MEMORIES WANTED TO CREATE WITH YOU, DOESN'T EXIST

*PROLOGUE

*Xazeshier

Does anyone ask you this question "What is the true  essence of love?" Will,I was totally dumbfounded with that question. "Is that question was specific or In general?" I pondered deeply, There are variety of love but talking with its true "ESSENCE"was truthfully quite confusing.

The world is just to wide,to broad,to Vast. And if I were to explore every corner of the Earth keeping a list of them, perhaps I already filled the field of Araneta Collisium of papers.

The looks on his face says something that there is more to figure out. Well,he is not the masculine type of a lad, he has this aura of a charming man, I am honestly attracted to when I saw him.

Time goes as fast as blink in a eye, like the swifter flow of rivers that you cannot even caught the edge of the cliff as it pours down rapidly till it reach the blue oceans and tour around the globe. And I was right here in my own space wherein a place that I can think through about my life, A tale about him, A fictionary novel being with him.

*Coffeeshop

He walk through  the entrance of the cooffeshop he wore a non branded cap in his shoulder a bag that he carries look like a travel bag and  mobile phone in his jeans and a earphone in his right ear leaving his left ear open. Clearly, to hear what is happening around him. He wear a V-neck T-shirt Green stripes White. At first glance, as he push the door he is manly.

That is what I thought as I saw him literally. He is a man that girls is not  absolutely a dream or even Ideal type just by looking at him you will see his flaws. Like the perfect bloom flower but as you look them from the roots to its flower there are track of soil dirts, and a dried leaf. As the quotation said " No one was born perfect." 

*Psydexmoon

I pushed the coffee shop door and walk toward the counter. "How may I help you?" "Black coffee please" the saleslady wasn't not looking at him it seems she is too focus infront of the computer. And I have this wierd feeling that someone is mocking me, I thought so," what a judgemental person" I say it out loud the saleslady look at me with confusion, "Pardon Sir?" "Nothing" *I smiled feel so embarassed, I look around and see the whole shop it was nice kind of cozy, after I receive my coffee I seat at the back part of the coffeeshop. There are so many costumers,no doubt the saleslady was kind of busy. There were lovey dovey couple that is little bit public display of affection, A grandmother with his Grandchildren, teenagers busy chatting with each other face on the phone, a woman busy on her laptop and a notebook beside her  as she stand I think she is about to leave she look  professional on her outfit she  wore a trouser nude color with  a plain navy blue T-shirt inserted, and heels 2inches same color with her trouser. And there are bro's flexing,I think, a new costumer hitting on a saleslady she is smiling but she look irritated. The woman left,she opened the door by using her back she could not use her hands because both of them were full. I drink my coffee and there are a lot of things happening to me this past few days maybe I should go on a trip for a while. The scenery was a great I could see what is happening outside. I can see the crowd of people goes back in forth walking on the street, where will their feets take them. Then I will ask myself people are too busy working on their lives and somehow other had all the things they have but still not satisfied.

*Xazeshier

After I left the coffeeshop having troubles just by opening the door, well for a reason that I cannot used both of my hands. I suddenly goes to one libraries And I saw some of my co-workers and I am trying to hide myself from them to avoid any friendly greetings. There was a  guy standing beside me and thanks to him I used him as a sheild. And when my co-workers left I sigh with a relief feeling.

"are you good?" Suddenly the guy asked, "yeah," a smile of hesitation and thumbs and then I realized why would I do that kind of hand gesture crazy me. I walk out and tour around the libraries I am looking for a vampire genre because I just love it.

"Coincidence,fate, I guess they both holds and represent  different meaning from how you  interpreted it"

Meeting Each Other

*Xazeshier

Spending all day doing work was exhausting. I make coffee from an instant sachet and satdown in the table near in the window from here you can see the blinding light of the moon, serving you a relief feeling of moon drip, A twilight lamp in your nigritude room. 

There are thoughts circling around your head as well as the  vivid memory of the lad you saw.

