Chapter 32

"My wife."

"Li Jia Ying really didn't do anything naughty."

Well, the situation right now is that my dear Male Lead has seen me walking away after talking to the Overlord and acted as a reserved smiling jealous husband having to catch his wife in the act. Who would have thought he was beside Rin! Ack, he was quick to leave his business than me.

"You two," he sighed. "It's only a short time and still you..."

Hm?

"Do you have feelings for him?"

I like him but not in the way you pertain 'feelings.' "No."

"You look comfortable with each other."

It's rare for me to be comfortable with someone. As if I'll admit it to you, that's a death flag. I don't want to die an excruciating death, thank you very much.

"Dear, you might not know but when I was ready to be able out as a slave he saved me, no, he harshly carried me like a potato sack! Your wife needs to put those grievances before she leaves."

I complained.

"It looks like you enjoy teasing him."

"That was when all grievances were put aside and Li Jia Ying realizes it is fun to tease him, it annoys him very much."

"You shouldn't tease an unmarried man."

Seriously, it's not like I'm flirting with him. I'm teasing him like a friend, bruh chill.

"Yes, yes. Li Jia Ying will bear that in mind."

"Then you won't tease me?"

Of course not!

"Li Jia Ying will be defeated. Husband is a natural teaser. This wife can't even hold a candle for you."

Ml's lips twitched. "Go on, flatter me more."

Oops. "Ehehe. Let's change and sleep!"

After all tomorrow after saying our goodbye to the Emperor we will leave. Adios, amigo. Hasta LaVista baby.

Revenge is a sweet thing. It would be nice to see the downfall of this Empire. To be exact, those who bullied this princess. But it's enough that I have killed those maids.

I could still feel their blood, see their distorted faces while I kill them slowly and painfully hearing their mumbled screams as if a cool hum is being played in my ears. If I continue this kind of path I might enjoy it. Saying it was fun to watch them till they die is not the right word, to be exact it was exhilarating.

My mind that's always riddled with thoughts and was intensified when I entered this novel and turned calm at that time. A moment of peace washed over my overflowing thoughts as I was doing those baleful things, peace. How can I not be tempted if such an incident happen again? Of course, I'm well aware that the monster inside me became heavily triggered; hence, it's best that I must control myself, there's a high chance I might be viler than Li Jia Ying.

Know thyself first before the enemy.

Until then, while I'm still having the goal to return home I must find a way to go back. If not then fvck. Hayst, see? This is bad, even in my thoughts I can't stop cursing. Oh, forgive me, mom. I

Oomph.

"Your Hi...husband? Why did you just suddenly do that? You're heavy."

"Because your inner thoughts are more worthy than your husband who's been patiently waiting for you to look at him."

Oh sorry, is that why you're on top of me? Wait, don't tell me...

"Let's consulate our marriage."

"No!"

Shoot, I should reword that. "I-I mean, can we not do it now? Li Ji Ying doesn't feel well."

"Lies."

That's a white lie, you idiot! Your first consummation was with the female lead! I wouldn't rob the FL with that opportunity! How dare I! I'm saving you cause you're reserved for her. Seriously, my good intention is being coldly rejected.

"Wife..."

"Husband..."

"Wife."

Ugh.

"Not yet. Li Jia Ying is unprepared."

"What's wrong with wanting to know my wife a little deeper."

A-A little 'deeper'? My goodness, my mind just exploded.

"Hus...Husband, please don't misunderstand. Li Jia Ying truly is tired and can't serve you fully right now. Don't worry, this one will use her blood to make sure the people will be convinced we've done our part."

"Hmm? Say that again?"

"..."

This son of a bvtch right now is seducing me with his body and face. It's hard alright! Just looking at his handsome face, the open corners down to his cleavage, the irrefutable lines of his neckline and that packs on his abdomen... Oh, my virginity. To think that he has a well-toned body far greater than what I had in mind an opposite of a body builder's image which makes it more alluring as I looked on it closely.

My legs trembled and caught sight of something bulging hidden on that V line. Can I...even handle something that I'm sure without even seeing it I'm already sure it's too hard for me?

I pushed the hands that were holding my leg pretending not to flinch. Gah, so warm. His fingers are even slender just like a pianist I should never underestimate the strength of those hands. It's way more attractive than his 8-packs. Dang it, my mind is so full of greeneries right now.

Touching some grass won't do me any good. Talking to the tress and the animals won't bring me salvation. Get away, Jun Xue you must remain unmoving like mountains. Your mother didn't teach you to be this unrestrained. Don't let those hvntai mangas pollute your thoughts.

I tightly closed my eyes, my heart pounding ever so loudly.

"Open your eyes."

Nay.

"Fine."

Rip!

"Hey..." My eyes imeedietyly turned into saucers. Seriously, you weren't this forceful with Song Jing Hua! You're being a bvstard oi.

"My dear husband, wife is truly not feeling well. Li Jia Ying is tired."

"Dear...."

Ml drawled mocking my tone letting me forget for a moment about how much I'm cursing him in my mind. He knows it well, his sweetly deep voice that entices me to take a dip until I'm fully drowned and his hot breath was just a centimeter away from the nape of my neck.

And this body is so wanton. Already shivering from anticipation. What a lewd body combined with my lewd mind running numerous R+19, while I'm doing all my best to control the emotions of my heart. Come on, right now my mind is treacherous more than my heart.

