Chapter 10

Part of him suspects maybe kids are attracted to him because he’s like them in a way. He doesn’t feellike a grown-up. He doesn’t feeladult. At thirty-two, Brody can honestly say he’s always been the way he is now, or rather, it seems that way. He doesn’t feel any older than the nerdy ten year old kid who was way too interested in the stash of vintage Playboy magazines he found hidden away under his father’s bed. It wasn’t the women that turned him on—even at that age, Brody knew he liked other boys, and the naked girls in the magazines did nothing for him sexually. But he appreciated the photographs for their artistic value, and his very first notebook is filled with poor attempts at capturing the sensuality in the arch of a back, or the curve of a lip, or the exact shading in the depths of an eye.