About Feelings

"So, Denias' death wasn't because of our family, right?" asked Mesya.

"Yes! Maybe, and I'm sure if Denias died it was purely an accident," said David.

The two of them sat on a park bench which was not so crowded at the moment.

"David," Mesya held David's hand gently.

"Yes, What is up?" David asked.

"I'm happy now that I can be close and chat like this together with you," said Mesya.

David only responded with a faint smile.

"In the past, you were always cold to me, even when I wanted to talk, you always gave me limited time," said Mesya with slightly pursed lips.

David smiled again at the expression of his adopted sister.

"Sorry," he said flatly.

"Yes, I have forgiven, since a long time ago," said Mesya.

David lifted his chin for a moment, "If you have forgiven me, then why is your face still frowning?" quipped David.

"Erm?" Mesya holds her lips.

"I just get annoyed when I think about that time, and I'm so jealous of Lizzy,"

"Why do you envy you, Lizzy?"

"Yes, because she is very close to you. Even now, you still love her, I also want to have an old brother who loves me. I also want to be happy like Lizzy," concluded Mesya with a look full of hope.

"You, still luckier than her!" David says little curt.

"David?" Mesya turned to David, and suddenly she didn't feel well with David. "What, are you angry with my said earlier?" Mesya asked, feeling guilty.

"Yeah, I don't like anyone mentioning that name. Because then I'm reminded of her cheerful, gentle, and kind-hearted figure. But unfortunately, misfortune is inevitable," said David.

"Once again I'm sorry, David," Mesya bowed her head.

"It's okay, maybe I'm just being too sensitive."

"I understand, you're feeling, Lizzy is lucky to have an old brother like you, and now all you have to do is pray for Lizzy so that she can rest in heaven," said Mesya.

Hearing Mesya's words, made David's heart a little calm.

"David, can you not. If you miss Lizzy, can you just hug me?" said Mesya.

David fell silent for a moment as he looked at Mesya.

Then the dimpled girl developed a smile.

Even though David also loves Mesya, he still can't think of Mesya as Lizzy.

Love feels different. Now David is very sure that Mesya and Lizzy are not the same people.

In the past, Mesya's presence reminded him of Lizzy, thus making David feel tormented, the figure of a little girl who resembled his biological sister kept disturbing his view, reminding him of a dark event. A cheerful figure had been lost in misfortune, died only for ritual offerings of a cult, David who at that time could not do anything could only remain silent, and feel tormented because his beloved sister disappeared.

In the past, Mesya's presence hurt David's heart, but as time went on, Mesya grew older, then David realized that he shouldn't have hated and avoided Mesya.

And instead, he must take care of Mesya.

That sincere smile, like a gentle breeze that cools the heart. It even made his heart that was once hurt now bloom.

As well as making a normal beating heart seem to rebel to get out of the breastbone.

"Mesya, can you stop smiling?" David asked.

"Erm?" Mesya was silent for a moment, "what's wrong with my smile?" She said with an innocent expression.

"...."

'There's nothing wrong with your smile, Mesya. It's just that my heart can't calm down when I see that smile,' David said in his heart.

"Mesya, do you still want to pursue your dreams?" David asked changing the subject.

"My dream?"

"Yeah, you want to be a Doctor, right?"

"Ah, haha! Yes, that's right!" Mesya scratched her forehead a little embarrassed.

"Then how? Do you still want to achieve your goals?" asked David again.

"Huft ... I don't know ...." Mesya replied with a heavy sigh.

"Don't you want that anymore?"

"Ah...maybe yes,

"Why?"

"Because now I only have one wish, to obey Mother's orders and after I succeed with my task, then I will live as freely as I want," answered Mesya.

Now it was David's turn to hold his sister's hand.

Mesya instantly fell silent, and suddenly her heart, which was currently taking her turn, was beating fast.

'Oh my God, why my heart?'

"Mesya, soon I will graduate, I can't monitor you in school every day," David looked at Mesya's eyes with a meaningful look.

"... that's too bad," Mesya suddenly became gloomy.

"Even so, I promise to take care of you," David tightened his grip even more. "It's just, I can't be there all the time,"

"David, are we going to be like this forever?"

"... I don't know...." David answered.

'Hand, Mesya, why is it suddenly cold?' the man's mind began to wonder.

"Mesya, are you sick? Your hands are very cold?" asked David with a slightly panicked look on his face.

Mesya liked the look on David's face who was worried about her.

However, Mesya couldn't admit that her hands were cold, not because they were sick, but because they felt nervous when David touched them.

"N-No, I'm okay, really ..." Mesya said in a stuttering voice.

"Is that true?!" David held his sister's forehead, and it turned out that his forehead was cold too.

"Are you sure you're okay?"

"Well... I'm fine, David. But...."

"But what?"

"...."

"Mesya, why are you silent? And your face is getting paler too?"

"David, have you ever felt your heart pounding when dealing with someone?" Mesya asked innocently.

"Yes," David said.

"Is that true?"

David nodded.

Then she continued her word.

"When, David, felt it?"

David looked down flatly.

"Now," David replied.

Masya's eyes suddenly widened.

'Could it be, David, that you feel the same way I do?'

"Mesya, I know what's in your heart, and I'm sure you also know what's in my heart. So just let this feeling stay." David concluded.

"Is this what they call falling in love?" asked Mesya.

David took a deep breath and then nodded.

'Love? I'm too young to feel this, I'm only 14 years old, I'm just a student in Junior High School. Is it natural for this feeling to greet me? Maybe yes, because it's normal. I too have grown up, and this is also called first love. But ... why should you, David? Huft... He's my brother!' Mesya spoke in his heart.

"We don't need acknowledgment, the important thing is that we know how each other feels. I don't care if you think of me as 'Brother' or as ...." David grabbed Masya's hand this time, not just one hand, but both of Mesya's hands in his.

David looked at Mesya with a smile.

To be continued