Felt Different

Skin, flesh, blood, and a knife. This is what you see, what I'm doing right now. I experiment myself on how my ability works by hurting myself.

I cut, slice, stab, and skin myself. And my leg, hand, stomach, ear, and neck are wounded by the knife. But even though it hurt and spilled a lot of blood, it still healed like a brand new. The pain, wound, and blood were faded just like that. No blood and no scratch at all.

I even tested breaking my bones, wondering if my ability can fix it. And it never takes too long to get the result, it was regenerated successfully like it never broke at all. Means my ability works at my bones as well. It's a good thing.

"Hah… I didn't get a new clue."

I stopped the experiment when the break time was over and before going back to work, I rested for a little while to wait if there's a side effect. So after waiting and confirming that nothing happened, I left the canteen and went back to the main front desk. But first, before working, I went to the front desk and talked to Sam.

"Sam, really sorry about that."

"It's okay. Just say it to me when you want to do it."

Hearing her say that doesn't feel right. I know that I just met her a week ago, but I feel like she has changed. I thought she's going to seduce me like she did before, but now she's like a different person.

"I really promise to go to your room tonight." I said it because I'm a little worried about her.

"Right, right, I'm going to wait."

A smile on her face, making me doubt if she's mad or not.

"So… I'm going now, see you later then."

"Yea, later."

I never know what she felt, she changed out of nowhere. Is it because of yesterday? I just left without confirming. But I hope she changed in a good way.

Now, I return to work for real.

Starting with the luggage, next the rooms, and then just the same thing that I always do. I continued working, but suddenly something unexpected happened.

I was on some floor in a corridor. Just an hour has passed since I started working, but suddenly I feel weak.

"H…uh? Wh…y i fe-lt d-iz…zy?"

My sight was spinning around, and my feet felt weak to walk.

"I… felt–"

Shin passed out.

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Shin wakes up in a room on a bed. To look around, Elin was there sitting beside him, her head was on the bed and seemed asleep.

Summarizing this situation, Shin felt like, "Déjà vu?"

For him to be there, he's a bit confused. So he wakes up Elin.

"Mhmm…" Elin raised her head and rubbed its eyes. "Shin?... you have woken up?..."

"Elin, what happened?"

"Ah, that's what I want to ask you!"

To Shin, he was surprised that Elin suddenly held his shoulder.

"Huh? I want to know as well."

"Did you not remember earlier?"

"No, why?"

"On the 29th floor, a guest found you on the floor unconscious."

Just Elin saying that, Shin starts to remember.

"Right, I remember, while walking suddenly I felt weak and just collapsed."

"What happened? How did you become like that?!"

"Well…"

To sum this situation, the reason I collapsed was probably because of the experiment back then at the break. But I know, before leaving the canteen, I rested for a bit and confirmed nothing happened to me.

While I'm summarizing the reason, Elin speaks. "When they brought you here to my room, I started healing you. My ability has another function like an X-ray that I can see your inside, so when I start using my ability on you…" She paused a bit. "I saw some wounds not outside but in the inside."

"Huh?..."

I was shocked when I heard that, to think that some wounds did not regenerate, and it's inside me makes me shiver.

"What happened? How did you get those wounds?" She asked me again.

Should I tell her? But what would she think if I told her?

"Did someone attack you?"

"Well, actually…"

Thinking about not telling the truth is a horrible idea, considering that something like that happens again. So I told her everything.

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After telling the truth, she becomes mad. "Why would you even try doing that?!"

"Like I said, I just want to know the condition for my ability."

"Even so, that's not reasonable enough to do that! You know it's painful, right?! But you're still doing it! What are you, a psycho?! A masochist?!"

"..."

I tried to reason, but it didn't work, and she still scolded me. But shes right, it's a stupid idea to hurt myself just for that reason.

She sighed. "I'm sorry for the yelling. I know that finding your ability condition is important, but I still get mad over that. And it's really rude to wrong others without thinking about their reason. Really sorry about that."

"It's okay, you're not wrong at all. I know what I'm doing to myself is bad. And to tell you the truth, when I'm hurting myself, I feel there's something not right with me…"

"You mean, your wounds inside?"

"No, I mean like I'm feeling something…"

"...Shin…"

I was just saying what I felt, but why was she looking at me like that when she said my name? It concerned me, so I asked her.

"Why are you looking at me like that?"

"...don't tell me… you're really a masochist?"

"Huh? Why are you still on about that?"

"Didn't you say, you felt SOMETHING when you're hurting yourself?"

"Well, yea… but I'm not a masochist though."

"Then what did you feel from that time?"

Asking me that feels like, making me depressed for some reason.

"It… feels like… I was hurrying myself?"

"Hurrying?"

"Yea… like It's something I long for."

"..."

"...Elin."

"Yea?"

"If not for your scolding, maybe I will fall for that feeling and not return to normal."

"...I see, then do it again."

"Yea, I already thought of stopping it when you scolded me. So thank you for scolding me."

"Then–"

"But before I fully get over that, I need a last experiment."

"...I understand, just go to me if something happens again."

"Don't worry about it because you're with me."

"Huh? What do you mean by that?"

"The last experiment is… someone will do the wounding, and you're the one I want to do it to me."

"Huh?! Why me?!"

"Because you are here?"

"Shin. I don't like what you're making me do."

"..."

Elin seems to snap. She looks serious now, even her tone.

"Sorry…" I apologize. "I just mean that I trust you, and you can directly heal me once something happens."

I look at Elin's eyes.

"...fine, I will help you."

"Really? Thank you–"

"But… I'm not the one who will do the wounding."

"Then who?"

"My dad will."

"Okay. So should we do it now?"

"No, you need to rest first."

"Then later?"

"I said, you should rest first."

"Then when?"

"...let's say, tomorrow."

"Alright."

Growl…

To this talk, I suddenly starve.

"..."

"Are you hungry?"

"Ha, ha… yeah…"

"Then I should cook you something."