Get your lick back

Lorel was the persistent type and that's something I constantly forget. She never drops anything. If she can't hear it from you she'll go somewhere else for that information. She texted me multiple times since that night and I knew she just wanted to know how it went but she asks very personal questions that sound way too vulgar. Sometimes I indulge in her nagging but I feel somewhat embarrassed but she doesn't drop anything.

"Hey you dumbass! Can't you read I sent you a message! I asked you about your night." Lorel threw down her bag on her adjacent desk as she came up in my face seething because I left her on seen. "I just wanted to know how it went." I scowled in her direction which upset her more. "You fucked up somewhere didn't you?" I rolled my eyes. I really don't want to talk about this. The after effects of being involved with Aaron were just setting in and the first is insecurity. It's like at the time I seemed to forget everything I know about him. He seems genuine from the core things I remember but he's a talented actor so I don't know. I feel like he knows how to get into my head and that makes him an even scarier person. "Not gonna say anything… Was it that bad? Whew. Did yall even fuck?" Lorel cackles jokingly but her eyes shift to real speculation. "You didn't?!"

"No, Lorel. I did what I was paid to do." I blurted out annoyed. She was pushing too much and I feel like she was somewhat bruising my ego by assuming nothing happened. I wasn't going to answer her but her asking that made me snap.

"Was it small? It was small, right?" She asked in a playful voice that was starting to hurt to hear. "He takes me as the type to have a mole like the ugly ones on his dick. Did he have one? Some guy I knew had one and he was small and I noped right outta there. Do you have one cuz you're covered in them." Lorel rambled on about random things as I sat there thinking how things went and how I left. Is it stupid I reacted like that? I'm starting to feel like I react too strongly to my emotions. I just couldn't let him return the favor when I'm overheating in embarrassment and insecurity. "Hey punk, are you even listening to me? Instead you're absentmindedly staring at him." What? I blinked a few times as I came out of my daze of phasing out Lorel's stupid questions. I didn't even realize my eyes were staring at his side profile as Aaron by his desk turned to talk to someone. "Do you still want him?"

"What no?!" Lorel smirks at my answer. It reminds me of my first step to recovery. Find someone new.

"That reminds me. I need someone new. I haven't been out there in so long I feel like I've been on a stand still."

"What do you mean? You have my sister?" I'm gonna be real honest, there is nothing interesting about Saleena and I'm not interested in digging deeper. She didn't entice me or make me feel anyway. Yes she was pretty but she didn't engage with me enough for me to be all over her. No, I did not play with her feelings. "I think she likes you but she likes everyone so I don't know but she asked you personally to be her prince and as much as I hate my family and friends mixing especially cuz with you nothing lasts long, I would give you a pass."

"I have no interest in your sister."

"So what's all this for then? Why are you in her court then? I thought you liked her?" She asked, flipping her hair. I guess I did give the impression I liked her sister. Body Language? But I'm like that with the majority of people. I'm naturally flirty. "I really thought you liked her especially when you agreed to all this."

"I said yes because I'm nice." And she's pretty.

"And I think she was interested in you. She speaks about you a lot with her friends even though they all think you're trash."

"What?"

"They say you don't look at her but everyone else I joked you're just like me and we have wandering eye syndrome. They didn't like that." Do I really do that? Thinking back to all the times we were together. Yeah I see that. I can't help it.

"I think well of her but I don't particularly like her. I want someone though." Lorel seemed somewhat disappointed by my answer. She was going back on her rules made in her head for me and I didn't even want it.

