Chapter 87

Hyungwon's POV

It's been about 6 weeks after me and Namjoon went on our date. Me and him started dating after the third date. Namjoon was sitting next to me on the couch. He had his arm around my shoulders and we were just cuddling. Shownu and Changkyun were happy that we were dating. Namjoon has been helping me with the twins while I was dealing with Silvia. Namjoon looked at me.

Hyungwon: What's wrong?

Namjoon: Am I not allowed to look at my boyfriend?

Hyungwon: Yes you are. I was just asking if you were okay.

Namjoon: Of course I am. I'm always okay when I'm around you.

Namjoon kissed my head. I snuggled more into him. He laughed.

Namjoon: I'm not going anywhere baby.

Hyungwon: I like being in your embrace. I missed it since you've been gone for a week.

Namjoon: I was only gone for 3 days.

Hyungwon: Well it felt like a week.

Namjoon put his arms around me. He pulled me closer to him. We started to hear one of the kids start crying. I sighed.

Hyungwon: Just as I was getting comfortable.

Namjoon smiled.

Namjoon: Come on. Before the other two start crying.

Me and Namjoon got up and went to the nursery. Namjoon picked Hyunwoo up and kept him at bay while I took care of Seohyun. After I did Seohyun, I put her in her crib then I took Hyunwoo from Namjoon. Namjoon was just standing there.

Hyungwon: You can hold Silvia. She won't hurt you.

Namjoon: Remember last time I tried. She kept crying until you took her.

Hyungwon: She just needs more time with you. Just try and hold her.

Namjoon looked at me. I looked at him.

Hyungwon: Just try. She's only 6 weeks old.

Namjoon: But she likes you more.

Hyungwon: Remember how Seohyun was whenever you started holding her. She was crying for almost a week while in your arms but the more you held her, the more she liked it. Now she likes being in your arms. You just have to do that with Silvia. It will take time. Just like it did with the other two.

Namjoon: But Hyunwoo only cried for one day.

Hyungwon: That's because he is used to being in your arms. You give off the fatherly type and he sensed that. Yes it took longer for Seohyun to do it but she sensed it. But with Silvia, she never got to be held by that father figure. So it will take time for her to get used to having that father figure there for her when I'm not. Yes, it might be a lot with the kids, but you just need to take it one step at a time. And if you can't handle that, then leave.

Namjoon: Hyungwon, I told that I would never leave you.

Hyungwon: Then why do you make it seem like you do? Why does it seem like you want to? All I want you to do is try. I can take care of the kids until they get old enough for you to start helping if that's what you want.

Namjoon: No it's not. Hyungwon, all I was saying is that Silvia didn't open her eyes to see both me and you. She just saw you. Same with the twins, they saw you and Wonho. Not me. Yes I still want to be part of their lives but I don't want them to grow up to knowing that I'm not their real father. But I still want to be there for them. I wasn't trying to start a fight between me and you. I'm sorry. I'm just stressed.

Hyungwon: Why didn't you tell me that you were?

Namjoon: I didn't want to worry you.

I put Seohyun in her crib then hugged Namjoon. He relaxed in my arms.

Hyungwon: Just tell me when your stressed out and I will not get over dramatic about stuff just like right now.

Namjoon: I promise. And don't worry.

Hyungwon: I will still worry.

Namjoon: I know.

Hyungwon: But may you please just try with Silvia? If she doesn't like it today then we can try a different day.

Namjoon: Okay.

I picked Silvia up and handed her to Namjoon. She started crying when she got into his arms. Namjoon started soothing her to try and calm her. After a couple minutes she calmed down and stopped crying. She fell asleep in his arms. Namjoon smiled.

Hyungwon: See. Told you it would take time.

Namjoon looked at me.

Namjoon: I guess you were right.

We smiled at each other. I started to get dizzy. I went over to the rocking chair that was in the nursery and sat down. Namjoon looked at me concerned.

Namjoon: Are you okay Hyungwon?

Hyungwon: Yeah, I'm just dizzy. Everything is just spinning.

Namjoon: Hey, breathe. Your okay.

We heard Shownu and Changkyun walk in.

Shownu: Hello!

Namjoon: We're in the nursery!

Shownu walked in and saw us.

Shownu: Everything okay?

Hyungwon: Yeah, I'm just really dizzy.

Shownu: Even when sitting?

Hyungwon: Yeah.

Shownu: Did you eat anything lately?

Hyungwon: No.

Shownu: That might be why. Hang on.

Shownu walked out and then came back after a couple minutes.

Shownu: Try this.

He handed me a piece of a banana. I ate it but nothing happened. I was still dizzy. Shownu kept giving me pieces of the banana til it was gone. But after I finished it, I was still dizzy. It went down a little bit but only enough for me to only stand up. Shownu was getting worried.

Shownu: Let me go call Dongwook and see if he can come check on you. Stay here.

Hyungwon: Okay.

Namjoon had put his hand ontop of mine. He was showing that he was worried.

Hyungwon: I wanna cuddle.

Namjoon: Okay. Let me put her back in her crib and then we can.

Changkyun came in quickly and put his arms around me. I smiled at how cute he was with what he was wearing and with how protective he is.

Changkyun: Are you okay? Where does it hurt?

Hyungwon: I'm okay. It doesn't hurt anywhere. I'm just really dizzy. Shownu is calling Dongwook right now. I'm going to be fine.

Changkyun didn't let go of me. Namjoon smiled at the sight.

Namjoon: I will give you guys a second.

Hyungwon: No!

Namjoon looked at me.

Hyungwon: Please stay.

Namjoon smiled at me.

Namjoon: Okay.

Changkyun: You to have gotten close.

Namjoon glared at him.

Namjoon: What's wrong with that?

Changkyun: Nothing!

Shownu walked in with Dongwook. Dongwook looked at me.

Dongwook: Your just full of surprises, aren't you?

I gave him a small smile. Dongwook laughed and checked on me.

Dongwook: You just need rest. If the dizziness doesn't go away then call me and I can see what I can do from there. But for right now, rest and maybe try sleeping.

Hyungwon: Thank you.

Dongwook smiled then left. Namjoon looked at me.

Hyungwon: What?

Namjoon: We are not starting this again.

I laughed. Changkyun smiled at our stupidity. My phone went off with a text from Onew.

Onew: Can you come over? Taemin wants to see you but all of us need to see you a lot.

Hyungwon: I'm on my way.

After I sent that text I looked at Shownu.

Hyungwon: Shownu, can you give me a ride over to Jinki's house please?

Namjoon: Who's Jinki?

Hyungwon: An old friend of mine. He also goes by Onew.

Namjoon: Ah, okay.

Shownu: Come on.

I looked at him then held out my arms. He came over and picked me up bridal style and took me to the car.