Chapter 43

Sadly, I realize my life is incomplete without the lifeguard. I long for his close companionship and care. Perhaps I have been unable to see and totally feel this during the past few weeks. As humans, we have the tendencies to take advantage of those who are close to our hearts. I must admit that this is exactly what I have done to him. I unintentionally have taken advantage of his care, friendship, lust, and love that he has offered me. Ironically, I am left alone, burdened by my past doings with him, unable to keep him, and know that he is no longer a part of my life and world. Perhaps this is my payment for being careless with such a fragile being, my punishment, and what I deserve. My price. Shame on me.