Son of an Indian brave and a white captive, Soaring Hawk is raised in the native customs. As he grows into manhood, he discovers his desire for the love of men. Knowing the fate of those of ‘two spirits’ within his tribe, he leaves the Indian village, disguises his heritage, and enters the white man’s world as Samuel Hawkins. He soon discovers life is difficult for a man who prefers men. While he finds companionship, and forms bonds with many of the men he meets, he is unable to find a relationship which satisfies his deepest need. He also discovers much of what is in the world outside his village conflicts with the values of his native upbringing. He embarks on an odyssey which takes him across the continent and into the arms and beds of many lovers. As he travels, he comes to realize love has many forms. But the one he seeks most continually eludes him. Where will his odyssey lead him? Will he ever come to the end of his search for Soaring Hawk?

The Search for Soaring Hawk

“Soaring Hawk? Are you listening to us?” Cunning Fox asked when his friend did not respond. “I asked if you were ready to marry Wind Flower.”


Shaken from his reverie, he said, “You’re right. I need to move forward with my life,” avoiding the question of marriage.


The conversation moved to other things as they continued their walk back to the village. Soaring Hawk knew he must take responsibility for his future. He was the son of a chief. One day he would be chief. He had to do what was right for the people. He would seek the council of Rides the Wind.


Soaring Hawk sat once more inside the lodge of the old shaman. He had not been here since the day he had been told of the quest. He had been with Rides the Wind at other times, but never in his dwelling. He sat nervously, looking across the smoldering fire pit, trying to find a way to begin


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