Walkout

~ Loki ~

My stomach turned upside down as if I have committed a crime.

Oh shoot, did I?

Well, something like that, I guess. It takes so much gut for me to confess like that, to say all the right words at the perfect time. Though, there was no perfect time for us. Because the girl I love happened to be my stepsister.

After she mumbled a no, she went off. She walked out.

And clearly, I don't know what I should do after that. This is a terrible mistake. Guilt crept to me inside. If only I know that this will happen, that she will walk away like that, I shouldn't have confessed at all.

Nervously I went to the classroom. I ruffled my hair to make myself comfortable, making sure that I did not look like I just confess to my stepsister.

Oh, what a funny thought.

I'm late since I gather myself up, thinking what I should do to her. Do I need to talk to her right now? Or wait a few days?

Hmm, few days it is. I don't want to fully be embarrassed myself.

Passing through the seats when suddenly Stacy went to me.

"Hey there, handsome." She whispered. Her tone is too sensual not to notice. Moving forward, she managed to be close to me.

I sighed and moved passed away from her. I gently took my seat. I can feel sharp stares at the back, I know she has some ill feelings with Stacy, and she didn't really want me to be friends with her. But I couldn't help it. Stacy has been a big help for me to somehow ease what I feel for her. If only she knew.

"What's your problem?" She quietly asked while standing in front of me. I shook my head. "Nothing, I'm just not in the right mood to chat with you," I said briefly.

Looking at her, I saw how pain inflicted her eyes. Momentarily, she looks so hurt. She turns around and walks toward her table at the front.

How can a day be too dramatic?

As the class started, I can't think about anything else other than Era. Wondering what she thinks after I told her everything. Would she tell anyone? Tell Luther perhaps? I hope not, especially to our parents. Hoping she's not going to be irrational about this matter. It's been months since I started to have feelings for her, I'm no longer confused. I'm so adamant about how I feel toward her. And I'm willing to take risks if she would tell me she feels the same.

I sigh.

Deep inside I assume that she likes me, especially these past months where I thought she feels the same way. She said she adores me then why did she walk away like that?

I must have been thinking too much that I forgot it's almost lunchtime. I briefly look at my wristwatch before waiting for everyone to go out of the classroom, waiting for Era. I turned around to find her, she's still sitting looking at nothing. Maybe, she's confused? Or did I mistaken her adoration for me to be more than what stepsiblings are just for?

Slowly, I made my move. Walking to her. I know I should give her enough time to think thoroughly about it, but I can't stop thinking about her.

I'm going to be insane if she will not talk to me ever again. Anticipation is going to be the cause of my death.

She is seated at the cornerback of the room. There are only three people left in the room, I can tell that this is a good time to have my shot to talk to her. I hope so...

I don't want her to be disgusted with me.

I don't want her to think of me as someone who's insane.

Perhaps, I am.

Insanely in love with her.

"Era," I said tempting to corner her. But she's too urgent as she steps right away and leaves.

Souring my defeat, I mumbled. Shit.

The least of what I wanted her to feel was to be disgusted with me.

And I know for sure that's what she felt the moment our gaze met.

"Bro!" Luther gestured for me to seat at their table. He did take the advanced program of the school, and he made a few friends. There's Jacob, Dave, and Elliot. I wiggle my eyebrows at them lunging my steps forward. "Hey man!" I greeted Jacob.

"Loki, my man!" Dave greeted me. He raised his hand, and we did the man thing. Elliot just nods. He's the not so talkative one. Although, he smiled at me. Oops, not really. I almost forgot that this man never smiled.

Now eating hand in hand when Luther asked for Era.

"Where's Era? I thought she's here?" He asked after taking a sip of his soda. I manage to have a stern face. I don't want him to know what happened. Still, there are things that are better left not saying as it would make it much more complicated than it already was. Besides, Luther seems to like Era.

Whatever happens. I don't want it to be known by anyone. I want it to be me and Era. Only us.

Us.

Oh, what a dream.

However, nightmare must be the right term for our situation.

"I don't know. She went off right after our class." I said tersely. I averted my eyes to anything other than his. My eyes are always giving it away. I have a deep set of eyes and my mom always told me that I could never ever lie to her because my eyes speak for me. So, as grumpy I might seem to them the better. At least not like I have just committed a crime, and more so, rejected.

"You are sure she's fine?" Luther asked again. I snorted as I grumbled of course.

"Then why is she looking like that." He said as he motions his gaze on her.

"Looking like what?" And then I scanned where he's looking at.

There she was. Walking slowly, and fiercely. Her hips and chest are bouncing. She looked fucking sexy.

I can't stop myself from ogling at her.

She's looking at me. Her eyes stare at me like a camouflaged trap in a dark green forest.

I saw nothing in her eyes, not like what I expected of her. No guilt, no anger. Just purely herself. Her bold nature.

"Hey, boys. Would you mind if I'm going to snatch Loki a little while?" She sounds sultry as she said every word. Diverting her steady gaze from me to Luther, and to Dave, and to Jacob, and to Elliot. It took a moment for them to nod. No one asked her, no one address her to talk.

I don't know if fate is on my side.

Could be.

Now, that finally I can have her answer.