Chapter 4: Loneliness

11 Months later (May)

I was running through the forest near Jay and I's favourite spot. That was when I realized my shoelaces were loose.

I stopped at the river and drank some water to cool off. It was a habit I developed at a young age.

I then proceeded to walk to the cave. I sat down and I took the small box that Jay forgot to take on his birthday, he forgot it on his nightstand. I will never forget that day.

I opened the box and held Jay's present close and tight to my heart.

I got him a necklace, that had a wolf, you could open the wolf and inside was Jay and I's picture.

He will be back in a month, I thought. For his 16th birthday, his end of Alpha Training and his night to find his mate after his first shift.

His life will be complete. I just hope that his mate does not get upset about my close bond with Jay. He will probably start being distant and I do not mind. But hell, I will miss him. It has been long since he has been gone. I just want to hold him and have him kiss my forehead only because I miss him, I mean he is my best friend after all.

I stood up as it was approaching sunset. I walked through the green forest that always held a natural and earthy scent. It calmed me down. My trip back the pack house was always prolonged because of how I cherished nature. I liked to brush my hand against the tree barks and leaves and continuously pick up large branches that fell off and carry them with me to where bonfires are held on some occasions.

When I arrived, I went straight upstairs to my bedroom and took a long shower and did my night rituals.

I then got out, went to my walk-in closet and I chose pajamas, which were a black short and a grey shirt and I wore my underwear too (would not want to forget that).

By the time I finish it was 8 pm, dinnertime.

My mom called for me, right on cue.

"I'll be down mom", I said back.

It sucks not being able to mind link until you are sixteen, and for me it's only in two months. Yay?

I went down the stairs to the kitchen. I took my plate and told my mom I will not be able to eat with them today. Everyone understood that it was one of those days where I missed Jay.

...

Later that night, I shot up and breathed heavily. Nightmare.

The same nightmare I have been having for the past 10 years.

A black wolf with a tint of brown keeps chasing and playing with me. Then a rabbit appears, it leaves me then goes to that rabbit to play with it. A hunter then comes my way, injects me with wolfsbane and slices my head off with an axe.

...

I then took a glass of water on my nightstand and drank all of it.

I went back to sleep with an uneasy feeling in my stomach. I shrugged it off and fell into deep sleep.