A Sad Day

Daddy, daddy why are you doing this to mama?
Why are you leaving her without food?
Why are you letting her to beg for food?
I am angry. I am upset but I am still the bad one in your perspective. Why? Because I am questioning why mama is asking for food here at out house?
My siblings are eating here at my house and I can't call mama because she's quite stubborn sometimes. Why? Why are you letting her to get hungry? If I am the one hungry it's fine with me because life is hard and I am being broke sometimes. But I just can't understand you are still short despite of taking care just the food of the both you, mama and papa. Why are you supporting my perfectly able younger brother who is currently working already? Why are you letting him spend his money carelessly and you're the one suffering and lacking for food? Whyyyy? I just can't understand why are you like this. Why does our family is like this? It's so hard for me to watch. I am also struggling with money but I am prioritizing my bills while my brother is prioritizing his want and pasta of his teeth. Why, papa? Why are you doing this to me? It felt so heavy. This is so hard for me to bear. Please, papa. Fix your system. Fix our family's system. This is so hard and upsetting, papa. Please, papa.