desperate. 


He was sitting behind the bleachers thinking about the reasons that could’ve ended up in Irvin ditching him but he could come up with none. He wouldn’t admit to anyone that he was missing his mate and he could feel the pain of being rejected in his entire body. 


“I’ve been looking for you for an hour now.” Abel’s voice pulled him out of the thoughts. 


“Maybe I didn’t want to be found,” Zadkiel murmured, still gazing at the grass and playing with it. 


“Why?” Abel plopped down beside him. 


Research Time