"I guess his having a lovely resting" I murmured the word without a doubt. "Hmmm, this coffee is not delicious at all" Drinking it with a smile."The moon… how are you moon, Your just up there watching us, I bet you envied what kind of life we are living, You are alone in the orbit of the Earth. Although the stars are with you  but they were too further for you to hold on,"

 Speaking to myself, as if I am having an awesome conversation with the moon. I drunk the last drop of my coffee until I see its bottom. After a few minutes of releasing reflecting and relaxation you were surprised by a sudden doorbell in your apartment. You opened the door and see who is outside. It was a delivery man " Good evening,How may I help you?"You behold him from toe to top but your eyes was magnified by a parcel he was holding.

"Ms Xazeshier Tralverdeity?" The delivery man ask, "It was me, May I know if where this parcel came from, I couldn't remember buying it" confused* " This was from the travel company you have applied a online form with, would you mind if you hold this so I will be able to took a picture with it" you come out from the door you didn't even changed your clothes and your make up was faded and you look stress, to avoid showing your face in the camera you used the parcel a cover by putting them near at your face and only your eyes will be visible. "Thank you ma'am" you nodded and gave a smile you run over to your living room and quickly open the parcel. Inside of it was a plane ticket in highclass ride in the Aeroplane,Hotel reservation name, and atm which possibly contain your pocket money. "Oh whoah shhooot". That was your verbal reaction, but your body gestures was everything. I receive the parcel and I am having a storm occurence in my own apartment.I am just grateful, for a reason that getting this ticket was not easy at all. Although applying for this was online, I saw this add appear while I am browsing some travel website and unfortunately my laptop got bugs even it doesn't affects how my laptop function, and sudden black out and my gadgets is running out of battery as well as power bank then when the electricity returned I have realized my Internet Balance was out of mbs and the most out of breath part when I accidentally shove on my bottled mineral water and spilled on my laptop and to the outlets. "Oh!shoot!" My only reaction and I was in a state of panicked what to grab first, I raise my laptop together with the extension sockets  and plugged my mobile phone and threw in the couch a. Thankfully the water on my laptop is just sprinkled but the thing is my books got wet.

 I am too lazy to cook for myself that is why I decided to eat outside. I have changed my clothes and bring my bag to, I am wearing a maong shorts highwaist a sleeveless peach shirt as well as the shoes and a handbag white. I am alone in the elevator and push the ground floor button. "Hmm I don't want to ride my Scooter" It is my own transportation vehicle to go  on my jobs will though car is fancy I do want to It will only stuck on the traffic then I will be late to go to work. I walk instead and stop by in the near park you bought your dinner in one food trucks and your satisfied with it,savoring it's taste.

*Psydexmoon

I am in our home and I am resting, I have a sidejobs other than my permanent jobs and tired And I don't feel staying my room It is suffocating, I go out and ride motorbikes and stop in one park This park was 10 minutes away in our house and its become a hobby of mine. I really do not feel eating I wanted to unwind inhale the fresh air distributed by the trees on the park  what makes this park became a respite of people it is I think the ambiance and the atmosphere although you can hear the variety of noises. There is something that you can meditate and make your ravel thoughts at peace and gently organize them. I don't have the appetite to eat but my bashful stomache keep on growling and its too loud. A lady appear before and I was shamefaced why it has to be this way "ahm,are you broke?" Giving a burger and to him in friendly manner but behind her eyes you can see that lenient gaze "no" you replied defensively "thriftyperson?"

"no,"you say one moretime

"then?timidperson to buy on that food truck?" She pointed the food truck using her lips

"well,don't really have the appetite this evening" I said and feel so embarrased right now

"Why are you giving me food relief?" I said to her make it sound funny, I stare at her lenient eyes turned to little offended but her expression say the opposite, she laugh. What is wrong with this woman,Is insane or… ah forget it.

