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Chapter 7

My heart began to pound rapidly, and the most evil thoughts arose. Out of excitement, he put the bottle on the table carelessly, which made it almost fall – he managed to catch it in time.

- Alina! - he called loudly and listened to the silence of the night.

She didn't respond. I shouted again – and again I didn't hear an answer. Maybe she just cut herself and went into the house, and I didn't notice while I was standing in the kitchen?

He didn't waste a second and ran to the front door. I almost crashed, opened it, and from the threshold, on an exhale, I began to scream:

- Alina! Where are you?!

"In the bathroom," she said dully.

I let out a sigh of relief, went to the door.

– What happened? Are you all right?"

- I just hurt myself a little. I am now.

Just in time, I looked at the door handle, which is stained with blood. Then I glanced at the floor – and there are a lot of red drops there.

– You're bleeding a lot. I can see by your bloody footprints. Open the door. You need help. I have to look at the wound – - I considered further actions and realized that it was better to take a first-aid kit right away. - Although wait a little bit.

I ran away quickly and came back. I pulled the door – it was locked.

- Yes, open it already! I couldn't stand it and expressed myself in a commanding tone.

There was a click. Finally, I realized what I wanted from her!

I saw fear in Alina's eyes, and a lot of blood in the sink. She tried in vain to wash it off, looked at me guiltily and covered her wrist with her left hand with her right hand. Something's wrong here...

– Give me your hand – - I put the first-aid kit on the washing machine. - Give me your hand, I say!

"No, don't," she pleaded tearfully. – You don't have to see this. I...

- What am I? He took hold of her wrist and removed his right hand. - Well, gee…

The only thing that calmed down was that the blood was not thick, which means that the veins were not touched. Nevertheless, it is clearly visible that she tried to do this, because the cut line is smooth and passed clearly across the arm. It's just impossible to accidentally cut yourself like that…

During the treatment of the wound, I did not say a word. Alina was also silent. When he finished with the bandage, he said reproachfully:

– You should have told me about what happened right away, and not just try to wash the wound. If you had cut your veins, it would have been much more serious. Sometimes it is not always possible to save a person without an ambulance. And the doctors are not so close to us. So you're very lucky.

- I'm sorry, please, - she patted her eyes, lowered her head. - And thank you. I... how should I say… Well, not like that.…

I took a deep breath, put everything in the first-aid kit.

– Now you can't be left alone at all. You will always be there for me. Where I go, you go. Otherwise, you'll do something to yourself again.

– And if you go to the toilet or shower, should I go with you too? – What is it? " she asked without joking.

- I hope not. It depends on how you behave.

"I won't do it again, really.

After this phrase, doubts that Alina cut herself accidentally completely disappeared, because she admitted guilt.

- Okay, let's go, - he picked up the first-aid kit and moved to the exit from the bathroom. - You follow me. And in the gazebo, we still have an important conversation.

"Okay, I get it –" she agreed instantly.

Alina tried to keep up with me, but this is understandable – a sense of guilt forced her to obey. When we returned to the gazebo, I prudently put away the sharp knife, leaving only a special dining table so that I could cut the meat if desired. Then he opened the bottle and poured it into glasses.

- Let's have a drink, so that everything will be fine and without incident – - he raised his glass, to which Alina reciprocated.

As before, she drank a decent amount of champagne in one sitting. I didn't talk about it and decided to just follow her.

– Now tell me, why did you try to cut your wrists? I began, and looked intently into her eyes.

"Well, it just so happened," she looked away in the direction of the trout pond. – I don't know how to say it.

- Tell it like it is. There's no one here but us. You know that I'm not going to tell anyone either. I will also be reproached for not following you.

- Okay, now, - she drained the glass in one gulp and put it on the table. – Just pour another one right away, please, otherwise I won't be able to tell you without it.

- Okay – - I patiently agreed, added champagne. - Let's take it in order.

– Yes, of course, - Alina nodded, took a small sip and continued – - You know, there are such periods in life when you don't want to live.

- Let's say. But what could have happened to you that you seriously decided to commit suicide?

- I decided, but then it hurt my hand, I was scared and ran to the bathroom. I thought the blood would stop and you wouldn't notice.

"Your blood is everywhere. I came-you are not there. Wouldn't I have noticed that?

- Damn it. Well, I was all emotional. I couldn't think of everything at once.

- This is understandable. We've already gone the other way. So what was the reason to commit suicide?

Alina tried in every possible way to evade the answer for several minutes. Sometimes I stopped taking it out, kept silent to give her time to reflect on what had happened and drink more with the hope that she would become bolder and tell. Later, I began to notice that the alcohol had a much stronger effect than it had been before, and she spoke herself:

"Dam, I'm sorry again, please. You were worried about me, weren't you?

- Yes. I was really worried.

"That's so sweet. It seems that we haven't met yet, and you're already worried. Not like mine – " Alina suddenly stopped, tears rolled down her cheeks. - My…

I couldn't finish – I started crying loudly and buried my head in the table.

– Why is this all happening to me? Who will tell me? – she barely managed to get out of herself, burst into deadly tears and did not even let me near her when I tried to just sit next to her to calm her down.