"Why? Do you intend on giving your body to someone that's not me?"

The what?

"Why would you think that?"

"You're quite closed with the Overlord. Smiling leisurely to that stone-faced man. I'm so jealous."

"You..."

You can't still move on from what happened a while ago?! I really should take note of this guy's jealousy whenever I'm conversing with a man. How did the FL handle this guy? Goodness.

"That was my mask, even so, Li Jia Ying needs to keep her farce facade."

Well, I did greet him more brightly than my brother and sister... But that's it.

"You're not like that with me."

"Ack."

Ml just bit my neck, before sucking it. I shivered in nervousness.

"You're always cautious with me."

He slid his head down with his tongue slowly tracing my collar bone.

"Always making me worry."

"Thinking so deeply."

Deliberately teases me with his teeth grazing my skin and his exhaled breath numbs the scalp of my head at times glancing at me and watching my reaction. Those eyes of his are so captivating, dark, and unruly as if demanding that I should only focus on him. Something that looks straight out of my favorite spicy hardcore novels. I bit my inner cheek looking away. Dvmmit, if this goes on I might be tempted. No! I need to recite something.

Hydrogen, Oxygen, Carbon Dioxide, Silver, Nickel, Uranium, Gold—Control yourself lest you'll be tied down to this world!

"You don't like it?"

His voice is dangerously attractive right now. Focus. I must stay focused. I can't practice my theoretical knowledge with him.

"Not...not now."

I squeezed his shoulder. Fvck, it's so firm and feels dependable.

"Husband!"

This guy! He was swift in removing all my clothes and now I'm like a newborn baby. Shame.

"You're too beautiful."

I want to plead with the Author. He wasn't like this on her first night with the FL. I was sure he was gentle. He didn't tear Bai Ying Yue's clothes nor was he this.... provocative.

"Husband, don't tease me. Please..."

"Is it because it's me?"

Hukk!

He pulled me closer until I'm looking up at him skidding a bit below him feeling I'm fully mobilize in his arms. Nonetheless, his gaze, even though it doesn't express anything I feel uncomfortable. Although my body seems pretty promiscuous but I'm extremely bothered to truly do anything with this protagonist. Ah, just whatever. I can't convince him anyway when is this forceful then go for it. They say it's better to feel the moment to enjoy a sort of pleasure even though you are forced.

"Fine. You can do whatever you want."

I resigned myself to whatever will happen. But still, wouldn't this be being forced. I don't want to... it's wrong.

If that happens... If Li Jia Ying bears a child what will happen to me then? I can't bear to kill a fetus even if I'm a killer. I had my ideas of whom to not kill. I shut my eyes bracing for the impact. I waited and waited but there was still no movement from the person above me. I heard a slight shuffle and his deep sigh, and a second later I didn't feel his body on top of me anymore.

Unsure, I opened my eyes to see him sitting on the side of the bed looking quite desolate and lonely. It's not something such as myself to see. There's no way I can comfort him or I might say something that I'll regret. Covering my nudity with our blanket my mouth in Silent Mode I turn my back to him. There's no point to say it verbally. I'm sorry Jin Hai, I really can't.

"Husband understands."

"..."

"Don't think too much."

"It's this irresponsible wife." Don't worry I'll make it up to you in other ways as your wife.

When I said that, he went to the other side of the bed facing me the smile that graced his lips was unperturbed about my rejection as if what I'd earlier seen about him didn't happen.

"Then you sleep first. Husband will come back a little later."

"I see."

Only when the door closed did I breathe in relief.

It was intense. That feeling of wanting pleasure, uncomfortably, and the fear had me rollercosting on pell-mell.

Just imagining it in my head I know I would be tempted. Yet what happens after that would be something I would never want to happen. Call me traditional but, I have my principle. The person that I can fvck with will only be the person I love and we will do that after marriage. But he isn't the person I love even if we're married. I can't give what I consider a precious sentimental gift to him.

"Ahh! Why did I even imagine that? Fvck your brain, you're only active and smart in these kinds of scenes. In other aspects, you're so stupid! You can't even remember the parts I haven't skipped!"

I'm going crazy.

I looked at my trembling fingers. The effects of being touched for the first time by a man and vividly remembering everything as if it was stuck on glue kind of feeling had slightly subsided. After some breathing practice, my hands didn't tremble that much anymore.

"Oh wait."

Before I forgot I must make our wedding night in the face of his people a complete and believable sham. We finally finished doing the deed. It'll just have some slight complaint that Ml left me so early. It would be bad if the maids make a false conception that I was abandoned on my wedding night? Which is quite...true.

Or...or they might think he's faster than a Thoroughbreds.

"Alright!"

I used the hidden knife in my necklace and cut my palm.

"Hmm, this should be good enough."

Squeezing the blood and letting it flow down and stain the bed sheet in the right position I assume, well not like there's a proper position. The blood flowed asymmetrically as I watch it gradually turn dry. That was satisfying to watch, her blood was like a crimson jewel.

"No dark thoughts for now. Not now, stop being in a daze, Jun Xue.."

I smacked myself with a pillow.

"That hurts, is this even a pillow? It's more like my grandad's brick."

Cons in ancient times. Noted. Fixing the area that I should sleep in I only lay on the bed after creating a barrier between us I can finally sleep.

"I guess I had hurt his ego."

I snickered. Not like it matter. Soon, I'm just one of the women he calls his past anyways.