Son of an Indian brave and a white captive, Soaring Hawk is raised in the native customs. As he grows into manhood, he discovers his desire for the love of men. Knowing the fate of those of ‘two spirits’ within his tribe, he leaves the Indian village, disguises his heritage, and enters the white man’s world as Samuel Hawkins. He soon discovers life is difficult for a man who prefers men. While he finds companionship, and forms bonds with many of the men he meets, he is unable to find a relationship which satisfies his deepest need. He also discovers much of what is in the world outside his village conflicts with the values of his native upbringing. He embarks on an odyssey which takes him across the continent and into the arms and beds of many lovers. As he travels, he comes to realize love has many forms. But the one he seeks most continually eludes him. Where will his odyssey lead him? Will he ever come to the end of his search for Soaring Hawk?

The Search for Soaring Hawk

“I’m glad you’re here,” he said. “Don’t feel so alone having you with me.”


Wolf whined, wagged his great plume of a tail, and leaned against Sam’s leg. Sam looked back at the advancing shore. He squared his shoulders and took a deep breath.


He would find what he was searching for. If not here, then, maybe beyond, but he would find it. Of that he was sure.


The bargemen skillfully maneuvered the flat-bottomed boat to the mooring on the west side of the river. Sam untied his horse and led him off the vessel and onto the dock. There he paid the pilot. He continued on foot, leading the horse, with Wolf following close behind.


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