Son of an Indian brave and a white captive, Soaring Hawk is raised in the native customs. As he grows into manhood, he discovers his desire for the love of men. Knowing the fate of those of ‘two spirits’ within his tribe, he leaves the Indian village, disguises his heritage, and enters the white man’s world as Samuel Hawkins. He soon discovers life is difficult for a man who prefers men. While he finds companionship, and forms bonds with many of the men he meets, he is unable to find a relationship which satisfies his deepest need. He also discovers much of what is in the world outside his village conflicts with the values of his native upbringing. He embarks on an odyssey which takes him across the continent and into the arms and beds of many lovers. As he travels, he comes to realize love has many forms. But the one he seeks most continually eludes him. Where will his odyssey lead him? Will he ever come to the end of his search for Soaring Hawk?

The Search for Soaring Hawk

He snuggled against Nils, pressing his face into the blond curls that covered his neck. He breathed in the scent of his man. His first penetration had been painful for Nils. Although he’d tried not to show it, Sam had seen the grimaces that the smiles failed to hide. Sam knew it would get better for him, and he loved Nils all the more for his willingness to allow Sam this pleasure, despite his discomfort. He had reciprocated by letting Nils achieve gratification by coming into him.


The next day they would start on the livestock shelter and when that was completed, the cabin. The thought of the cabin brought a moment of melancholy to dampen the good feelings his evening had engendered, but only temporarily. The completion of the cabin was a long way off. Much could happen between now and then.


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