CHAPTER 1

As I stood there, looking at myself in the mirror I contemplated the decisions I made that led up to this day. My wild firery red hair was in a loose braid and a crown sat atop my head. Green eyes stared back at me in the mirror and I did not recognize them at all. The fire had gone from them . They were not as bright as they were five years ago. Before I could judge myself any further, my mum walked into the room. "Luna ar- Wow" she said as she looked up from her hands.

A tear fell from her eyes as she came up to me and touched my cheek. "I am proud of you Mi Amore, more than you will ever know." I nodded my head and she continued - " Are you ready to become Misses Xavier Renaults?" she asked in a sob. I looked at her and all I could muster to say was "Yes mama." She gave me one last look before she headed to the door. Before she left she turned around and said " Be sure that this is what you want and that you will be happy . Show time in ten minutes dear"

She disappeared and I was left alone with my thoughts again. I turned around and stared in the mirror once again. I still could not recognize the person staring back at me. She looked like me but she was not me. She was wearing a white ball gown with a lace top. As I stared at the mirror my mothers words replayed in my mind . I could not help but think 'Will I be happy one year from now or even five months from now ?' Xavier was not a bad man , he treated me well but I didn't really feel any spark with him. Papa introduced us four years ago. I was seventeen about to be eighteen at the time and Xavier was twenty years old. I remember thinking wow this man was sculpted like a God! I mean he had tan skin , blue-grey eyes ,brown curly hair and his jawline was crazy sharp. Not to mention he was crazy fit. But I don't see him that way anymore. Papa told me that Xavier was taking me on a date . I didn't want to go because I had a boyfriend at the time but I was practically forced to go. So I went because if you don't listen to Papa all hell would break lose.

I eventually grew to like Xavier as we went on more dates. We dated for 3 years before he proposed. Obviously I said yes but I don't feel like I belong here. I don't think I can go through with this. Xavier is a safe place but he is predictable and predictable is boring. I want adventure and passion. I need something different and that is wat made me do what I did next.

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I heard the music start to play signalling my entrance but I just ran the other way and ran out the back door of the church leaving everyone in there. They were all waiting for me and I knew they would be disappointed in me . Xavier would be hurt but he will get over it. He needs someone that will love him the way he needs to be loved.

I got to the end of the road and pulled out my phone . It was going crazy with phone calls and messages . Papa sent me a message that said I am terribly disappointed in you and when I find you , you will regret this!! Come back now and we can fix this mess. I deleted the message and called a cab and then switched off my phone. I didn't go home because I knew they would look for me there. So I went to the only place they wouldn't look and that was a small library right outside our town.

It was a ten minute drive and the cab driver told me I don't need to pay. I guess he took pity on me because of my appearance. I was still in my wedding dress , I had no time to change so I just ran in the dress. I walked into the library and the guy at the desk stared at me and laughed. I went up to him and said " Hey Jax" he just continued laughing . I just rolled my eyes at him. After a few minutes of laughing he finally asked me " Aren't you suppose to be getting married right now" I shrugged and his eyes went huge. "What about all the 'that's what life is, you get married to the guy you love and that's it'? I looked up at him " Jax, I said that because that is what everyone has been telling me for years. Even if it is true , I said the man you love and I realized I don't love Xavier"

He laughed and responded with " I could have told you, you don't love him when we first met" I rolled my eyes and walked away . I really don't need judgement right now. I sat in the corner of the library for a while and I fell asleep. I was awoken by Jax telling me he has to close up and that I could crash on his couch. We went up to his small apartment above the library . I was about to go back to sleep when he asked me if I wanted some cloths. Obviously , this gown weighs tons so I said yes and minutes later he came back with a t-shirt and sweat pants.

I got dressed and immediately passed out on the couch.

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AN: I WANTED TO START THIS OFF WHERE OUR GIRL DECIDES TO BREAK FROM HER ROUTINE OF DOING AS SHE IS TOLD AND TAKE CHANCES. I HOPE YOU LIKE IT.....