*Xazeshier

I finished to eat my food and I heard a growl of hungry stomach then I looked behind me there was a lad, will I am seating a bench here in a park which designed that facing the opposite but in one body you know.

 I stroll around then gave the man a burger and drinks which I bought to brought it at my apartment for my midnight snack since I am giving this maybe I will stop by in the store to buy again then the man look up to me awkwardly embarass confused why I am doing a charity in one strangers but what shock me is that it was the coffeshop man he saw and since it was not wearing a cap I notice his Eyebrow was thick and he look like those Arab man but as he spoke the way he talk, kind of, you know, Stagy.

He didn't receive the food instead he stand up and walk away from me, "he is tall" I say it loud good thing he did not heard it.

"Hey,Coffeeshop man!" I shouted to him and he turned his head back at me

"if you don't want this then,Don't,as if I care," I told him with sound of my voice annoyed and teasing him and his expression can't explain but his eyesbrows were closing to each other and a little bit raised.

I walk away  and find my wayback to my apartment and I saw him already have his orders pack in a paper bags he goes toward his motorbike and start the engine and drive the opposite side road from where my place is.

"It is not the place where it all begun, but on the next place we are about to go, it is time to start our new record and open a files within our minds,heart and soul"

TRAVELLING WITH YOU

At the evening I packed my luggage for tomorrows trip. I wasn't able to prepared it earlier due to my work "first let's check it if I am missing something, hmmm...medicine kit, Personal hygiene, Beauty care kit, Undergarments, 2 pair of sneaker shoes, Sandals, Slippers, Hoodies, and pairs of clothing, organize by its supervenient days of the week. OH SHOOT the socks!" I run to my cabinet and look for a five pairs of socks, well if you are guessing why I would bring so many...necessities, I even brought some dressess just in case I needed to wear them. I will be in Paris and spent a week there. I will make sure to visit its magnificent tourist spot without wasting and missing a single hour of the day. This is gonna be implausible with a thought of it I can feel my adrenaline rush through the veins with excitement… Can't wait to woke up early in the morning for vigoruous preparation.

*Airport

*Vrix

Being in a crowd of people I feel anxious which are the signs of Social Anxiety Disorder like blushing.

nausea.

excessive sweating.

trembling or shaking.

difficulty speaking.

dizziness or lightheadedness.

rapid heart rate.

The voices  keep on resonate but unexpectedly someone grab me and Hug me I don't know whom this person but thankfully I somehow felt relieve like nobody gonna hurt me, as if I am protected although who is this.

I always been like this when I was in a elementary days I hate to roam around but little by little, I am the stage of overcoming, even though there are moments that all the memories flashing back. Like now, 

I Look at the person whom make me feel at ease. 'A woman'

"Are you okay?" Smile brightly the way she speak full of concerns in spite of being a stranger

"I-I-I-I...Let-Let-go of me will you"

I Told her but she did not listen she hugged me more tightly

"You are....You are still shivering with fear…" her voice calm as sea her meek-eyes

"Let go!" I said fortitude, this is embarrasing all my life I've never pitied like this, I am doing my best effort to surmount this even I am on the limits of my mental capacity.

"Okay" the she turned away, What did I do, she is just trying to be nice.

"Hey!" I shouted,she gazed at me

"Thank you! And I apologise!" I look directly in her eyes and told those words sincerely and she smiled brightly again I smiled back she walk towards me

Hold my hands and she gave me something. 'smiling keychain emoji'

"Trust yourself,you will overpower your anxiety," she look at me intently l

"Don't let yourself stock in four cornered bricks, You can't go on living without interacting and socializing other individuals---

Xazeshier" she offered a handshake

"A,I know--Brenth Vrix Alwelleis"

"Nice to meet you,Goodbye"

I could not say goodbye she left hurriedly with her luggage

*Xazeshier

I boarded the plane but going to paris doesn't have a direct flights and we have to layover one stop which is hongkong and wait for an hour to board to Paris sad to think about I will not be able to take a glimpse in hongkong

