I compare this with the scenario right before I left home. My parents are getting in the car. I’m already in the back seat, really upset, trying not to pout, trying not to say anything or act like a little kid, but that’s how I feel, like I’m four-six-eight years old and the only kid not invited to the party, or sent to my room because I laughed too loud, or had my hand smacked at the dinner table because my elbow was on the table or something…I catch Bob’s eye and he grins and winks at me. All was good again. Which one was reality, actually; how could they both be real? I don’t get it. Maybe I never will. Maybe it doesn’t matter. It just is.