Chapter 5

GS: Do you want to rest a moment?

HC: You’re very kind. No, let me finish. I didn’t think anyone—least of all a stranger—had the power to make me feel so instantly ashamed. Intellectually I knew I was over all those archaic labels, thoughts, and reactions. My twenty-three years with Samantha put all that to rest. I was happy about who I was, who I loved. I’d understood and accepted those longings since adolescence. Do you believe me?

GS: It really doesn’t matter whether I do or not. This is about you and your feelings. It’s what youbelieve that’s most important.

HC: But I couldn’t stop thinking about my momentary lapse, this journey back to the Dark Ages. I knew intellectually they were only words, but they still had the power to cut and hurt.