Chapter 12

I felt a combination of pity, guilt and sadness. Whatever my mother’s crimes—her dressing me as a girl for all those years, for subjecting me to Dennis, for no doubt helping him to dispose of my body—she had a vulnerability I saw for the first time at that very moment. More than that, it was clear that the loss of her only child had devastated her.

I felt Reginald approach me from behind, felt his hand on my shoulder. I smiled, though I was facing away from him, and walked towards my bed.

“Hello, Mum,” I said as I knelt down beside her. “It’s me, Morgan.”

She stirred in her sleep, but did not wake.

“I want you to know I’m okay. Reginald here is looking after me.” I kissed her on the forehead. “I forgive you, Mum. I want you to be happy. Please…be happy.” I kissed her a second time, on the cheek, and brushed a lock of hair from her face. “Just…please be happy.”

I sat back on my heels and was glad to see a small smile appear on her lips.