Son of an Indian brave and a white captive, Soaring Hawk is raised in the native customs. As he grows into manhood, he discovers his desire for the love of men. Knowing the fate of those of ‘two spirits’ within his tribe, he leaves the Indian village, disguises his heritage, and enters the white man’s world as Samuel Hawkins. He soon discovers life is difficult for a man who prefers men. While he finds companionship, and forms bonds with many of the men he meets, he is unable to find a relationship which satisfies his deepest need. He also discovers much of what is in the world outside his village conflicts with the values of his native upbringing. He embarks on an odyssey which takes him across the continent and into the arms and beds of many lovers. As he travels, he comes to realize love has many forms. But the one he seeks most continually eludes him. Where will his odyssey lead him? Will he ever come to the end of his search for Soaring Hawk?

The Search for Soaring Hawk

Small Hawk watched him go and then turned to the hawk.


“Now that is settled,” said the bird. “Let us begin.”


The two sat and stared at each other for a time. Then Small Hawk said, “What am I supposed to do?”


“That does not make sense. Rides The Wind told me I’m to learn about myself from you. How can I do that if I do nothing? And if I do just anything, without guidance, I still will not learn.”


Small Hawk was beginning to think maybe he had chosen the wrong guide. Maybe the bear would have been more helpful.


“Then ask me a question,” said the hawk.


“All right.” Small Hawk thought for a moment. “Will I grow to be a brave, marry and have children?”


“I cannot predict the future,” said the hawk. “I can only reveal what is inside you. I know you want to have someone in your life to love.”


Chapter 11