"So what are you looking for a new guy? A new girl? Person? What do you want exactly." Lorel's eyebrows frown as she looks over to me

"Let's be honest, he hasn't moved on." Daniela entered our conversation unknown to us as she took a seat across from me next to Lorel. "He wants someone to keep his mind busy not to fall in love with or hold a relationship. I don't expect love from you because you're you but don't do that to someone and get their hopes up, it hurts." She speaks as if she has experience. Oh wait I forgot she does. Isn't forgetting part of moving on? If remembering is the worst part, why not forget? "Zayn, you know you still like him. I heard from Lorel about what you did. She drunkenly told me everything at the party. That was a stupid plan and I can't believe you were so easily coerced by Saintclair to sleep with Aaron." I glare at her and shake my head. "Oh you didn't know? That was never gonna stay a secret between y'all. I'm always here to listen. I don't care how many times you tell me I know you better than anyone else. I can tell you like him. I don't want you to hurt yourself. I know he's done it before and will continue doing it. He's worried about you getting your fill? He's the one you should be worried about. I see him all the time now and I change my mind about him. I don't like him."

I wasn't enjoying hearing this advice. It's not like I haven't thought about this already. I know what he is. I'm scared of what he is but I still like the guy. They don't even know what I know about him other than small details I relayed. They both would react strongly because they are biased towards me.

"Do you even know why I feel conflicted about liking him?" They both shook their heads.

"Um cuz he's a Chronicles member, cuz he cost Daniela her position with the Royal Education Union, cuz he associates with trash, because you two used to be rivals and he hated you?" Lorel rambled off with her expressive hand gestures as she spouted everything she knew or thought she knew.

"Just the tip of it. The flash drive that Mormon gave me has all of the chronicles plans and what steps they took to get there and one of those steps was training Aaron to gain my trust and pretend to like me and make me let down my guard around him. They used Aubrey to scout my habits and Aaron to play with them. It's sick and for some reason I still liked him even after learning that. I couldn't do that with what I know. Saintclair knows about all this yet he still asked me because he assumes I don't know. Think of me taking Saintclair's money as payback." They both turned and looked at each other as if what I was saying was pure bullshit. Lorel blinked a couple times taking in what she was saying.

"I knew that guy was pure bullshit! Any person that willingly dates Saintclair and knows who he is, are awful so I should have seen that coming. He really played into the nice guy narrative. I should have known. His dad lied his way to the top and falsified documents to become President of Arrium. Like we all could tell by that fake ass accent and his obvious features he wasn't from there." Lorel was really into how things should run politically and that's what you expect from someone who was the child of a politician.

"I can't believe I thought that guy was being genuinely nice to me. I mean people at this school are pure evil and do anything for anything but it has to have some ethics boundary for people to have right?" Daniela asks herself as she glares over at where the boy was sitting. I had to remember after telling them this core information these two were the drastic types. They took things to another level especially with the level of power they had. They usually threw rationally out the window mainly when their emotions got the best of them and I'm sure it already was.

"Don't pull anything." I say as I grab both their wrists.

"What do you mean 'Don't pull anything'? He deserves living hell. He's living easy after affecting you that bad." I could see both of them weren't going to listen to me.

"And me. I went through a lot of Rehabilitation courses because I showed I 'didn't know how to behave' because the chronicles sent things from our supposed private party to the union and that's when I actually developed a problem. I should fight back in a real spiteful way other than legally." Daniela, by habit, started playing with her hair still glaring at him. This was a mistake telling them the real truth.

"You know what I'll really help you get someone to get over him with. Fuck, What's your type? I know your type. Athletic white dudes right? Tall, Empathic? Himbo vibes?" What the fuck? I don't even know my type. It's just her observations from the two guys I took interest in. How am I supposed to know? I don't even know myself and I'm trying so hard to figure out what type I'm attracted to?

They both were angry on my behalf like usual but I don't really have that much of anger towards the situation as they just discovered. They both plotted in silent whispers so I don't interrupt or interject or deter them from their future plans. When Lorel plotted, she could kill. The thought maybe ran through her mind twice in the span of 5 minutes. She was a scary individual to cross. It's the reason nobody really got in her way and stayed in her favor. Daniela didn't have reason to worry as they were always taken care of for her but the times she took things into her own hands, she moved silently but effectively.

"You know what's a good way to ruin an actor? Ridicule." The wicked gleam in her eye said everything. They had everything in place in their minds already and I could see they didn't plan on telling me and all I could do was sit back and watch their next move together.