Son of an Indian brave and a white captive, Soaring Hawk is raised in the native customs. As he grows into manhood, he discovers his desire for the love of men. Knowing the fate of those of ‘two spirits’ within his tribe, he leaves the Indian village, disguises his heritage, and enters the white man’s world as Samuel Hawkins. He soon discovers life is difficult for a man who prefers men. While he finds companionship, and forms bonds with many of the men he meets, he is unable to find a relationship which satisfies his deepest need. He also discovers much of what is in the world outside his village conflicts with the values of his native upbringing. He embarks on an odyssey which takes him across the continent and into the arms and beds of many lovers. As he travels, he comes to realize love has many forms. But the one he seeks most continually eludes him. Where will his odyssey lead him? Will he ever come to the end of his search for Soaring Hawk?

The Search for Soaring Hawk

Over the next few moons of summer, Small Hawk often found himself walking near the dwelling of this man with whom he had become fascinated. He watched as different men of the tribe came to talk with Lean Bear. Sometimes he followed them, hid again in the bushes and watched as they satisfied their needs. As he watched, he would find himself aroused and excited. He did not share his curiosity with Fox Cub or any of his other friends.


He had the urge to speak with Lean Bear, to find out from the man himself how he felt about this life he was destined to lead. But he did not. He kept all his thoughts inside himself.  2: The Vision Quest


“This is the summer of our vision quest,” Fox Cub said to Small Hawk and Young Otter.


Chapter 5