Chapter1 Origin

"Girls are useless the only thing they do is giving birth" my so called husband look at me with disgust.He said while throwing the half eaten plate of spaghetti at me.I am Emma I was born into the world where girls are know to only cook ,give birth and take care of their family.I was 37 weeks pregnant at that time hoping it was a boy as I already had 3 girls and Ed patient is running out.I picked up the broken plate and quietly excuse myself to the kitchen.I throw away the broken plate and sigh I rub my tummy furiously please be a boy I pleaded, I had enough.

My body was sore not only because I was pregnant but all the chores that I had to do my husband was rich as he is the only duke in the empire .Yet he refused to even spend money on his own family instead he spend his money on lavish gift for other women people.He only act his love when we are in banquet or to show his love in front of people so we seem to be a happy family.

At home he beat and abused me.He tied me up in a corner and he hit me in front of our daughters.He did not beat our daughter of course he did not as he do not want to hurt his precious live stokes that he was going to sell and married off.

I was deep into thought at that time when a three year old came running toward me trying to hug me."Ma Ma" Rosie my third child shouted I looked ta her with disgust eyed I hated her as I told myself.I shove her aside. People may say that I was cold hearted and loveless but I really don't care just like Ed said the only use of girls is cleaning taking care and be filial to our husband.

Rosie did not give up and she carry on pulling my skirt "Ma MA the flowers bloom can we go see? Her eyes was sparkling I just shake my heard this time I pushed her harder away it was not hard enough to hurt her but she did fall down to the grown.I decided to hurry down to my chambers I was exhausted when Ed saw me in the hallway.

When she saw Rosie was on the grown he was livid and he started to scold me that I am a heartless women, How could I do this to my child. Please if people hear that they will thought that you are such a loving husband I scoff you just treat our daughters as life stokes how I know my eldest daughter was only 12 and he decided he want to marry her to a 45 years old basted who alreadly have two wife.

Ed take out his whip my body shake as he took his whip out ."Dont you think that you carry my child I will go easy on you He scoff it probably going to be girl again! I want a boy a heir ! He shouted. The familiar hand movement was about hit me as I closed eyes when suddenly a big wack Eh it did not hurt Instead it hited Rosie .Rosie I shouted ! Ed was boiling this time.Shouting frantically "What use of protecting a livestock when you are going to be just hurt!" "Useless!" "Useless ! "he shouted. My mind was in a whirlpool I need to run as I saw Rosie her face had a big scar.I sorry Rosie I whispered.I wanted to picked her up.

Suddenly, a sharp pain was in my belly.The pain of agony started to rise above me. As my body shake uncontrollably bleeding starting to happen in my lower body. I was in so much main that I forgot to breath I started to grasp for air.Then I saw two beautiful girls came running towards me "Mom" they shouted while running hurriedly to me .My youngest was crouching besides me I stroked Rosie faced gently as she sob furiously.I sorry Rosie I am sorry I failed all of you as a mother.I love you I whispered as my world became dark.