I overslept then someone wake me up by tapping my face 

"Ms we have arrive in hongkong"

A voice from a man perhaps a flight crew but no, it was also a passenger

I was awakened and on my surprise my eyes wide open like tarsier and I instantly standing banging the man who woke me up and Also hitting his head to my luggage which slips my hand when I am about to pull it from the compartment. It's his fault for standing right in front of me

"Ouch,could you be more careful careless lady" he said then left annoyed while holding his head

But I stopped him 

"wait," with a hand gestures stop

He look back, Oops he look familiar

"let me check your head,to see if there were wounds"

Fleet footed walk toward him and I accidentally smashed my knee to the passengers seat good thing there is no scratch.

When I reach him, I touched his head I perceive a small lump on his head in the middle, 'Oh he got a soft hair like his palm when he tap my face to awake me,I bet his a lazy type of man'

"I apologise,"

"He spanked my arm to remove from touching his head" his expression of disdainful

He walk away displaying his back on me, I took my luggage with me and descends the plane

"Seriously, he was over there and the he is already out of sight--What a long legged man"

Talking to myself.

I was seated upon one of the departure lounge and I saw some ladies and gentleman passing by and staff who offered the passengers a food and beverages I called a lady wearing a maroon ¾  shirt with a white highlight on its collar one inch as well in the button she wore a old faded black skirt highwaist which her upperclothes tuck in.

"A glass of water please, and may I ask a one Ice pack" I said all smiles

"of course ma'am,Please wait her patiently" she turned away a minutes gone and she came back.

"Thank you"

I look around to see where was the man who awoke me earlier 

And I saw him on one corner resting his head on the couch close eyes. I marched toward him and put politely on his head where I smack my luggage 

And he opened his eyes and look awkwardly puzzled

'His eyes brows are really thick'

"What are doing?" He ask

"Is it obvious, I am putting ice pack"

"I mean why do you need to, I don't really, And another thing it is not really painful"

"but you left earlier in disgust,and I am guilty about it"

"Well, If you thought so, and your at fault then, okay, don't interrupt my resting time"

"You talk, a lot, can you just hold this by yourself and my arm started to ache"

I satdown beside him knees-hug while swaying backinforth like the horse used to play during childhood.

*Psydexmoon

Goodness,This woman is getting my nerve burst How can she very persistent. And oh, wait is she the woman I saw hugging a stranger on the airport? That guy was attractive although I can see his fragility on the external toughness, this girl remind me the from the park they really look the same 'doppleganger' or she really is… and at the coffeshop.

And A short time ago when I about to leave the plane one of the flight attendant sign me to wake her in depth of dossed even we already arrive and how careless she is, even by getting her luggage in the compartment fall on my head, though she is a woman you will scornful, she is also a meticolous lady.

And now she is right beside me knees-hug swaying like a baby

it is comfortable and uncomfortable being with her

"Are you going to Paris too?"

She asked curiously eyes on the floor and suddenly stared at me

And I was mesmerize by  her eyes

'What a very lenient eyes'

"Why do you ask the 'Obvious'thing?"

"I thought of great Idea, it is merely constructed on my mind but this is gonna be fun" she spoke with excitement

I behold her intently

"Since You and I are going to Paris--a,wait how long you will be in Paris"

"A week" she clapped her hand

"O whoah perfect" now she seat formally foot on the floor

"what?" I asked her consciously

"Be My Travel Boyriend, as in Official, " I was in a state of thundertruck but I did not let her see thay expression of mine, 

"I mean Paris is full of love whereevery direction you look, love birds each corner, and a single roaming around is lonely"

That is her crazy reasoning but she got the point though I wanted to explore thing and take risky and unrational decision sometimes and I decided, I will agree to her

"Let us make this vacation fun, we don't know how this will end, happy?sad?tragic?one being left behind?" She says this outloud with giggle on her face and I don't see any hesitation in her eyes

"Psydexmoon Weisylblythes"

A hand shake between the two of us

"Xazeshier Tralverdeity" she smile like those sparkle stars of my silent night

"If love is endless and eternal, let our love begin with a given time limits"

START NOW,LET'S WRITE OUR OWN STORY.

