She wipe a threatening tears" hey" she hit their shoulders " don't make me ruin my make up "
Badiyya and Sakeena smile, admiring the affection the trio shared. Even if Jafar wasn't related by blood, aunty yasira still considers him her little brother .
" enough with the squishy hugs. The ladies are also waiting for their turn" they chuckled and pull out.
Jafar walk to meet Sakeena while Sadiq march to Badiyya.
" I'll miss you little sis, always remember that you're the best thing that had ever happened to me . I'm so grateful to Allah for giving me someone like you as a sister and I wouldn't change you for anything. I love you badiyya and thanks for also loving me unconditionally " a teary badiyya hugged him so tight as if he was going to disappear when she release him.
" I love you so much big bro . Please do call me all the time"
" I will, I promise "
Jafar gaze at Sakeena lovingly. He couldn't believe he was going to leave a treasure as valuable as Sakeena for two years,even worse more than two years!. How would he cope without her? She is his sunshine, his ride and die .
" I will wait for you" she said
That statement alone was a determination to him.
" Thank you ,thank you for everything. Thanks for accepting me the way I am, .....tha...... I don't even know how to thank you enough ,Sakeena. You are an angel in disguise and I will continue to love you till eternity. Please wait for me, I will come back to you, soon"
" i will always be here , waiting for you. Please, Don't keep me waiting for too long "
" I won't, I promise " he graze her hand lovingly " I love you so much and I promise you that the first thing I'll do when I get back is to ask for your hands in marriage "
With wobbling lips she said " and I can't wait "
He wiped her tears.
After long goodbyes, the passengers where calledas the plane is about to take off. With one last look, they walk straight up inside the plane while the ladies kept waving them good bye praying that Allah should keep them safe.
Unknown to all, a particular someone was crying their heart out regretting not been able to tell out their feelings on time, regretting all they've done and not been able to say how sorry they were. It was too late for that now and moreover they might not reciprocate their feelings. It was time to give up.
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After lots of effort to calm down , Rahama took a deep breath and checks herself in her front mirror. She wiped up the dried tears with an handkerchief and sighed before coming out of the car. She swore that she wouldn't allow anyone to know about what happened and even if they find out ,it makes no different. He was gone for good.
She took her time to walk into the house cooking some excuses in her head. Excuses which she was going to tell her dad about her sudden rush out of the house and not even waiting to listen to her dadwhen he called her name.
Flashback
She woke up as usual around 6 am which has become her daily routine. She performed ablution and finally perform her fajr prayer. She call unto the Lord seeking for mercy, she really wants to change but is finding it hard to ,but why? She doesn't know. She knew the answer to all her problems can be answered by her alone, she hold the key to her problems. If she could just let go of the past, she would be free from all her worries. But how can she? When it keeps hunting her every blessed day any time she looks at her scarred legs. The only people that knew about it was aunty yasira and her dad and they swore not to ever say a word to anyone. But still, she still wasn't over the past, it's still so hard for her to trust again. No matter how hard she tries to, she couldn't. She always ends up failing miserably. I need help, she thought.
After long prayers to her lord ,she finally fold the mat and kept it one side. She pull off the hijab and went into the bathroom to do her business. Five minutes later she was finally out. She stroll downstairs and could hear her dad and aunty yasira talking about something that sounds important but she couldn't pinpoint what they were talking about. Upon seeing her, they kept quiet immediately as if they don't want her to know or hear what they were saying. She internally shrug, not bothered at all.
" Good morning to you all" she greeted with a smile and drag a seat to sit on.
Aunty yasira smiled brightly " morning, how was your night? "
" it was ok"
" Morning dear" said her dad with a clip smile, she also replied with a clip smile of hers.
She serve herself and quietly ate her breakfast.
" so dear, have you gone through the files I gave you? "
" Hm, yes dad. But am still not done yet, you know how things have been choked up ever since sadi......... I mean, after he left"
Yasira raised a brow wondering why was it so hard for her to call out sadiq's name. She loves referring to him as he or him. It's already getting so annoying.
