Son of an Indian brave and a white captive, Soaring Hawk is raised in the native customs. As he grows into manhood, he discovers his desire for the love of men. Knowing the fate of those of ‘two spirits’ within his tribe, he leaves the Indian village, disguises his heritage, and enters the white man’s world as Samuel Hawkins. He soon discovers life is difficult for a man who prefers men. While he finds companionship, and forms bonds with many of the men he meets, he is unable to find a relationship which satisfies his deepest need. He also discovers much of what is in the world outside his village conflicts with the values of his native upbringing. He embarks on an odyssey which takes him across the continent and into the arms and beds of many lovers. As he travels, he comes to realize love has many forms. But the one he seeks most continually eludes him. Where will his odyssey lead him? Will he ever come to the end of his search for Soaring Hawk?

The Search for Soaring Hawk

“I’m worried,” said Soaring Hawk to Lean Bear. They had just made love by the light of the fire in the pit of Lean Bear’s lodge. “It seems our secret may become known.”


Soaring Hawk lay on his stomach. Lean Bear was stretched out beside him, resting on his elbow, tracing the muscles of the brave’s back with his finger. Occasionally he would lean down to kiss his shoulder.


“We could solve this if you’d be willing to let it be known that you prefer men to women. We could be together then.”


“And I’d be expected to be used by men in need. I could not do that.” Soaring Hawk rolled onto his side and looked into Lean Bear’s eyes.


The man looked away. “I do that, I have all my life.” He looked back at the brave. “Do you look down on me for it?”


Soaring Hawk reached out and ran his hand down the man’s cheek.


Chapter 20