XAZESHIER POV

*On the Plane

Since we are started our relationship, we decided to sit side by side. We plead to the passenger whose originally seating beside me. And she agreed, I was in a state of overjoyed  it feels like the empty space in my heart abruptly filled with pleasure.

Both us holding hands tigthly as if there is no time limits. The air condition makes me a little bit chilled that is why I took my blanket and we help ourselves cover up. 'We' did I just say 'WE' its odd I don't feel any akwardness mentioning but instead, it was nice,

I Have'nt gone to sleep despite the tiresome travel. Me and Psy keep talking and the hours passes more slower.

"You know what, we should think of our, endearments" I said direct contact with him

"We',Our'"He said chuckling, those Bizarre Eyes

"What?" I smiled full of enthusiast

"the way you spoke those words as if, you were used to it"

"Yeah, I know, it is supposed to be feel a little bit awkward, but I am not"

"What endearments would you love?like,cheesecake,strawberry,pum--" I interrupted him when he is about to speak pumpkin by unconciously putting my point finger to his lips then I was marveled what he does next his eyes turned into mischevous. As he lick my finger kissed it and suck my finger

"what was that?"

"trying to be the best boyfriend you could have" As he draw close his face to mine, he is trying to temp me.

"oh,then how does my fingers taste after you devoured it"  Go with the flaw I am not just  let my guard down, I will do the same to him.

"Taste like dessert, sweet as honey," his voice are getting more naughty and seductive he does not intended to kee his face further away from me.

"xt" he whisper on my ear, my brisk risen

"You know what,you're dangerous,Tantalizing man" I whispered back to him

"psy" I did what he does to me, and finally he is back to his normal self. I look away at him and stare outside, 

"By the way" he said, then suddenly he  back hugs me head on my shoulder, I did not forseen that coming.

"I did not expect that you are clingy and in love with to much physical affection." I said to him still staring outside but touching his hand that hugging me and kissed it. he was shock by it, for a reason that he moved and the he chuckles.

"You really are, something"  he said facetiously

"Anyway, thank you for being my girlfriend" he said, sincerely, I faced him and removed temporarily my hand from holding it  and put on his cheeks

"Thank you for being my boyfriend" one of the handsome passenger walk by and I glance him and and look back to psy face and put a light kiss on his lips. His eyes widened,

"What was that for?"

"for a reason that---"

"that what"?

"I saw a handsome guy"

"and?"  He is prepossessing when his curious

"I don't want to get myself allure for someone else" I smile

We talk a lot of things, without asking about private lives. I have never been  this joyous while talking, nor getting bored where the converstion goes. I mean being with him right now hits me an eccentric impression. As we exchange our thought to each other without worrying anything. And the funny thing is that I satdown with different possession and his okay with it. Like my legs lie on his lap,knees-hug,head resting on his shoulder, indian sits, and the whole time. Our hands intertwined.

And we did not realize that  we have already arrive at paris.

Psydexmoon POV

As of now,she is standing right beside me as we descends the plane and got our feet on the ground. Hands intertwined, as we walk together most of the time other people think how lovely  couple we are.

We left the airport and take a ride together on taxi, and goes directly to my reserved suite although she said, she got one, but I wanted her to be by my side all the time. After we put are things without organizing it. She insist upon that they are not gonna rest to recover from jetlag. She is eager to stroll around the paris.

"psy,I will not waste every hour stock here in this luxurious suite,okay" she said with a melodious sound, And I could not refuse when she ask me while combining those canorous voice and meek-eyed.

We arrived at the afternoon,perhaps possibly we can  get at 2-3 places around here and tomorrow we can visit Eiffel tower.

"As we arrive in this place, We will create a memoir that both of us can hold dear even upon this very moment"