Chapter 15

I'm currently ,sitting in my room replaying what happened with Chris and I feel so sad for myself for the very first time in life ,I genuinely feel like a loser. I'm in my bed with a tube of vanilla flavoured ice cream and lots if snacks after the whole thing, with Chris I just took a walk to the park and then blacked out and bought all the snacks I could find. I am also surrounded by a lot of tissues because I'm watching my favourite movie of all time the note book crying over how horrible my life is and how I wish I had a boyfriend who will just hold me and make me feel safe because I don't know I guess I just feel lonely .But then an idea comes to me Connor , had asked if I wanted to hang out with him but I cancelled on him .Maybe he is still up for the idea. I look for my phone in the mess I've created and find it underneath my pillow . I send him a text no actually decide to call him instead .

The phone rings 3 times until he picks up.

' Hey ,Kim I wasn't expecting your call what's up ? '

'Oh nothing g I was just checking to see if you could hang out with me ,u know I said tomorrow but I am totally free so what for you say ? '

' Actually ,i can't I'm with Emily and she wants us to go and see her mom so we are preparing to go there.

"Babe ,we are going to be late and you know how my dad is with the whole being on time thing. " Emily cries in a screeching voice ,I can hear the frustration in her voice . " I'm just taking to a friend I'll get off the phone now ".

' Look ,I'm sorry I have to go Emily is under a whole lot of stress right now and her dad isn't too much of a fan of Me so can I call you tomorrow .'

'yeah ,sure bye hav... a ' he ends the call before i even get the chance to wish him a good evening.

And that is the moment I realise that I have to get friends and a life that there us more to life than watching movies eating unhealthy food and also chasing after guys who aren't worth a single cent .I look to the other side of the room where Daisy used to be and feel even more awful. I decide to finally put an end to all this and just go out to a party and this time without Connor or Christian . I look at the time and it reads 6:00 pm and i think great I'm that pathetic to have been doing nothing but wallowing in self pity. I think about how easy it can be for me to get to one because there are lots of uni party's I can find at this time especially because its the weekend. I rush to my closet and pick out a purple skirt with a matching purple top and some white sneakers .I go on to social media because I figure it would be easier to look for a party that way .I end up finding out that there is an epic party as they put it , that is being hosted by a guy named Jacob. and I decide that why not .I write the address down and go on with my planning . I pull out a make up bag, with a make up set that my aunt Regina had gifted me ,she always encouraged me to learn how to put make up and that I had to take care of my skin . I take a 20 minute shower and go straight to getting my make up done . I opt for a simple yet cute look since I barely know how to do it properly just the basics .I put on some lip gloss and a nude eye-shadow and for my hair this time I decide to curl it . I put on the I outfit I picked out and get yet another one of my infamous small purses that I like so much . looking at myself in the mirror one last time and convincing myself that I look good, I pull out my phone and call an uber . The whole drive to the place I was a bit nervous but that was all thrown away because this is the chance I get to actually make friends and possibly get a boyfriend and stop having such a sad life in general.

The uber diver drops me off and I immediately walk straight to the frat house . I get in and its no different than any other party I've attended there's alcohol and music and all you find at a party. I decide to go and get something to drink because its a party and I have to let loose anyways.

I get myself something a bit more strong this time a cup of beer which by the way down taste too good but I decide to just drink it .After that ,I set out for place to hang out at and I settle for the balcony , hoping not to find anyone for now but I actually do find someone .Its a guy who is just laying in the floor and enjoying himself with a red cup next to him .

" Can I join you ? " I ask him while slowly approaching him . He gets up from his his sleeping position and smiles before he answers " Sure " .That is when I really get to look at him and wow is he gorgeous . He has hazel eyes along to go with his brown hair . He is wearing a white t- shirt along with black cargo pants and to be honest I'm not hating the look .

" So what are you doing on a sunny day like this alone gazing at the stars during the day " I ask him adding a bit of a laugh just so I don't offend him .