Her dad nodded " I understand dear, just keep pushing, please. "
" I'm trying dad"
" OK then. Will you be at the office today? "
" nope"
" why?" asked her dad, skeptically
" I .. I.. I'm not feeling too well. I think I need a day off "
" alright, do you need a doctor? "
She laughed " God, dad , it's just a small headache and moreover after I take a paracetamol for it ,I will be good to go"
" if you say so then"
That was how everyone finished their meal .Aunty yasira went to sadiq's house while alhaji dabo also decided to just have a free day too and the twins are in school. At around 12:30pm alhaji received a call from aunty yasira giving him updates about how things were ,over at sadiq's house.
" when are you leaving for airport?"
"we are on our way"
" OK, please send my regards to him. Sadiq is truly a good boy and he deserves to be happy. I just pray he finds the happiness he deserve in UK , tell hi......
Alhaji was cutoff by the shattering of glass. He turned backwards and was surprised to see rahama standing with wide eyes.
" I'll call you later" he told yasira and hung up
" what happened, rahama? Are you OK? "
" ermm ermm yeah" she said with a nod as she crouch down to pick up the broken pieces of glass.
" stop!!!. You'll cut your fingers! "
Her body was shaking. Is he going for real? She asked her self.
" I'll just call jamila to pack it up" with that she went upstairs while Alhaji shrug and went to seat on the chair.
As rahama went up , she quickly pick up her car keys and practically ran downstairs almost frightening her dad in the process . She ran out not even heeding to the call of her name
End of flash back
She open the door with her own key and entered. luckily for her, no one was in the sitting room. She drop her bag on the chair and walk to get water from the kitchen . She finally came out with a bottle of chill water. She sat on one of the couch trying to calm her brain.
" finally, you're back" a voice said from behind
" auzubillahi"She got frightened " dad, you scared me"
" thank goodness I did. Same as how you scared me when you ran out of the house suddenly " he said with a straight face
She rub her face out of frustration " I'm so sorry about that "
" you should be. Now can you tell me why you left the house like that and where you went to? " asked her dad with folded hands
" I ...I went to a friend's place" she lied
He scrutinized her for a moment " is that why you find the need to run out like that? And if I may ask who is this friend of yours? "
" Sakeena " she lied again
He let out a deep breath " Hm, I don't really have your time now but please don't ever give me a scare like that. You made me think that something had happened to you. I even tried following your car but lost it on the way. "
She feels ashamed for causing him this much stress when he was supposed to be resting " I'm so sorry dad it won't happen again"
" it better not "
" I promise " she force a smile
" good"
She walk over to hug him " so where is aunty yasira? " she asked. She knew where she was but trying to act unaware.
" she is over at sadiq's house"
" oh, I see" she felt betrayed that her dad didn't trust her enough to tell her the real truth.
" yes.why are you looking at me like that ?"
She gave up and outburst her heart out
" I'm tired dad! I'm tired of everyone keeping things from me. What do you take me for,a small girl?. I know what is going on dad, you don't need to lie to my face"
" watch you tongue , Rahama "
She burst out crying " I'm tired of all these. Why is it so hard for all of you to trust and tell me the truth? Am I that bad? Am I a bad daughter, dad? I don't understand anymore "
She fell on the floor, sobbing " even Mansir who I trusted with all my heart lied to me and you my father do not trust me? Why dad? Why? "
" what are you talking about? " he asked in concern
" him, I'm talking about him dad. I know everything that's going on, I know sadiq is on his way to the UK. You don't need to lie anymore " she yelled inbetween sob.
" watch your tone "
" why didn't you tell me ? Please tell me why? "
" what different does it makes even if I tell you? You two aren't friends or anything so why do you care that I tell you? Why? " said alhaji
" He.. He was a colleague at work, don't I have the right to also know how he is doing? "
Alhaji chuckles " a colleague you say? You never treated him as one. "
" I did dad, I did"
" No you didn't "
She took in a deep breath " OK, fine. I now understand that even my own father does not trust me enough. I now get it, you're also tired of me"
" what rubbish are you blurting from your mouth. You're my daughter and I love you so much."
" then why didn't you say anything even if they asked you not to"